Cheeky Monkey

i have  a lot to ramble about tonight i will try and make sence of it but please bear with me!!!
Pasta Challenge

Some bastard has added TEN extra peices of pasta to my pasta challenge bag so when i got in this morning i actually had 1½ more peices that i started with!! i felt so mad and paranoid this morning. but i have calmed down but its taken me 12 hours to get there. it could be a mistake but i'm possitive on Monday night as i left work my bag 26½ peices in it!!! hmmm well we will see if it happends again.

CAPITAL LETTERS

 
WHO DECIDED THAT CAPITAL LETTERS MEANT SHOUTING?!
Another moment of paranoia from me on Monday i got a meeting invite at work entitles "TELEPHONY " 6TH MARCH 11-12 AT MY DESK from my manager. ooooooo i accepted but i have been stewing on it thinking it was something bad as it was all in CAPITALS as when my manager does emails she's normally very "correct" for want of a better phrase how she types things. and normally little meetings like that are called "Coaching" so i asked her was it just a coaching session , it is and she just wants me to listen to my calls (booo i hate listening to myself!) Then i asked bad calls and she got a bit quite and wanted to know wht i was asking so many questions. when i said it was cos the message was in capitals she laughed and said its nothing bad. BUT i was worried as i was on the phones again tonight and you know when you think oh god what if i do it wrong again!!!

New Photos

Even though i had the Pasta Paranoia this morning 1 person said i'd lost weight and another person said Imran had noticed i'd lost weight and said i should be honoured as he never notices anything!!!! LOL SO here are a couple of pics i know i should have moved the crap but didn't realise the camera would manage a full lengh shot!!!!

i think i might be noticing a difference now. and those pants i've got on although they are a size 22 they fit and they have never fitted before. i got them from Dotty P's years ago and they have a press stud rather than a button and when i got them i couldn't get them on but i loved em then when i could get them on i couldn't move without the press stud popping and i have had them all day and its never once popped so i don't care that they are a size 22 because what make up for it is that i tried 2 tops on from H&M in a size 16 and i could get them on (only wanted to use the mirror in the changing room as they are angled so you can see your back and my mum said mine was looking thinner!!!) and i had to buy a size 16 cardie from Asda as the 18 was miles too big on the shoulders!!!!

Stuff i found at work

When i 1st started SW last Jan i set myself some targets and i found them today.
The BIG one was i had decided on my Target weight. i'd picked 11stone now this is the heaviest for my hight. i still think its a bit unrealistic for me BUT we shall see.

It means i need to lose 126lbs altogether, thats seems mad its the weight of a person!!!
i have lost 40.5lbs so far thats only 22.5lbs off half way.i've got a peices of paper and i'm marking it off and it looks a little but easier to stomach than i did this time last year.

To make it easier to manager i set myself 6 mini targets within that. Now i've changed these loads of times and i will always have other goals to aim for such as the Bloody pasta challenge and my half stone awards etc but i'm gonna still use these and nice marking off points.

1. 28lbs
2. 25lbs 
3. 23lbs
4. 20lbs
5. 18lbs
6. 12lbs

I think they might be 10%s to start with the 1st 2 are but after that it gets a bit hazy?!
The 1st one is done and i'm half way through the 2nd one!!!!

I hope the weather is nice tomorrow i wanna got for another walk!!! xxx

Went for a walk

This afternoon as the sun decided to come out i decided to go for a little walk. My mum came as well which was good as she got us a much better route than i had in my head.  i'd planned to walk up one big hill then down another!

Mama took us up a little hill along round up a bit more then round and down a very big hilll. i'm not 100% sure how long we were out for but i did take my pedometer and we did!

3986 steps

3874 aerobic steps - 36 mins (aerobic steps start to be counted when you have walked nonestop for 10 mins with at least 60 steps per min)
134 kal 8.1g
1.58 KM

As you can see its quite a nice view from the top. I just hope the weather improves as i want to do some more walking, i want to get fitter not fatter!!!!

Saying that i have a confession to make. we went to costco tonight and i had an icecream sundae it was bloody lovely but given me belly ache!!!!!!

This  isn't the exact one i had but its pretty dam close!!! Then i've had a white sub roll with cornbeef and mustard on it!!!!

BUT thats it. i need to end it here!!! i need to get my 3stone award on monday!!!! i need to get to my next 10% i'm less than a stone away from it!!! 13.5lbs to go. and i really want that 3.5stone award as its a really nice turquoise colour!!!!!

I should be focuses.

i have 5 weigh ins til i go away then once i'm back 3 wi's til i go away again. i've got Luca's christening in September then i go away in October and then its almost xmas!!!!

I''d like a dress like on one of these for the Christening. ideally in a size 16!!!! these are both from debenhams not buying anything yet as UK weather is too unpredictable but september the weather should be ok!!! haha what am i on about its spring and parts of scotland and ireland are snowed in!!! we shall see xxx

40.5lbs down

Yipeeeeeee i lost 3lbs tonight. making that 14lbs in 2010 and 40.5lbs altogether!!!!!

This rather icky looking fish weighs that much!!! glad i no longer that that strapped to my back!!!!

So far i have not attempted a run and as i have 3 days off this week i was planning on giving it ago but unless this bloody weather bucks up it looks like it will be another week runless!!!

i can do this only 1.5lbs to go to my next award. How hard can that me!!!

This fish weighs 1.5lbs, that not very big at all is it!!!!

Some pictures from Saturday night. Me and Hel. don't know why he eyes are shut it was only the 1st pub and we were on diet coke!!! (well we had had some wine before we went out!)

 Look closely at the left hand side of the picture below and you can see Kelvin who is in Emmerdale. his pic makes me laugh cos he looks a bit miffed not to have centre billing in the photo and Karoeke Graham is in the limelight!!! if you see him get up to sing reach for the cheese he is trés Bad!!!

Finally a pic of me and my friends, yes that is diet coke in that glass!!! :0D

Bored.com

Wow i don't blog for months and 2 posts in one day.

i know i bang on about this weight loss malarky but today i had saw a blast from the past. well someone i would have liked to be a blast from the past.

he's not all that nice looking, but my god it kinda got to me and i realised (ERRR i already knew this) he doesn't like me he's never liked me and why the hell do i get so bloody hung up when i see him. admittidly its rare i see him. BUT i also felt embarassed that i am still so big. it'd be so nice to be thin (about a size 14) and see him and he give me a second look for a change. i mean even at a 14 he's think i was fat but its a hell of a lot thinner than i am now and i was at my biggest.

I wonder if i would have a better opinion of men if i wasa thinner. because at the moment i have very bad opinions of them. yes i may have tarred them with the same brush and sorry men if anyone reads this. but i'm finding very little evidnce to help me change my mind.

i had some really horrible things said to me and about me on saturday night at stupid o'clock in the morning anf i could have cheerfully punched the person who said them. i don't know who he was but good job i was trapped where i was. i have never had a fight and i don't think i have ever punched anyone but i would have done to this lad.

other exampls is listening to lads i know at work and who i used to go to school with that i still see occasionally and from observing them when i'm out. i want to be happy and meet someone but at the moment i still don't feel i can let my gaurd down.

i'm going out on saturday night i've decided. people are having their hair cut and hel hasn't been out for 5 months. i don't care if i drink too much as long as i don't gain this week i will be ok x

i have a feeling that a few black sambuccas will be consumed and i know after last sat i said i didn't want to go to Tokes but i think that i'd rather go there than Envy!!!

we shall see :0)

IKEA solves all lifes problems

Today i went to Ikea in Ashton with my Mama. I know a lot of people arn't fans of Ikea but i like it. think of all that body magic as we walked all around it not just cut through to the market place. i got a BRADA laptop rest which i am leaning on noe. it so much better as the lap top is that little bit higher on my knee and my legs aren't burning!!! :0)

The more i think about going out the less i want to go. BUT saying that the dress i want to wear now fits and i have a lovely new bra from marks and Sparks. The picture is very small and as you may have guessed its a stolen one and not one of me. £9.00 for the bra which i don't think is too bad for M&S.

If i can get out of going in a round i should be ok as i can control what i drink and get soft drinks in between alcoholic ones, but if i'm in a round i won't want to buy a cheaper soft drink for me while i'm paying x amount for my friends drinks. so we shall see.

Now comong from me this may seem unnatural BUT i feel like i want to go running!!!!

I do not run, i walked race for life. i used to throw myself down the hill in werneth park to get out of cross country running at school. but over the past week or so i feel like i could run, even if its just a little but. and 2 people i know from SW went for a run the other night and i felt a bit jealous that they could run. i wouldn't ask to go with them as i know i'm no good at it but i'm thinking of giving it a go at weekend. i just need to find somewhere where they are no people so  noone can laugh at me. i might go down to the old railway lines on saturday. hmmm we shall see but i think i'll be a bit homeresk

watch this space. it may or maynot happen yet!!! xxx

Prunes phffffffffffffttttttttttt

not the most imaginitive titles but blimy prunes is the word of the day.

i had my 1st ever taste of one tonight, the reason is not what you might think!!! it was to encourange my mum to eat one. and its given me a grumbly belly!!!! grrrrrr my father bought them from costco and they are the american version so not all small and wrinkly but more like dried apricots well the packet bills them as dried plums my dad only twigged once he got home that dried plums are prunes bless him!!! they were nice but my advice is stick to fresh plums!!!!

I only have 4.5lbs to go to my next stone award and i feel so scared that i'll muck it up. i'm going out this weekend and i know that i don't have to go up i kind feel like i need to because helen hasn't been out for 5 months. but i need to live my life. so all being well i can be good all week and still have a loss. so what if i only have a little loss as long as its a loss.

This little dog weighes 4.5lbs . thats kinda a tiny dog. it really shouldn't be all that hard to do!!!!!! :0)

11lbs lost so far for 2010 ~ wow it soon adds up

because i've been off track for so long i've taken stock and i want to lose weight for me and no-one else!!! yes ok you've heard it before but when i got SotW last week i have a quick look through my SW certificates and it look me 6 months to lose 2 stone then another 6 months to lose half a stone. thats bonkers, i can do it, it works and my mama proved that on Monday night when she reached her TARGET!!! yipppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

i lost 1.5lbs bringing my total to 37.5lbs lost and 11lbs of that has been this year (i got my 2st in june 2009then had a few blips but i got my 2.5st award at the end of jan 2010 then had another blip!!!)

the pasta challenge is going weel we've lost 22.5lbs between us in 2 weeks and i have a my sigts firmly set on 4 goals. i know its daft too have too many but these are what i've got to aim for:

• 14lbs lost in 2010 (3lbs to go)
• 3stone award (4.5lbs to go)
• 2nd 10%  16st 3lbs (15.5lbs  - but in my book its 16.5lbs as i rounded it up to 26lbs but it was really 25lbs) 
• 32lsb loss in 16 weeks (2 weeks down 5.5lbs lost 26.5lbs to go) 

i am being realistic about these and taking one week at a time ~ i've got 6 wis till i go away and if i can lose 2.5lsb a week i'll be 16.3½ which would be amazing i'm just wanting a loss each week. but i want my 3stone award before i go!!!!

very much on track food wise had an unexpected drunken night on saturday just glad i didn't start drinking til 11 pm but i'm out with the girls this weekend so i'm on damage limitaation all week!!!! xxx

I think i like it!

The Diet is still on track!!!! whit wooo, i am feeling very much in control and i think i like it!!! Its that thanks crunchie feeling without the chocolate and the rollercoaster!

I survived another fat friday, thats 3 in a row. today it was boxes of tesco chocolates that the section manager of the Billing contingency team had bought us to say thank you for putting up with them. I even took the offered box, looked at them and though NO i don't want one - and i was glad cos one of the girls said they are ok but have a bit of an odd after taste!!! EWWWWW!!! LOL

I went to the dentist on Thursday and i don't have to have anything done!!! wooo hooo!!!! i am such a scardy cat i was shaking and could hardly walk down the stairs to get back to reception you'd think she'd just told me i had to have all my teeth ripped out i was that bad!!! WIMP!!!

BUT a trip to the dentist means that we get a trip into Bolton centre. i know when you live in  place you get used to it and think its boring but maybe its cos i don't live there i love it. so many more shops than oldham and i got some fab new shoes from TK Maxx. £7.99 instead of RRP £34.99. i'm not sure if you an see the pics as i've had to post it as a web link from my facebook as i can' seem to load the pictures!!! I love the soles its seems a shame to walk on them. Mine are on the left (the black ones!)

Also on Thursday because of TESCOS 20% off event i got 2 tops that i have been looking at for a while, a bue animal print top and a grey new city rock print on the front. i bought 20s but when i tried the on they were tooo big!!! and plenty too big!!! Yippeeee i've chqnged the blue one for and 18s that fits nicely but the other one in 18s was still too big round the arms but just ok over the belly so i left that one!!! Its a lovely feeling when stuff is too big!!!

Just before Xmas i bought a blue dress from Sainsburys with the intention of wearing it on Xmas Eve when i wet out for a family meal but it was too small. BUT i love it so much i decided to keep it as it'll be ok for holidays!!

I tried it on last night and it almost fits!!!!

I think it looks ok from the front but still too tight across the back. I wouldn't wear it on its own but didn't look right with the grey -  sizes too big tracky bottoms i had on before the dress went on!!! 7 WIs til holiday and fingers crossed it will fit properly!!! You would think that having 3 holidays booked ofr this year would make me focus on losing weight, well it has and its hasn't. BUT what has spurred me on its My friends sister Emma recently had a baby and i got an invite to the Christening. its not til september (aprox 25 weeks) it'll be the 1st time i've seen zoe for about a year if not longer and i really want her to notice the differnce (not just her but all the people who will bethere that i know ) and i know i will be far far happier.

the other night i was looking at my SW certificates and i realised it look me 6 months to lose 2 stone then another 6 months to lose half a stone!!! the reason i had a goal SP (no SKs ) wedding now i have a purpose Luca's Christening!!!!
I know i shouldn't but the sneaky peeks seem to be going in the right direction!!!


I'm not under tall....

This was the title of a blog i saw and you know that even at 6'8 i'd be over weight!!!! I couldn't find out how tall i'd need to be to be in the healthy range and just think it'd be even taller at my start weight!!!!! And love garfeild, i have a strange affinity too him, i think i might be him exept i don't lurve lasngane (and i don't think i can spell it!)

At the beggining of April, my work are starting a Pedometer challange in a bid to get us all fit. i dug mine out and its amazing how far i walk with out even trying today i've walked about 4 KMs!!!!

10,000 is what we need to walk to stay healthy and i've achived thios over past 2 days all together this week (Since Monday) i've walked about 16 KM without even trying!!!!

Tonight i was going to a 30th Birthday party from someone at work, becasue we don't finish work till 6pm we decided to go to the Havester for tea. But but mum had the foresight to look on the website for a menu and found the NVs SHOCKING!!!! http://www.harvester.co.uk/nutritional-information.html .SO we went to Nandos instead and i'm really glad as i enjoyed every second of it!!! and wasn't too bad syn wise. we had chicken platter with sweet potato mash and spicy rice!!!! :)

Pasta Challenge

Hello all,

Sorry i've not been about but been a bad dieter, trying so hard but falling down at the last hurdle!!!!

BUT i now feel like i have a good support network at work as there are 7 of us embarking on a pasta challenge.

The jist is we have have each set ourselves a goal of X amount of weight to lose over the next 16 weeks (we chose 16 as it takes us to the last week of june AKA summer!?) Myself and two others have gone for 2lbs a week target the rest 1lb but over all it comes to a total pledge of 12stone 4lbs - wow that sounds scary!!! well the way to make it manageable is we each have a bag of pasta with  x amount of pasta. then each week if we lose we take it out and put it in a main bag so in theory by the end of the challenage we will all have individual empty bags and one big bag of pata!!!

My bag of pasta is below being modelled by will (please ignore the loft info behind him)!!! Iam off to a good start this week i lost 4lbs!!! Yipppppeeeeee 28peices of pasta to go!!!!

so far this week we have lost 10lbs and still with 1 person to WI and one person only joined this week. I've worked it out and it works out at an average of 1.5lbs per person per week which doesn't sound too scary. 2 people have stayed the same but we shall see how thwy do!!!

I'm also going to get back into my SW journal. i've updated it a but tonight but i think i need to tidy it up. i'veneglected filling my my WLs for a few months ehem bad slimmer!!!!

and i think i might have a few too many pages goign on at once but i like to have my 10% challenge and my ½stone things then another mini target. i need to streem line make sure what i've got is upto date and then sort out whats going to be what!!!

xxxx

i had another gainSo much for being bad on track

 gained again!!! The hand of temptation has been infront of me all week, if its not been donuts at work its been me just eating ppicking and generally being a pig. i'm quite surprised it wasn't more!!! 

As i've said a number of times if i gain i will kow why and boy do i!!! 

I've secured will poweer for the week and i hope i can get back on track i felt so proud of myself to get to 2.5stone lost, it took me so long to get there and now and then i go and muck it up!!!

 I know its a really feble excuse but we haven't got much in the way of fruit to take to work tomorrow. but we shall see. I can not let will down!!!!
I've got corn  beef butties fro tomorrow and i'm planning to go to tesco on my lunch tomorrow. i need to use that to buy salad and fruit!!!!


will has never lost he has always lost i will lose too!!! i should have made some soup to take. i have made manderine jelly!!! yummy. 


someone please send me so motivation.i have the will power but i also need motivation!!!!