Day 25 ~ blahhhhhhhhhhhh

i may decide ot think of a better title later

foods gone weill today again, feel so much better being in control. not happy at working tomorrow after all the shit thats going on at work, we've now been told we are the only department to have to sign new contracts, we've yet to see them, there are rumours about possible voluntary redundancy, i know  a few people that would jump at these if they were the right package but at the mo its only rumour.

i do feel bad for the people at rayleigh esp as it now emerges that the 1st they knew about it was reasing it in the paper. i have a quick look at the comments and at 1.50pm there were 91 comments only had a chance to read a couple, i'm sure there will be many more rumours in the comming weeks.

the head hincho is coming in for a 30 min meeting with people on monday, no idea how many people will get to meet him, we're gonna get some questions together incase anyone gets a chnace to ask anything. and on monday the union meets with the company to ask question then again on wednesday to get some answers. it needs to be looked at, they seems to have devided the work up on bums on seats rather than experience and expertise, out centre has a lot of long serving memebers of staff and becasuse we have a lot of experts and all this is going to go and we will all be general enquires. well we shall see, only time will tell as they say.

Then for me the final nail in the coffin was we gont an email today saying its almost valentines day so we are gonna have some V'day fun (they didn't use the term v'day but i can't bring myself to use that blasted word a second time!!!)

Fun i've said quite louly that the only fun thing that day will be watching me hurl myself off the roof without the aid of a saftly net!!!!

I hate the day though we would escape it because its on a sunday but NO!!!! fun fucking fun my arse!!!!!

OK rant over yes i am single can you tell!!!

Food wise again started late didn't eat til 11am but think its gone better. no b choice today but i haven't needed on. Still no bread!!! almost gave in as i made my dads butties and you know that little but of crustthat the bread sliceing machines always creat well that made it near my mouth before i realised what i was doing!!!!
Tomorrow i will be having bread becasue we are having fish and chips from the EE cook book, it was very nice last time we had it and i can count the bread as a HxB. its 4 peiced of bread between 4 peices of fish, so not too bad (thats for the whole recipe)

Todays food.

breakfast 11am
Apple and Banana

Lunch 12.30pm
Tuna  pasta salad (1 Syn)
Clementine
Fox's Crem Jam ring (4 Syns)

Snack between 3pm -5.30pm
Pear
3 x clementines

Tea 6.45pm
2 pork chops
SW chips
Carrots and Green Beans
Pear
Kitkat (5syns)

Snack 9.30pm
Slice of Cheese (HxA)

Made tuna pasta salad again for my dinner tomorrow, i had bought one of the tesco ready meals but i think ready meals can be ok but sometimes make you feel hungrier!!!

Another thing that doesn't help me is having my breaks and dinner at differnt times every day, i alwys used to ahve my lunch at 12.30pm but today it was schedualed for 13.15 and i ended up eating my dinner at my desk! luckily it kept me full till later and i felt ok snacking on fruit. i'd even taken special k mini breaks which i'm glad i didn't eat in the morning cos i had the bicci offered to me by tracy and then after tea i shared a kitkat with my mum.

take care hope everyone is doing ok xxx