Avoidence

I don't know whats up with me, i feel angry and miserbale all the f'in time!!!!!! i got sooooo pissed off today, i got a messge inviting me for tea, but i couldn't go mainly because i's already got stuff out for tea and it was my fave tea. so even though she "lied " to me for months re the D, she requested a full explination as to why!!!! the later on i got another text summoning me to here after tea!!!! not do u want to comne to mine later, it was come to mine after tea!!!! grrrrr if she'd have worded it differntly then i would have gone but no, i put my foot down and bit my nose off to spite my face.... ...... at this moment in time i do not want to spend 5 days in polando with her. i want to curl up in a ball and cry and screem and grrrrr.

i kinda just want to avoid everyone and i don't know why, i think its the taurean side of me, when i am told to do somwthing i run and do the opposite.

ok so as this is a diet blod, here goes, i avoided the scales, quitely becuase i was stiill drunk at wi times, i'd already eaten by wi time then i went for as bath and had a nap and then it was tea time

this week so far i feel fat and uglyier than ever before. and i know this weeks wi isn't gonna be a good one.

something i think i'm never gonna get my life under control.

organised

i am getting closer to be organised for Polando. i have bought a new coat and boots, and got some tops to layer up. need to start making list of what i need to pack.

i also need to get my ass in gear and get back on track with this ww makary. i for got to WI this morning. only excuse i have is that i think i may still be drunk from last night!!!!!!!

one of my mates wants to go out agin, i don't think i can face it and the state of the pics of me on face book!!! OMG what was i doing!!!

wo is me

hi,

i've been a bit quite of lately, mainly because i have nothing to report. ww has fallen by the way side. and i realy need to get back on the wagon. cos i know it works.

i have just been eating what i want when i like and i have been feeling really heavey ( i know i am heaqvy anyway but just withing myself) i \m sluggish no enery motivation or desire to do anything remotely good.

the only exercise i'm doing in playing on the wii!!!!!!!!!!


i need to drag my arse out of bed and go and do something useful!!!!! like order my currency for polando!!!!

2nd mini goal achived

at long last i got my 1st stone, so 2nd mini goal slate is clear!!!

had a well busy weekend to tired to write much, so off to watch skating on ice results then sleep til morning!!!

ASDA NSV

Me and mama called at asda living on the way home and when i was wandering round looking for her i saw NSV!!! huuuu isn't that a ww phrase!!! so i toddled round for a bit and went for another look and too be sure it was a NSV of their very own!!! sadly not a non scales victory!!! but never the less!!! i had to take a pic, thank the lord for camera phones!!! what did we do without them!!!! :)

looking through the window of hope

I thought i'd scan the pics out of my WW journal as i have mentioned them a few times, i thought i'd let everyone else see them as well

as you may have guessed i'm not the worlds best scanner but you get the general idea

1) this is my count down to my Holiday. when we booked out jolly jaunt to Krakow we had 12 weeks to go, so i have made 12 columns and each week i give myself a sticker to sat how much i have lost that week.
2) this is the count down to getting my 10%. I have divided 27 squares in to half lbs and each week i colour in the relevant number of lbs lost!!!
3) this was count down to my 1st mini goal 7lbs!!! for each 1lb i gave myself a star.


4) this is the count down to my 2nd mini goal 14lbs! still 1.5lbs to lose but i decided as i tend to lead myself up the garden path why not use this as a way to record the lbs lost.

i have a little foot print stamp and i put one in the book for each half lb lost!

i will tidy up and crop these pics at some stage but that will be later **edit - have cropped them now!**


Measurements:

while i have the book out i thought i may as well let you know my measurements for jan and feb:

	11.01.08	11.02.08
Neck	17.5	17.5
Bicep	15	15
Chest	43	42
Waist	46.5	45.5
Hips	51	50.5
Thigh	28	27
Calf	19	18

so there has been a small change!!!