Dentist

Finally had my root canal filling done today!!! oh was a odd sensation!!!!!!!

My dentist was running late so another dentist did my injection. she was really nice, gave me some numbing gel before she injected me. had about 6-8 injections in my gun n roof of mouth ouchy!!!

the pain went straight to my sore eye. which has now gone worse!!

when i got in the dentish chair, he stretched this odd purple plastic sheet over my mouth to isolate the tooth was such an odd sensation, while he was sorting it out it was over mu nose and i was having odd almost hallusinations!!! but only for a couple of mins!!!

The actual treatment althiugh quite scary was no where near as bad as i expected, but after i was all weak n shaky!!!

My mum had wanted to go in Bolton but i was really bad so we came straight home, at home i felt a bit better had some food cos i was starving but don't think it was a good idea as caused more pain than i was in. am doped up on pain killers but not sure they are a good idea on limited food as i now have a dodgy belly!!!!!

am meant to be in work tomorrow, L sent me a message saying she'd go mad if i phoned in sick tomorrow, but i really can not face 10 hours with this pain!!!!

Happy Smiley People Holding Hands

Even though work is pretty crummy at the mo i've had a really good day. Had a little chat with the Boss J S-M and we're having a three hour meeting on Monday to discuss my workload. Pretty sure i'll be put on an Action Plan. its not a good thing, but i need him to understand that i am not supergirl, and i do not know half the things he thinks i do!!! Had quite a productive day really. Even if it didn't finish the Elexon Spready. i managed to find time (took 3 hours n J S-M doesn't realise this!!!) to sort out my Master Spready. but now instead of 15 tabs i have 2!!!
sad talking about work on my blog, but who else can i talk to about it!!!!

Anyway WW Wise i really like this cartoon <- pass me the Gun!!!!! Food today: B- 1 slice of cheese toast, 2 slices of normal toast S - Cereal Bar D - Cornbeef butty, Grapes S - grapes n a fruit box T - Chicken, oven chips, coleslaw n gravy (mas combo i know and papa's idea!!) S - Toast!!! Discovered Sainsburys BGTY cereal bars 1 point!!!!! Tesco Finest brown bread really chunky slices and 1.5 points each!! we've bought sainsburys own baked bread today and its nice but has no NVs!!!
Another Great cartoon from Kathy Thorn - >

Another thing i want to blog is about me and my head.

and what a mixed up head i have.

Why am i such a moron?!

when someone like me (like that) and i like them a bit but not much, i let them get on my nerves and i'm not mean to them but i have no time or patience for them!

but when there is someone i like (like that) and he is a mate and there could possibily be something there one day (a big maybe!?!?!) i find my self all giddy n girlie, why can not i like someone who likes me for me and not hanker after someone who is potentially out of my reach (and league).

is it so wrong to want to be wanted by someone i want?

i've been thinking of that allday and couldn't think how to word it and it just popped out!!! its quite a carrie bradshaw question. but its the truth!!

what is at the crux of my problem is my insecurites, my inability to trust a man, i think that any man (on a night out) is talking to me for a joke, pull the fat/ugly bird contest and i put up this brick wall, that is iron clad with a top coat of titanuim. even the sharoest of cupids arrow will not penitrate its hardened shell!!!!

i think when i've lost weight it'll be differnt, but i'm not so sure it will be.

i am a fook up

after having a really good day!!! i fooked up.

menu

Breakfast: Cereal Bar

Snack: 2 baby apples

Lunch: Ham Buttys n Leek n Chicken Soup, WW bar

Tea: Roast pork, chips n carrots and a yorkshire pudding sugar free jelly

supper: Toast

extra piggy: full terries chocolate orange!!!!! (why oh why did i have this) i was very full n cos it was there and i ate it all, inhaled it is a more acurate discribtion and now i feel really sick and i feel like i have really let myself down!!!!

Manchester

I love Manchester City Centre so much!!! I hate the crowds but it is such a pretty place.

No may people may not agree when you look at the purpose built arndale, but if you stop n look at the buildings like Primark, Debenhams, the triangle and the catherdal they are beautiful.

i even like Urbis n city 1.

i went on the big wheel again today and although i am scared of heights the view is amazing!!!

not great photos but i love taking photos n seeing photos on blogs so here are the ones i look today.


Today wasn't a fab day diet wise and i'm scared to look on Noreens site to see if Hard Rock Café points are listed.

oh i might have to no i can't .... i just did n its not listed Phewwwwwwwww i had a look at frankie n bennys and a bacon cheese burger was 18points . but we also shared Natchos, i'm guessing another 8 for them!!!!

Yikes good job i haven't had anything else to eat today!!!

The we went to the Cinema to see Max Payne, it was ok. No Quite good really. Mark Whallberg was very hot!!!! mmmmmmmmmmm tres delish!!!! Haha

got my friends b'day present a Mr Scruff CD, but she may have it so am gonna send her the recipt as well n i got some mr scruff Tea Bags!!!

gonna give L~V the forest fruits ones n i'm keeping the mint n chilli ones

have tried and b nice but not as spicy as i expected

God Bless Selfridges!!!.

i also saw that Block of Vensuualean choc that willie n his wonky choc factory on tv made.

i'm a dairyt milk girl at heart but it smelt so good!!!!

WTF

well as already stated i have well n truely fell off the wagin decided to meaqsure tonight and compaired to last time i measured in feb!!!! its appalint

	11.02.08	22.11.08
Neck	17.5	17.5
Bicep	15	15.5
Chest	42	43.5
Waist	45.5	46.5
Hips	50.5	53.5
Thigh	27	29
Calf	18	?

Xmas

Jingle bell jingle bell jingle bell rock

well its that time again ladies n gents and i need a party frock!!!

I really like this one from Wallis but it only goes up to a size 20s n not sure if that will fit, on the website they only have up to a 16s in stock and in the one in town only got an 18s!!! and gutted cos its only £35 with 20% off so not bad for a posh frock!!!!

went to have a look in Evans after one of the ladies on 5+ works in one and said they have a lot of fashionable stuff in, well think they skippped my one!!! its all crimaline and polyester tat!!! £70 for a dress thats just to frilly n flowncy. i did see a couple of pretty dresses but my boobs are too small n my belly to big!!!! acres of fabric spare in the old boob area but need extra round the middle!!!! found an ok top but its elasticated round the bottom not a good look on me!!!!

Wisdom is knowing what to do next; virtue is doing it. ~David Star Jordan, The Philosophy of Despair

A new beginning again tomorrow
had a WI this AM and i am back at 19 6!!! EEEEKKK how can i let myself get like this?!!!!!

well thought i'd best take some pics nit sure what went wrong with the side veiw but i was too disgusted with myself to re-take it!!!!

Why do my boobs looks square??? i not sure but i've even got a plain bra on so its not even werid n waky shapes poking through!!!!

I wasted time, and now doth time waste me William Shakespeare

well the re-start hasn't gone quite to plan!!!

will power is what i need anyone know where i can get some

i have a mini action plan!!!

its 27 weeks till the friday before Sarahs Hen do week, which means dressing up as a bloody cheer leader or gangster girl.

i really can't see me ever looking like either of these pictures!!!!!!
steps to take

walk up the stairs of the Annex 2x a day.
5 portions of fruit n veg
8 cups of water a day
boob job!!! (lol kidding!!)
1 x can of pop a day at the most
no trips to the vending machine
stop buying dinners from work they mainly taste vile n just bloat me

Food is an important part of a balanced diet.

Food is an important part of a balanced diet.
Fran Lebowitz (1950 - )

i was looking for work life balance quotes but found this one instead!!!!

Once again i fell off the Wagin with a rather loud thud leaving an enormous dent in the tarmac beneath me!!!!!

it's my works Xmas do in 2 weeks on Friday and i am the biggest one going, the 2 other girls around my age who are going are both slim pretty and men like them (they also have BFs) but they are planning this pamper day not that i wanna join in but getting spray tans so their slinky dresses look even better than they would do now!!!! (i spy green eyed monster!!!)

i'm off to the Army Navy stores for a Tent to wear!!! i normally don't get hung up about what i look like, i am so used to being the fat friend i even don't mind showing the tops of my arms but thus xmas i feel differnt.

looking on the boards at people who started their diets in Jan when i originally re-started for the millionth time i see how far they have come and that green eyed monster rears its little head again!!!!

i am my own worst enemy and that is such an over used phrase but it sums it up perfectly!!!!!

last weekend i went out n saw Scott from 5ive at my local club, he was fab!!!!

i was sticking to points really well yesterday till i got home from work when the pig inside me came out!!! and i've done the same tonight after my tea i had 4 points left so had a nutrigrain soft oat cookie which i think is 2points

THEN i had a blackcurrent danish pasrty !!! ops must be at least 100 points!!!!!!