2 blogs one day what is the world coming to?

Ok i know i know, i must bore you all to death with these things, if infact anyone actually reads them,  but even though i have blogged once i don't really feel like i have got everything down, what everything is i don't really know but you know sometime when you feel like there is more to say.

So as nothing is springing to mind i thought i'd add a pretty picture of out RPATZ mmmmmmmmmmm quite sad at 28 years old to be in lust with a fictional charcture but walt disney now has a competitor for messing with young (yes i'm still tarring myself with that particular brush) womens idea of Mr Right / Prince Charming / The ONE / Him who shall be named!  Ms Stephenie Meyers!!! if anyone doesn't know who she is you should be ashamed !!! She is the author of the Twilight series. (Twilight?! never heard of it, Please use your favourite search engine and have a look!)

I've got a 121 tomorrow to discuss career options i think i'm gonna say when i group up i wanna be a vampire! wonder how well that will go down!

If i was a vampire i would be come instantly stunning have men falling at me feet. but i don't think i'd be happy. i mean i'm not all that happy as a human so i doubt imortallity would help that fact. i know i go on a lot about being unhappy but its true i am and i'm not sure what i can do to alter that state. i don't wanna go down the route of seeing a doctor as the ones at my health cetre are hopeless and they'd dismiss me like they did with my PCOS!!! (come back once you are married and have been trying for a baby for 12 months and we'll give you IVF) see anyone who's been reading this will know i seem to quote this a lot, how dare they assume i want a baby i don't i really do not like children (i don't mean to offend people, my opinion i don't want a kid) what i did want was help with my increasinly moodly unhappy self, my horrnedous periods (sorry any men) and my lack of self confidence, i was told losing weight would help, no shit sherlock, go one give us a clue, maybe ask if i wanna see a dietition or maybe a perscription to a slimming club, NOOOOOOOOOOOO just why are u crtying when you get married and can't have kids come back. oh fuck u mr doctor man!!!

please excuse my french i think i may be hormonal but as i have been on for the last 6 weeks on and off i'm not actually sure where the hell i am up 2!!!!

I'm officially starting to look forward to Egypt, its not somewhere i've ever been before and i'm not sure what to expect but loads of people from work go and all love it. i think it'll be a bit differnt as we're not going in an all inclusive hotel, i've never know anyone go to Egypt and not stay in one so we shall see, and we've found a bar that sells pork chops Heaven!!!! No 100% sure if this picture is where i am going or if it is even in Egypt, but i'm using Scribefire to blog and it lets you upload pics from Flickr so you don't have to trawl all throught the t'interweb to find an image, so i just put in El Gouna and this is one of the pitures , it looks a bit like an artists impression to me what do you think.



I wonder how the happy couple are getting on on honeymoon up in the Orkney's? i need to ask her why they picked there, been thinking aboiut it but never got round to asking. been having a quick nosey about it and it looks so pretty i hope they have some nice weather and not these manky thunder storms we keep having!!!!!!!!

for a long time i had a cut out of a villa in Greece that i'd have like to have gone to on honeymoon but as they years progresses and the lack of boyfriends let alone marriage proposals continued it must have been binned. shame i'd like to know where abouts in greece it was, all i remeber where these amazinf villas and infinity pools that cost so much money it included your own bulter!!!!!

i've always had expensive tastes!!! :)

Just noticed on the Map of the Oarkney's Auskerry a small Island all by its self to the right hand side (i know they are all little islands!) its the table name i was on at the wedding and it looks kinda how i feel. Alone, but surrounded by many. on the edge of the group never in the centre nor would i want to be the centre! Just always that little bit to far on the periffery

Gosh its strange how you get talking about one things and other feelings poor out, i'm not saying i feel much better but its good to talk and BT have been telling us for years!!!!

Back at Club 10

And here i want to stay.





i got my letter about club 10, i got my club 10 cert about 5 weeks ago and since then i gain ad have just got back to it.





not having a good food week so far with the dentist on tuesday and cookies and twister lollies yesterday and my re-discovered love for milk roll!!! all i want to lose is ½lb this week making me 17 13½but ut wil be in thye 17s, its all psycological i tell you.

i've taken some new 3 sided pictures as not done it for months and i re-meausred but have not chnaged inch wise since i last measured in May! odd but true but then again i haven't really lost all that much weight since May. (about half a stone) but i do feel very bloated and cos i don't feel well, on monday i tried some pants on for work and i got in them but couldn't find a top i liked i put them on on wed and couldn't get them fastened thats how quick the bloat has set in! jeans that have been big on me for weeks have been on with the belt undone today!!!! hope its just cos i'm not feeling well!!!!

roll on 6pm saturday, i'm in work 8 -6 and don't wanna play. i don't mind my job but i feel so hopeless when on the call centre!!!

A Design for Life....

..... i seem to start with... a lot these days not quite sure what it says about me as a person?

Today was a delightful trip to the dentist to re-open my root canal and have a poke about inside! NICE!

have felt lousy alday since, don't know why i am so scared of the dentist, i was shaking and panaking. the actual treatment wasn't as bad as i was expecting its just the lingering pain, all the gum around the tooth is sore and i have tooth ache in all my bottom teath on that side? (its a top front tooth i've had the work on!)
Diet wise it should be good as i canne chew, i have had some soup, i need to check it out syn wise as it was an ASDA normal fresh leak and potatoe soup and it was only 40Kals per 100Grms but it had double cream in it so not sure how that works?! err well it was 15½syns for the whole tub thanks god i shared it! and i decided to be a cheapo and bought smart price chicken roll and its ½syn a slice on original / EE and i've had about 5 slices and i can pretty much inhale it! i'll go back to the wafter thin stuff!!!!

i also seem to be developing swine flu symptoms at a cracking pace, pretty much working my way through the alphabet of symptoms

A
C
D
F
H
P
N

I'll let you put a name to the letters!

i really hope i haven't got it as from the people i know who have it / had it its horrible. i've had cronic stomach pains since saturday and just wanna cry all the time.

The wedding on friday was amazing she looked stunning. its not the kinda dress i would have gone for nor expected her to go for but she did look lovely with the veil on and all the lads dressed up.

If i ever get married i'd like a dress a bit like the ones below. stupid to even think about such things i know!

Guess we can't help what we think about!!!

Oh good news i actually lost 1lb this week , no idea how, so i'm back down to 18stone!!!! i should be happy but guess i'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself again.

But there are now only 13 wi's til T'gypt so i have to get my bum in gear. ideally i'd like to have lost another 2 stone but lets be realistic, i am going for 1stone. 1lbs per week. i can do this.

And next week i will be in the 17s!!! for god sake if i'm not there will be tears!!!!

Morning has Broken.... here comes the bride.....

Well today is the day, the wedding is in 4 and a hald hours!!! i need to get a jimmy wriggle on, i've had my shower and need to dry my hair, although i'm going to the hair dressers for a blow wave i've had to wash it again, i dyed it last night and left the conditioner in intennding to have a shower and wash it out later, only the later ended up being this morning!!! ops 

i'll get some picturs up later i just hope this weather improves soon. it'd be such a shame for bad weather plus i really don't wanna have to take a coat with or a brolly with me.

right i'd best go n do something useful xxx

What do Tigers Dream of

'Stu's Song' The Hangover performed by Ed Helms

one of my facebook friends has this song as her status and i love it. got to be one of the best bits fo the film, and i liked this film so much i've seen it twice.and stay for the end credits!!!

been feeling really blue today. i think its just with the wedding tomorrow, all my girl friends bar one will be there alone so its not like i'll be the odd one out but i justr feel like i'm a grown up and i'm still missing my adult rating, wheres my other half, its almost like i'm not complete, yes i know i am buying into 101 cliches and if i knew where walt disneys crogenically frozen body was i'd defrost him and shoot him for warping my sence of self!

every where i've turned today has been wedding wedding wedding!!! tv 4 weddings , tv runaway bride, looking for a dress i've bought and when i type debenhams into my search bar the 1st thing it found was weddings at debenhams.

yes it is wedding season and when i get married (if ) i get married i want to get married in june, anyone tell me why and i'll give u 10 points!

but i'm sick of being constantly tired and sad and i need to paint on my happy face tell my friend how beautiful she looks and what a wonderful day it is. even if i am screaming to get out, what i'm afraid of is that i'll be that mad woman in the toliet at the wedding thats crying and ranting... you know there always is one!!!!

well i'd best try n get some sleep need a shower and stuff then  off to the hairdressers for 11am!!!

night flokes x

Scribefire

oooo just been told about a new mozzilla add-on scribefire so you can blog from the tool bar a bit like twitterfox but for blogger.

so far so good but have only written a line and an a half! and its seems easy enough to add pictures and stuff



 and you can add pictures direct from flickr.

i think i'm ready for this wedding tomorrow but i'm feeling nervous, god help me if it was my own wedding (haha like it ever would be!)

the more i think about it the less likely i think it is that i would ever get married, don't get me wrong its not that i don't not want to get married but i think no one would ever want to marry me even after i lose weight.

BUT and that is  a very big but if i ever did get married i think it would be Vegas, with a few very close friends, not tell anyone what was going on, but organise a party for something else.

get married in vegas have a fab honeymoon there.

then when you get home invite everyone to a party somewhere, the just before me and hubby arrive get the place to have a fake fire alarm so everyone has to go outside  as we turn up in wedding clothes / wedding car, while the people from the place quickly change the tables and put up wedding decorations!!!

cunning as a fox!!! but i can't do this now cos i've told you lot.

i think that should cut out a lot of stress. but then again who knows!!!

but no point thinking about it,

right i'd best go need to have my hair coloured then at haor dressers tomorrow morining to have my hair washed and dryed properly!!!

xxxx

Tammiflu to the rescue......

What does Tammiflu do? i've heard that its the medicine to help get better when having swine flu, i've heard it should be taken before developing as its a vacine so you don't get it, i've heard that it actually does nothing (i smell placeabo)

someone at work phone in today to say he has swine flu, but he thought he'd already had it (a visit to scotland when it 1st broke out) he has the lowest immune system of anyone i know and gets everything going but then again the symptoms = a lot of other problems.

i've got a sore throat and earache and itchy eyes i think its hay fever but people laugh cos its wet and miserable but the pollen count near work doesn't seem to have dropped!


i have to stay well til friday at least, the wedding i've been going on about for 12 months + is finally here.
i'm no where near as light as i wanted to be but i am at my equal lightest to when i did WW.

i will; be wearing a size 20 dress. was aiming for an 18s but no point being squeezed into something too small!!!

feel a bit disapointed inmy self that i am not at my club 10 but only have myself to blame, i want to be as good as i can all week so i can enjoy the wedding without worrying, as my mum pointed out its only 1 day!!!
This is me in the dress in debenhams changing rooms not a brill shot so i hope it looks much nicer on the day!and i still hate that frill!!!

i've booked into have my eyebrows done on thursday and booked a blow wave as the hair dresser calls it, i quite fancy an updo but i think my hair down will be more flattering, i've also asked if they will attach my fastenater, its just on a sildy comb and whenever i do it i transpost my now self back to 1987.

On The Road Again...

Well Tuesday - today (Friday) i have been very virtuous and not slipped up Yet!!! Now saying that i have agreed to go to a charity do tomorrow night, but i doun't think i'll drink and a video day a mates (yes i know it'll really be a DVD Day) and that usually involves crap, but i have to get into the mind set that Slimming World is a way of life not a diet i can go out i can go to friends house i just can't over indulge to often.

i really want to shift 3.5lbs this week but i won't be upset if i don't just a loss will do.

but 3.5lbs would take me into teh 17's!!! only just but still there.

i've bought another dress for the wedding, its the 1st one i looked at in Debenhams many moons ago, in fact it about 2 years ago that they got this syle in and back then i struggled to get the 22's zipped up. But on Thursday i took a size 20's in to try on and it fitted!!!! so i got it. now i still think its a bit frumpy but its not as low cut as the purple fru fru number from tesco and its also just that little bit longer. And lucky i bought neutral shoes and handbag, so at least now i have the choice of both on the day, and the blue dress is the colour i was after all along

Its the frill down the front i'm not keen on. It seems to be very flattering. well we shall see, this time next week i'll be at the reception, i do hope the weather is better than today has been.

It'd be such a shame to have rain on a July Wedding day. But isn't rain on a wedding day good luck, or is it bad luck ??? must google .... over all concensous is good luck, hindu saying / proverb says a wet knot is harder to untie and makes for a lasting marriage and rain a sign of properity and fertility.

As i said before good food week, i've not really had any proper bread, had a corner of a peice of Nibble last night quite subconciously i was making my mums lunch and the coner fell off and i'd swallowed it before i realised what i was doing. I've also had some of those Pagen Krisp rolls, not bad really 2 Syns each or 3 as a HXb choice.

I'd also like to know who decided you could have 6 laughing cow ELF cheese triangles, try as i might i can stomach no more than 3 at anyone time!!! and 2 is a bit of a struggle as well!!!

I've also got back on board with HSMSHS i'd forgotten how much fun it is. there are pics on my other blog and on facebook

I've also updated my Journal - i'm gonna try and create a thing so you can see mulitpul pages at once as there are quite a lot of pages filled in now.

I do it to record little acchivement and sucess stories that i have found interesting and i also have pages for my SW sticker awards and stuff.

It might seem a bit rubbishy to other people but i love geting awards for my half stones so i thought i'd do my book, i also record my 1lb losses by differnt means, you'll see if i ever get these pics sorted ....

1: Cover

2: The dress i wanted for the wedding from Coast

3: My Fatest Ever Picture :(

4: 1st Maxi Goal (what i decided to call my biggy goals, but i had mini ones inbetween them) ~1st stone

5: 1st 4 SW awards. Lots more to come!!!

1: Slimmer of the Week

2: 2nd Maxi Goal ~2 stone

3: Club 10

4: Body Magic ~ i have Bronze and Silver so far!!! :)

5: Maxi Goal 3: ~ 3 Stone yet to be started... but hopefully i can get started this week!!!

This is just a snap shot really there are loads of other pages but there are mainly sucess stores and graphs and other ways of showing differnt parts of my weight loss xxxx

You can do it when you put your back into it

Hiya

Long time no blog.

well i guess in truth i've been feeling sorry for myself, nowt new there i hear you all cry!!!! well pooh to you. No i know its true and i have to get over myself.

i gained 3lbs the week i came back from Poland, lost 1lb last week then gained it back this week. i said i didn't know why but as my mother gently reminded me of a few non essential items i'd had to eat and drink then later on i remembered a few more i should actually be greatful it was only 1lb this week!!!!


BUT i am back on the plan, i've decided to have a week without bread and 2 days down zero bread consumed. food diary filled in, no exercise done thats my only weak point so far but like i said today is only day 2 of my week.

I went to see my sisters keeper last week with my friend helen, it was very good i cried almost all the way through, before it came on we put the tissues in the drinks holder between us and i was reaching for one within the 1st 15/20 mins!!!!
at the time of watching i really enjoyed it, but i hadn't read the book, which i bought the day after watching and oh my god the book is 100 times better, it explains things so much better, had a tottaly differnt ending and made me cry 100 times more!!!!


read and wacth but treat them as 2 differnt things or book lovers will get angry (its a bit like PS I Love you chnages -angry! but still very watchable and the casting was good i thought!)

Oldham Council are cutting jobs left right and centre yet it still has cash for oldham in Bloom. go figure!!!

but it looks very pretty, this is the disply they've put on top of the clock thing that has neverr worked!!!

And finally a picture of me!!!! this is from my friends hen do last saturday. it the wedding next friday. i'm not too sure about my choice of dress asni think its a bit low!!! but well i've left it a bit late to get anything else and i like the rest of the dress. if you scroll down there is a pic of me in the dress some where in here!!!!

right i'm off got cool runnings on!!! Sanka Ya Dead!!! :)