***sneeky Peek***

we all know they are a never a good idea but i think you'll forgive me this one!!!




This is the Tshirt i will be wearing tomorrow well from 2am this morning!!!!!! its actually a lot better thank i expected!!!! was worried it'd be too short but its actually a bit big yipppeeeee (don't get too excited its a 22's!)


please excuse the 1st photo i've not had a shower yet but had to try it on!!!!

we do have other accessories but i'll leave them as a surpisre not gonna be able to WI this week which i'm quite upset about, well upset the wrong word but i love my SW class its a really nice group and i love seeing everyone, so i will miss that and worried about the damage i'll do in Lith but well its arrive i will try and control it as much as i can.

right i'd best go and pack then have a shower n off to a friends, then out for tea, then have to stay awake till the minibus picks us up at 2ish!!!! :D xxxx

I have to hold my hand up and say i have OCD!!!

Or OTW

obsessive Cullen / Twilight disorder.

i don't know what is up with me, i am 28 years old and reasonablly sane most of the time, but this bloody twilight saga has taken over my life!!!

the best of it is i had to be persuaded to read the books!!!

then i got talkin g into buying the film (i know own 2 copies!!!) the directors note books and the movie companion book and i am on the verge of pre-ordering this thing Stephenie Meyers has done on the complete history of twilight!!!



But its him Robert Pattinson that i love he is lush!!!! i even re-watched the Goblet of fire just to see him in it!!!!

and i have been looking on I Tunes for his other songs.

i have even added loads of Twilight fan sites to my Twitter i only have 3 real life twitter frinds the rest are celebs or Twitter related, i even installed twitter fox so i wouldn't miss out!!!!!!


BUT on the plus side while i am obsessing i'm not eating!!!!!!

so could u please slap me and tell me that at 23 he is too young for me and he is famous so i will never ever meet him and 3 get a life!!!!


LOL xxx

I don't quite know How to say How I feel...

... just been listening to chasing cars by Snow Patrol (I tunes random) and i love the line:

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

It applies to me, mainly because i don't know how i feel at all, about so many things, i am constantly happy and sad at the same time about the same things. I can't seem to articulate how i feel to myself let alone anyone else!!!

I lost ½lb this week, Yay a loss, after last weeks disaster and going out again this week for birthday drinkies i was dreading it. No WI for me next week as in Lithuania!!! but i've said i'll try for a maintain for the week after, trouble is i have no idea what kind of food to expect in Lithuania and i've googled and am finding loads of pizza places and the rest says traditional Lithuanian food, but no explination as to what this is!!!

i've also been googling images of Kaunas and it looks quite pretty, just a bit concerned as what there will be to do, but i'm sure we'll find something and apparently Charl knows the owner of a bar out there (Very Random i know!) who is gonna open up for us on the Tuesday night as most night life is confined to the weekend (this contradicts google as meant to be a studenty city?!?!!?!?!) so i am going to open my mind and face my fears.


People keep asking me where Lithuania is so if your not sure here is a map, it sits on top og Poland and Belarus and under Latvia, HTHs!
:D
Feel a bit better now i have sorted out monay (Tan is getting it for me!!) and travel insurace (£53.25 for an annual policy but does include schedual airline liquidation cover!) BUT i'm not covered for travel to Afghanistan , Isreal, Cuba and somewhere else!or extreem sports! (oh shucks and i was gonna chuck myself off a cliff with only my knicker elastic to save me!!!)

I'm trying to decide what to take this is my list so far, please let me know if i'm missing anything?!

General:
6 x Knickers
2 x Bras
4 x Socks
Toothbrush
Toothpaste
Base
Eye liner
Mascara
eyeshaddow
Deo
(we're buying shampoo / showergel when we get there)

Monday:
Travelling: Linen Pants (black if i find em other wise navy)
t-shirt thats been printed with Hen do stuff!
long think black cardie (if i can find it)
coat
Trainers

Evening:
Jeans
Nice Top (TBD)
or
Dress from Asda with tights (if it fits)
ballet pumps from Primark

Tuesday
Day:
Jeans
White Vest and checked shirt
Trainers

Evening: (Glam B&W night)
Black dress
"pearls"
bead bracelts
sequin flower for hair
and earrings (that i wore last sat if i've brought them home from Hels)
Tights
Primark Ballet pumps

Wednesday:
Day :
Linen pants
White with Black Cat print t-shirt (i i can find it)
the afore mentioned black cardie

Night : (girls night in)
Pjs

Thursday:
Home:

Jeans
hen do t-shirt
or white vest
checked shirt

well? what do we think?

Shocked by Anarexia Programme

I've just put the Ferne Cotton anarexia programme on ITV2 and i'm shocked at the lengths people go to and how in this day and age people will still do crash diets and fast and go on these pro anna websites. I do understand that its an Illness and BDD is on the rise but it shocks me that it still goes on.

What also surprises me the things that people i know do and say regarding diets. we're in the C21 and surly by now we should have all learnt that crash dieting makes us fatter and the only true formula to lose weight is to burn more calouries that we take in.

Easier said thatn done or we'd be all "normal" sized. and i am as guilty of the next person for not following this simple guide line.

So i am commited to following a sensible eating plan and doing more activity and getting over my birthday blip!!!!!

I gained 1.5lbs and it shows how easy it is to do!!! kinda back on track now but am struggling a bit but i will come through it and i'm not vanishing and ignoring it,

gutted i will still be in the 18s for Lith but hey ho !!!!

I want to be a bohemian!!!!!

OMG We Will Rock You was fantastic!!!!! I loved every minute of it !!!! The cast was amazing, below is a cast photo i found through the power of google, i don't think its 100% the same as who was on last night, cos the girl in the pink n green corset (Meat Loaf) was a black girl last night. And Ant Mcpartlin wasn't in it!!! (haha its a pic from the opning when loads of Celebs went to visit.

Kevin Kennedy was fantastic, wasn't in it enough really!!!! The whole cast was amazing and its really good how they have updated the script to get more recent Popular culture / New items in!!!

If you haven't been to see it you need to get tickets and go, i was amazed by the number of songs the managed to get in and how they all worked and fitted round the story line!!! i totally wanna be a bohemien!!!!!


I did have a little cry, even though its so funny, the last song before the interval is No body but you (only the young die young) and before it starts they name a few famous people who died young, then they say Freddie and start singing. well as soon as she said Freddie i welled up!!!! I'm a soft lump. I think it might be becuase he is the 1st famous person i activly remember dying, or the 1st one to stick in my head.

My cousin (its about 4th cousin but for easy my cousin) Becki was obsessed with Queen and she's a couple of years younger than me so bearing in mind Freddied died in November 1991 when i was Ten so Becki would have been 7/8 you can see that even at a young age we were already heavily infulenced by our parents music sorry i digress. on the day freddie died |becky was distraught (think Bob leaving take that, if there had been a help line she'd have been 1st in the que) and her sister Jess who was about 4/5 at the time (maybe younger) went runing tound the house shouting the Queen was dead (as in Lizzie) becky was so upset!!! and that has always stuck in my mind. RIP Freddie You are missed xxxxxx


Our Hotel was fantastic, it was worth every Penny, the Bed , was sooooooooooo comfy, and decent pillows!!!


The Bathroom was fantastic as well, i know its a bit sad taking pics of stuff like this but well i had to!!!! giant bath and double size shower cubical i got my moneys worth i had 2 showers!!!!

And its a good job no-one got midnight munchies cos look at the in room bar tariff!!!!


The View out of the window, eve though we were pratically on top of picadilly station and the Mancunian way it was silent, no noise. so if you need a hotel in Manchester i would recomend the McDonald on London Road, 2 big thumbs up!!!! Ps if you go make sure you have a shower!!!!

And a Token Picture of me!!!!
Diet wise not the best weekends, we had a hot pork baguette with chips in a Weatherspoons, it came with stuffing and apple sauce, but my chips were cold so only had a few and the stuffing was that rank mass produced dry catering stuffing that isn't worth the effort to chew so that got scraped off!!! but i did have some mayo to helo with the taste of the chips!!!

then we had some wine (a lot of wine!) a big bottle of jacques each, then on the way home we called in Burger king, i got a cheese burger and a diet coke and my mum had a cheese burger and a coffee, we'd only just come out of BK and she dropped the coffee Ops (i wouldnt mind but it had cost £8 for 2 cheese burgers and 2 drinks!) we went back to the hotels and i made brews while my mum ate her burger, by the time i'd had a wee and brew'd up my mum was fast asleep!!! so i had one bite of my burger and then had to throw up a lot!!!! haha gross i know, i had had a lot to drink but i felt ok untill i had the burger. so i binned that and only had 3 sips of my D'coke!!! so what a waste of bloddy money and calories!!!!

then this morning we had weatherspoons traditional breakfast, they had no toast so saved some calories there. Then we went to More reasons to shop at Morrisons, and had fish n chips, but we skipped the bread and butter, and i only had a little bit of the batter and left loads of chips.

But saying i had fish n chips i've still been eating crap i've had a chocolate mousse and 2 cornbeef butties. crazy!!!!!

Therefore i am dreading WI tomorrow!!!! xxxxx

We will we will ROCK YOU!!!!!

I am really excited as tomorrow i'm off to see we will rock you!!! and staying over!

we're staying over at the McDonald hotel near piccadilly station, the hotel is expensive but it'll be worth it to round off the weekend, then i need to stay in for a few weekends. i wanted to go out next weekend for my b'day but i defo can't afford it paying for the hotel and i need to buy bloody travel insurance, gonna get an annual policy as going lithuania, poland and egypt this year.

i'm gonna stay in all june as well then once i get back from Poland i'll only have about 3 weeks til the wedding, which i need to buy a dress for!!!



This is my braclet now. not the best pic in the world! got 3 charms off my mum, 4 off my gran and one off a friend at work, so its almost full!!! which is great BUT it was kinda meant to be to record my weight loss. so i'm gonna still buy charms for my weight loss.

OMG Tom Hanks is really funny i hate to admit it but he seems like a really good guy!!!!! haha he just did the BIG RAP!!!! hahaha shhhhhhh please don't tell anyone i have just change my opinion of TH!!!!!! arrrrgggghhh OMG i'll be liking Tom Cruise next (HAHA no that will never happen or if it does please shot me down dead!!!)

Happy 28th Birthday to me

Its my birthday tomorrow, not sure if i'll be about to blog so thought i'd do a quicky now! But not sure what to write.

Another 12 months has passed and i'm still a chunk but as i have said a million times before (think i might be related to del boy i've said this so many times!) this time next year i'll be a millionaire .... oh no i will be thinner!!!! ideally by now i'd have liked to be in the 17s but we can't always have what we want. i'm just glad i'm 22lbs lighter than my heaviest recorded weight!

My gran got be 4 charms for my bracelet, which are lovelt and my mum got be 3. my bracelet is npw almost full!!! while i love this i did want this to be for my weightloss so i am contemplating buying a second bracelet to separate them out, what do you think?

i got my card and present from work today (birthday club, my work isn't so generous to honour birthdays!) i got a lovely card and a £14 New Look Voucher so that will be coming to Manchester with me on Saturday, but i might save it till i'm a bit thinner and put it towards some jeans in a smaller size?!

i also got a cheque for £50 from my other Gran and Grandad, so done quite well, not expecting anything off my mates as everyone is skint and we have this hen do in a couple of weeks time but a card or 2 may be nice not seen any of them for a couple of weeks properly.


xxxx

1½bs and 1½st lost

I am so chuffed. i have finally go to my 1½Stone Loss!!!! i lost 1½lbs tonight making it a total of 22lbs lost!!! Which when i googled 22lbs i dicovered is the weight of the giant German Bunny!!!!!
I wouldn't fancy carrying that around with me everyday but apperntly i have been!!!!

As i mentioned in an earlier post i was a bit premature in buying my next charm for my bracelet but it is finally officially mine to add!!! like a big geek i bought one named Twilight after my obession at the moment!!!! but i love it anyway there is one thats the opposite colours called Dawn and i might get that next if my gran hasn't bought it for me for my B'day cos i know she was getting me at least 2 charms!

My mum got me three charms for my birthday, once called white Ice, Happy Birthday and one of the new ones that has coloured gems.

As promised some new pictures of me the one below was taken in wetherspoons in Skipton on Saturday night

And the one below was taken Saturday Afternoon on the feild. Like my new Sunnys. £5 from DP

And Finally The dreaded Monthly shots taken this afternoon just before WI.

ta ra for now xxxxxx