Days 11 and 12

Day 11

Was my 1st day back in work after being snow bound since monday.

what a scary trip to work, its not so much my mum driving that i was worried about but the other people on the road, so many people were driving like it was warm dry conditions (fools!)

i was also still feeling a bit down in general, found out a lad who was on my team has got engaged, really pleased for him but again made me feel bad for myself (i need to stop doing this, turning everything that happens in the world into stuff about me!!!) i'm pleased for him and wish him all the best.

what else happened on friday errrrr i might have eaten a donut! (ooooooooooooops) i knew exactly what i was doing and yet i still did it, oh well!!! i need my will power back!


Day 12

Today i have been on track top banana. but even though i have eaten within plan i know i've not had enough or well maybe i have but it should have been more evenly spread out.

Having an EE day

Breakfast
Fuller for longer yogurt

Lunch
some cottage cheese

Tea

steak
 Jacket potato
roast, pepper, onion, mushrooms, parsnips, tomato
green beans

followed by frozen fruit salad

Supper
SW chip butties with Warbies bread (the official Hx bread)

Biting on
2 slices of official bread with a bit of jam

i had the yogurt about 10ish then noting til 3pm then tea at 6.30pm , supper at 9pm and bititng on at 10.45pm

but i felt starving, i can have it all no need to feel guilty can syn it and it will be within the allowance but why do i allow myself to do it.


Ok on to other things. BUS DRIVERS GRRRRRRR (no offence is intended by this but i do need to vent!)

Because it was snowing this morning and because of all the exsisiting snow we decided to get the bus into town, all go the bus arrived within mins of getting to the bus stop.

that was the only good bit of the trip.

a woman feel at the bus stop near the playground on greenacres road and 2 people (no of which was the bus driver) had to help her to her feet and she must have been in pain.

then at Mumps the driver got off and we were left there for a good 20 mins with the doors open.

new driver arrives and finishes his fag and brew at the bus stop before getting on.

bus driver gets in and leaves the door open, his mate who's sat at the back of the bus gets up and starts to chat to him, 15 mins later we know all about his b'day trip to The Dam, his poker playig habits and that his mates owe him 100s of cigs (lovely!) a bloke at the back shouts "oi mate can you get a move on some of us have places to be" (he wasn't obnoxious with it just saying what we were all thinking)

The bus driver come back with a large number of expletives that would have made Gordon Ramsey Blush - then tells the bloke to "f***ing get off my bus" the bloke stays put, the engine is on and we move 2 foot maybe, driver stops carries on chat then we move another foot and decalires the bus is F**k'd!!! so we all get off and when the bloke who told the driver to move gets off the driver and his mate goade him so the bloke says "come out here and say that" next min the driver and friend and kicking the shit of the bloke, he was last seen under the bus, we were knocking on the door of other bus to try and get them to stop it and the driver just say nowt and drives off doesn't even let us get on his bus to get into the town centre!!! (£8.00 between 2 of us we had paid for this pleasure!) So no more buses at mumps and TBH we don't really fancy waiting there so we walk into town .

an exciting day all round, my fab wellies broke as well, i was only prasing them as the best £14 ever spend when i found the split! scraza fraza grrrrr, tesco didn't have anymore, but i struggle as i've got fat legs and need the half size ones. luckily my mum has some so i'm gonna have to use them, they are a but big but heyho!!!!

i got some bargin pumps from Debenhams sales  only £4.50, should have been £15.00 was gonna post a link but they arn't on their website.

I also had a sneaky peek this morning, now i know what you are going to say, and i like to look, i don't actually go but it but when i got up i weighed 17st 9.1lbs. this afternoon it was 17st 9.8lbs then a couple of house ago 17st 11.9lbs, its defo less than i was last week and i've only got tomorrow and monday to get through before wi (i'd be so chuffed it i lost the 2lbs i set myself this week) and it'd get me on with my planned loss for my holiday!!!

18lbs for May, i lost 1.5lbs last week so 16.5lbs to go!!! 17 Wi's to go!!!  So so far its just under 1lb a week, but as SW weighs in ½lbs we'll still have to aim for 1lb a week.

1lbs of fat is actually quite bit, i tried googling pretty images of 1lb might look like and i found this. Replica fat model think this is more shocking than something cute

Source: http://www.lifemedicalsupplier.com/images/one%20pound%20fat%20replica.jpg

This is the image that crops up a lot as well the lump of fat next to the mug, gross really and i have a hell of a lot of these stil to go!!!

But i will give us a cute 1lb because its quite shocking at what can weigh only 1lb! Its an itsy bits litsy kitsy!!! was only 3.6 oz at birth the length of a sharpie marker pen!!! this pic is 1lb 1oz So cute!! Ok i'm offski now see you later xxx