after a long absence here is a weight loss entry

as it is offically the last day of feb today i thought i would do an quick update on my ww journey as per the reason for this blog!

Jan Weight Loss: 5.5lbs
Feb Weight Loss: 7lbs!!!
total loss for the year so far: 12.5lbs !!!!!

didn't think 12.5lbs sounded a lot but when u break it down per month it doesn't seem too bad!!!

can't say i've noticed much difference in myself.

i've had one NSV, my jeans from NL now fit with the aim of a belt!!!

feb progress pics are up not sure of the exact date would have been around the 11th (measuring day!) these were taken and they are hideous if i remeber i might take some more tonight!!!

ops forgot to take more pics ans seen as it is now 1.30 am its is officially march 1st!!!

where has this year gone!!

as i mentioned in an earlier post i have also taken pics of myself in my swimming costume i have these in a photo album but i have also put them on a word doc so i can line up each new pic under the previous one and although on the latest clothed pics i actually look bigger!! think its just the choice of outfits cos i can see a difference in the other pics!!! Phew i was beginning to feel worried

i have got feb measurements to post but they are in my paper journal which is up stairs so i might go and look for that, not looked at that for 2 weeks cos i stayed the same last week, i had nothing to update in it!!! but fingers crossed for sunday.

to be honest its not looking hopeful but all we can do is wait!!!

i have made myself a play list for the old Ipod so that i have exercise motivating music in an imagintaly titled play list "stuff"

1. Rock Star Nickelback
2. Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) Eurythmics
3. Hands The Raconteurs
4. Space Cowboy N'sync
5. LET'S HEAR IT FOR THE BOY Deniece Williams
6. place your hands reef
7. Shoot the Runner Kasabian
8. I Predict a Riot Kaiser Chiefs
9. Hey there Delilah Plain White T's
10. good vibrations The Beach Boys
11. build me up buttercup The Foundations
12. Love Shack The B-52's
13. Who's That Girl? Eurythmics
14. Bang Bang You're Dead Dirty Pretty Things
15. Monkey Gone to Heaven Pixies
16. road rage catatonia
17. Londons calling The clash
18. Life On Mars? David Bowie
19. Rebel Rebel David Bowie
20. Ashes To Ashes David Bowie
21. in a room dodgy
22. away from here the Enemy
23. The Great Pretender Freddie Mercury
24. trains to brazil guillemots
25. Worried about ray The Hoosiers
26. lust for life iggy pop
27. Move Your Feet Junior Senior
28. Everyday I Love You Less and Less Kaiser Chiefs
29. Thinking About Your Love Kenny Thomas
30. Mr. Brightside The Killers
31. She Moves in Her Own Way The Kooks
32. house of fun Madness Happy
33. there she goes the LA's C
34. Big Girl (You Are Beautiful) Mika
35. CancerMy Chemical Romance
36. Welcome to the Black Parade My Chemical
37. come as you are Nivarna
38. Bright Idea Orson
39. Baby, I Love Your Way Peter Frampton
40. Don't Stop Me Now Queen
41. Hips don't lie Shakira
42. panic the smiths
43. ghoast town the specials
44. up the junction squeeze
45. Shine Take That!!!!
46. dancing in the moonlight toploader
47. i am the resurrection the stone roses!!!

there are three more songs but must have deleted them by accident!!!

spent the early evening watching old house DVD's and i have decided that i love hugh laurie even more than i did before!!! quite an odd crush, but he has defo improved with age, been watcheing old blackadders and he was so geeky looking back then but soooo funny!!!

Friday

evening,

well the dental saga continues, the dentist thinks my tooth is dead or dying... (RIP tooth) he can't tell properly cos when he blew cold air at it i had no sensitivity to it, but when he tapped it with a metal object there was quite a lot of sensitivity (i'd like to have seen him try that on Wednesday i'd have screamed the place down!) he's given me some antibiotics and painted on some sensitivity coating.

he didn't charge me, which was unexpected, but what he did say was that i may need to have root canal work done or an extraction, he's made me book a 20 min appointment but the 1st available on a Friday was 28th march, but when i got home i realised it just before i go to Poland, so i might have to ring up and get it put back another week or 2!!! but then it will be really close to going to Malta. oh what to do what to do!! if i have it done before i go away with the girls the likely hood is i'm gonna feel miserable and in pain all week and be on antibiotics so i can't enjoy the vodka!!!! we will see how it goes, hopefully it will settle down!!!

but u know when you get the feeling that this is just the tip of the iceberg!

EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!!!

you may mock, but last night at 12.56pm an earthquake that measured 5.2 on the richter scale hit britain.

the epicenter was in Market Rasen in Lincolnshire. i did wake up at 1am but don't think i felt anything, 2 of my friends said they felt it, lamps / CD's etc fell over!, my rooms is such a tip i really wouldn't have noticed any difference!!!


this earthquake was equal size to

Nagasaki atomic bomb

according to Wikipedia in any case!!!! so that seems pretty big to me!!!!

Dentist Part 3

haha what did i say about it not being as bad as expected!!! i've been in constant pain since friday!!! ended up phoning in sick today, the pain and suffering appears to be getting worse!!! i haven't eaten properly since thrudays, i feel ill at the thought of food / drink touching my teeth!!!

i called the dentist this am and they said to come in but i can't get there as its in bloody bolton! typical! i've got a doc appointment but doubt they will be able to do much good!

PART II
the doc couldn't really do owt for me teeth!!! (god how northern is that!) but she the kind kind doc has given me a pic fat perscription of dicalfenic woooohoo!!! sad but true the though of strong drugs makes me happy. normally i'd hate to have to take them but at this moment in time and having taken my 2nd one of the day they bloody work!!!

the dentist has phoned back and wants to see me, so no doubt they will charge me! going in at 10.40am on friday. hoping to feel well enough to go back to work tomorrow, go so much to do and with having those 5 days off last week i feel so behind!!! plus its MDB's birthday on thursday and i want to celebrate it with him!

i feel like all i'm doing is moaning on the 5+ board so think i'm gonna lurk and not post for a while.

xxxx

Dentist Trip

Was no where near as bad as expected!!! Phew! had to have those bits of brace removed, the bottom left one came off no problem, but the top right hand one had to be ground off as it had an orthodontic band round the tooth which is designed to never come off!!!

i also had to have two fillings, not bad to say not been to the dentist for 10 years or so (might be 8 years now i come to think of it!) he took some x-rays and did a scale and polish, so my 2 front teeth look 100times better, most of the brown stains have been removed just a bit left on a number 2 tooth!!! so now i can smile with my gob open!!!

i have to go and see the hygienist in 3 months as i have some mild gum disease, he said cleaning the gums more should fix it but he wants me to have a proper scale and polish and look into having veneers done, at first i was quite interested (before he'd done the scale and polish!) but 1 i don't think i could take the pain 2 i'd have to have it done privately and think it will be quite expensive.

he did the injections then went on to remove the brace and the pain killer / numbness kicked in pretty much straight away. i didn't feel anything but the vibration while he was drilling my tooth. (thank god!!)

but now i have tooth ache in every tooth on the right side of my mouth. my mum said that was cos of the jab, but i'm not convinced. i had to go to bed when i came home cos the pain even with pain killers is not going down. he said my gum would be a bit sore which it is but the tooth ache!!!!

i'll give it a couple of days and give em a call.

i'm still not sure i was ment to go, cos he said he was gonna check my x-rays to see if i needed any more fillings while i was there but i don't know if he did. he gave me a card to take to reception to book another appointment, i'm sure he ment i could leave but you know when you have that nagging doubt at the back of your mind, and only 2 fillings for 8-10 years of no dentist visits doesn't seem right, Mr Khan used to like giving me fillings for fun!!!

Dentist!!!! Arrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!

I have a dentist appointment at 13.40 tomorrow!!! i had my 1st appointment for 10 years a few weeks ago and i know i need a lot doing!!! but i need to bite the bullet and get it over and done with!!!

tomorrow is a 40 min appointment as i still have 2 pieces of my fixed brace attached to my teeth and they have to be ground off before the dentist can do x-rays and find out the true state of my teeth!!!!

ohhhh why did i not go for so long!!!

hindsight is such a wonderful thing!!!!!!

i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo scared, part of me things to cancel the appointment and just wait till all my teeth fall out!!!

but no i can't do that part of my 2008 plan is to face my fears as well as shift a bulk of this excess weight!!!!

fears to face include the dentist and driving instructor!!!!!

i need to book some lessons, but still too scared!!!!! wish i could win the lottery and get a chauffeur !!!

OMG!!!!!!! how did this happen!!!

On the 5+ board on WW tonight one of the girls put on a message about finding an old "fat" photo of herself well this is my most horrendous pic that i can find!!!!

and found by accident, was looking for dodgy pics of Mama to stick up at work for her birthday and found this pic from when i graduated my PGCE summer '06. i almost cried when i saw it... and did a few mins after. not cos of this pic but cos it was with the old photo albums with pics of me being 0-5 and i was soooooo skinny arms like twigs and i looked at the difference and wonder how in 20 years i went from that to this!!! Thank God some of this weight is off. i was just gonna put this on for a short while but i think i needs to stay on as a reminder of where i have been and where not to go again!!!

after i came back home i did re-join ww for about 6 months and lost 23lbs, but had to stop going cos of work shifts and put all the weight bar 6.5lbs back on!!

still i never want to go back there again!!!

Freedom 2008

Pic : Maltese sky!!

I am free, free as a bird. well till Monday anyway!!!

I've had to use some of my holidays up from work as they will only let me carry 37 hours to next years allocation!!!

so i have booked Wednesday (tomorrow) and Saturday so that means i get 5 days off for the price of 2 days holiday!!! can't be bad!!!!

Wed - Holiday
Thurs - NDO
Friday - RDO
Sat - Holiday
Sun - Non-working day!!!

woooo hoooo!!!!

Positive thought

Holiday to Poland 6 weeks to go
Holiday Malta 11 weeks to go!!!


MINI GOAL REVIEW!!!
As i have missed my 1st two mini goals 1st only took me and extra week to get and my 2nd is 1.5lbs away i have decided to amend my mini goals

i now realise 2st in 12 weeks was a tad optimistic!!!

so new goals are:
MG1: 7lbs - achieved
MG2: 14lbs - 24/02/08
MG3: 21lbs 30/03/08 (Poland)
BMG4 28lbs &10% 04/05/08 (Malta)

Week 6 - Lost 1lb ---(coupledom)

Evening!

well WI 6 and i lost another 1lb!!! yipppeee, i have once again missed my mini goal target, but at least it's insight. its over there by the horizon and hopefully i will be with it this time next week!!!

so 12.5lbs lost so far!!!!

What i want to write about today is couples. Yes i am a sad singleton and will never be coupled up but everywhere i have been i keep seeing happy couples!!! its driving me into a strange depression. i'm trying to put a brave face on it and just get on with it. but i feel so lonely.

Last night i was at my mates house and even though there was 3 of us chatting, i felt so alone! i typed a text to myself saying:

"how can someone feel so lonely when surrounded by friends!"

and i honestly don't know the answer. i think part of it coming from my best friend(such a childish phrase but it'll do) has started dating a guy we have know for many years. i am happy for her, but i think because she kept it hidden from me for such a long time, and i understand her reason and i don't blame her. But now i feel we have lost part of our connection.

back to what i was saying... couples overload, when i was waiting for my friend yesterday there were two bird snuggled up in the ariels across the road, that's what the pic is off, i know its hard to make out but only had camera phone on me!

i went to the gym on friday and today (sunday) and i'm going swimming tomorrow night 9pm -10pm with my friend and her fella.

so gym bunny may be rearing its ugly head.

i really need to get in shape as i have fully signed up to do race for life!!! and i already have £15 worth of sponcership money!

Valentines Day

Another year another Valentines Day! I bloody hate this day, i'm not bothered that i'm alone and i didn't get a card or a present. But the left outness i feel, the feeling of pitying looks. the bloody chatter about it being valentines day alll bloody day long, its a commercialised day to make us feel bad and spend cash!!! 90% chances are even if i was with someone i still wouldn't have got a hearts and flowers.

today listening to people at work chatter made me feel really sad and lonely and felt like i couldn't join in and none of it was done to deliberately leave me out but grrrrrrr. it was so nice after everyone left at 4pm and me, Ian and Karen, could just get on with work and have a chat, when i was talking to them if felt like a totally other day, no Valentines talk, no serious talk, just generl chit chat and drunken night out chat, but if felt nice.

Tomorrow is my Day off and i feel it is well deserved, its been a bloody long week. I am dreading WI, i think last weeks miraculous loss is going to be over shadowed by a very large gain cloud!! but it is TOTM. came on just as i WI last sunday and feel really heavy.I haven't really gone over / under points but i just think that last week is gonna catch up on me!!!!

Pic 14/02/08 Home

earlier on tonight i watched a programme on BBCThree, where this 18yr old girl was addicted to sausages and she consummed 3 x the average persons salt in take for a year, 36ltrs of fat a year and sooo much charcole that it was in danger of giving her cancer.

it was really good, they tried to re-educate her palete, it was quite sad really as she had no idea of where food came from (ie nature! not ASDA!!!) she though processed sausaged looked more like proper meat that a pork chop.

she did really well in the end. i need that kind of thing. but i enjoy fruit and veg and the right sort of food, i think i'm addicted to bread and giving it up for Lent has been a fab idea. i've thought loads of times oooh i'l just have a slice and not done.

i admit that i have cheated twice and my excuses are below!

cheat 1: Tuesday i'd only had 12 points up to 9pm and needed to use some so i went into the kitchen and looked but we only had bread in!!! so i had 4 yes 4 slices of warbies granary loaf with a banana!!! the plan was to have 2 slices toasted but before the toast popped i'd devoured 2 slices dry!!!!

cheat 2: we got caught up in all the leftover traffic jams after that awful crash on the M61 ON Wednesday night coming home from work, so we detoured to burnen park asda and we were so hungry we bought WW butties!!!

BUT on a positive note i really wanted some bread tonight after i'd watched the addicts programme but instead i have strawberries and cherries!!! the ones in the photo!!!! :)

How Did My Feet Get So Dirty?

Graph Wk 0-5. its getting there!!!

I didn't think my mini goals were achievable a couple of days ago and was going to change them but if i can lose 2.5lbs this week i will be back on track, get to my 1st stone and over (only just) halfway to my 10% (27lbs)






I had such a good night out last night with 3 of my friends but when i woke up my feet were manky... not seen this this dirty for a long time. i thought i would share the picture !!!

i only notices when i stood on the scales for WI!!!! what the boody hell did i do.... i've looked at my shoes and they seem clean!!!???? the mysteries of drunkenness!!!







Pic 10.02.08 In Tokyo Project Oldham. i actually like this pic of myself.

that was one thing that i want to get out of WW is to look at a photo of myself and not be disgusted with myself!

and i'm one step closer... Black and white is defo a good look for me!!!

last night was such a good laugh. we went to some pubs near my house then into Oldham.


then i had pie chips and peas on my why home and i have a feeling prawn crackers where had as well but i can't be 100% sure!!! woops!!!

but never the less i had a fab WI result this morning!!!! i lost 4lbs so that brings me up to 11.5lbs total loss in 5 weeks, i'm also in to the next stone bracket (18's) and feel so much better.

although i have re-measured and i don't appear to have lost even half an inch! hmmm! i'm gonna do an official measure tomorrow night so i'll confirm then.

This afternoon i walked to the CO-OP and back... it's been such a nice day, the crocuses are out and the sun was shining, i realised how pretty my area actually is!

i took a couple of pics of the flowers in the church yard at the end of my road.

RACE FOR LIFE

I am entering Race for life this year, i've tried to register online but it keeps coming up that someone with mydetails is alreay registered!!! hmmm i need to ring them!!!

Season Challenge -Winter Challenge Team 4

Evening,

well Mad Granny has accepted me on to the winter challenge... and i have set myself a very realistic target of losing 10lbs in the next 6 weeks!!!

ideally i'd love to lose quite a lot more but i have come to realise that i have not been realistic!!! (Moi???!!! lol)

i have been messing about and messing up, getting cocky and thinking i don't need to point and haha guess what i do!!!!

my go at core hasn't been that brilliant really although i guess i haven't been awful but hmmm well I've not exatly in need of the halo polish either!!!

i'm guessing this isn't the best pic in the world to put up but i love it, its really pretty!!!

Shrove Tuesday - One Day Closer to Easter

Its Shrove Tuesday again!!! how quick does that come round!!!! i know its early this year!!!




Pic: pancakes in Hounor of the day, and i haven't had one!!!

tomorrow i'm giving up bread.... i'm guessing that i can eat it on sundays as sundays are really "mini Easters"!!!!! hmmm we'll see. not sure if i can go the full time without my beloved bread!!!!

i think i'm gonna give core i try!!! not too sure about it though!!! i can but try!!!







Pic: 05/02/08 at home

1st MINI GOALS

1: get 1st silver 7 by 28th Jan.

this was archived 03/02/08

Renewed Energy

Pic: My Drawing on Old Orleans Table cloth 02/02/08

Well i survived my night out in Manchester, mainly thnaks to chronic indigestion!!!

On the way in to Manchester my friend declared she had changed her mind and now wanted a Steak ( hmmm hadn't i ordered a steak???) and she wanted to phone the restaurant and change her order ( oh look i have forgotten my mobile!!!! surprise surprise!!!) so i said i would swap meals with her for peace and quiet... we'd had to order the food over a week ago!! but i said she'd have to get them to up the cooking (I'd ordered rare - she likes burnt) it was quite nice 2 pieces of chicken in a weird coating, not batter nor bread crumbs I'm not sure what it was but it was ok... apart from the indigestion thank god mum (aka birthday girl) (" look I'm not mum" ....(2 mins later) "what do you want to drink?" "well I've had vodka all night so i'd best not mix my drinks" !!!!!!!!!!!!!) had some remagel with her!!!

i felt quite bad really cos i said i'd stay out in Manchester cos i though loads of people would be staying down, but the weren't the usual girlie's where all getting the last train home due to hang overs, so i was staying i was going then i was staying again... but i decided to go in the end!!!

so my birthday girl i am so sorry i left!

i had a sneeky weigh this morning and i've lost 2lbs!!! wooohoo, so i have decided that i am going to change my WI day to sunday. just make it easier so that i can update my logs and stuff straigh away rather than having to wait til i come home from work

One Step Forward Three Steps Back

I seem to have taken 3 steps back after my initial 2 weeks of goodness

ever since i went out for a meal with a couple of my friends i seem to be constantly hungry!!! and as consequence i STS last week!!! But not even that spurred me on to be good. i have been kidding myself as per usual that i don't need to make changes... well the news is i do!!! Doh!!!who'd have thought!!! yes its true change is good and change will help me to stop being Very Fat as the government don't like us to use the term Morbidly Obese any longer!!!!!

So even though i haven't been bad today (YET!) i am going out for a meal at Old Orelans in the print works tonight and then out for drinks in Manchester so there is no way that i can be good!!! well i can be ok but never good!!

so tomorrow is a fresh start and i will get back on track!!!

i have decided to join the Lent Challenge on the WW 5+ board and give up bread, now this might seem easy but i love bread.

tiger paws. warbies toastie loaf, milk roll, hovis, barms, muffins, grrrrr i love it all!!!

so this will be a huge sacrifice but i know i can do it!!!

so as of 6th February 2008 - 22nd March 2008 i will be bread free!!!

wish me luck people cos i'm gonna need it!!!

i believe the punishment for breaking my Lenten vow is 30 mins of exercise so i must succeed!!!!

crappy week - but beautiful shoes!!!

My beautiful new bargins!!!!

£4.00 instead of £40!!!!!

I've had a really crappy week, i haven't pointed properly all week and its knocked me for 6!!!

i went for a meal and worked out it was 29.5 points i can knock a few off that cos i picked the cheese and peperoni off it and didn't eat all the chips and bread but OMG!!! i've felt hungry ever since, and although i have been ok at work, pointing drinking water and so on, once i've got home and had my tea all i've wanted to do is eat!!! i keep looking at the virtual me's and feeling disgusted by how i am now and knowing that if i want to reach my 1st mini goal. (1st half stone! by monday i need to pull my finger out!!! i think i might be due on, but with the state of my body who can really say!!!

Wk 2 WI and Virtual Me's (VM's)

Virtual me Wk 0 Virtual me Wk 1 Virtual me Wk 2

hi all!!! i lost 2lbs this week!!!! 5.5lbs loss in 2 weeks!!! i'm pretty impressed with myself!!!! i have decided that i'm gonna take as many pics as possible. i know when your losing weight its soo easy to be camera shy, but the one thing i've notices is a lot of people don't have that many photo's on there blogs, not all, but i love seeing that gradual change. i've also decided to do Virtual me's!!!! here are mine for the last 3 weeks!!! i've decided not to dress them for the time being!!! a couple of reasons for this is... the only virual me site that i can find to go up to my size ( even though they all say they go up to 350lbs!!!) is the sears one and the plus size clothes are awful!!! glad i don't have to shop there!!!! i like the H&M site but sadly i can't get my VM bigger than 220lbs!!!! so once i'm there and i will get there i'm gonna start using that site!!!
if you have a look at http://www.mvm.com/shopping.php?id=100&lang_id=en if gives you links to all the VM sites. i really like these VM's i know they arn't accurate but they give you a sense of what you are and what you can become!!!

for example this is me at goal 155lbs

look at the differnece!!!!

one other thing i'd like to share is a pic of Tesco's car park i took on Saturday!!! the trolleys have no wheels!!! it made me smile enought to get a photo!!!

Aqua Aerobics

Pic: 18/01/08 Royton Sports Centre


Well i ventured back into the pool today!! me and my friend went to an Aqua Aerobics class. i really enjoyed it apart from being 60 yrs younger than the oldest person there... the avergae age was about 60 and that was only brought down cos we were there!!! LOL

we're gonna start going every other week, when we have the same RDO!!! need to get back into going to the gym... i love it when i'm there its just getting me there!!!!

i am also looking forward to weigh in!!! roll on Monday!!!! (sad!)

PMA

I've once again been having another good week!!! just thought i would up load a graph to show my progress for this 1st week...

I've been reading a lot of posts on the 5stone + board where people are dishearten for only losing 3-6lbs in the 1st week. I don't want to be negative to them but 3lbs is a lot if you weigh it out!! and slow but steady is always best. Not only is it proven that a slower loss leads to a better chance of maintaining the weight loss, but its a lot better for you. Your body needs time to adjust. Just think about how long its taken you to get to the size you are now! if it takes a quarter of that time to lose enough to to a healthy weight then so be it!!!!

this is not intended to be having a go at anyone just my general feelings from what I've read on the boards and what the "experts" say!!!!


It is only 75 days till i go away!!! I'm well excited!!!! Woo Hoo Krakow here we come.... need to keep that in focus.

I've decided to change my mini goals:

1: get 1st silver 7 by 28th Jan.
2: get 2nd silver 7 by 18th Feb
3: get 3rd silver 7 by 10th March
4: get to 4th silver 7 and or 10% (27lbs) by 31st March!!!


Pic: 17/01/08

1st Weigh-In a Sucess!!!

photo's taken 13.01.08 day before 1st weigh in!!!!


Evening all, well i had my 1st weigh in yesterday morning and I'm please to report a 3.5lb loss!!! woo hoo me!!! i was so excited on Sunday as i was sure I'd done good but was shocked at the amount... by Monday morning i was convinced I'd stayed the same!!!

i had a fab week, i decided to do quick start but with not going to meetings i wasn't too sure how many points to drop down to... so decided to do between 20-24... i'm really allowed 28 points a day. i found it quite hard to get to 20, except for one day when i had a mini pig out on some left over quality street. that i didn't even enjoy , what a waste of 8 points!!!!!! Even so i only had 24 points for the day!!!

my aim for the next week is 2-3lbs loss!!!

i've also decided to take my pic at least every month in front of my bed room door!!! lets hope to see more of the door next month, especially on the side view!!! haha!!!

i did take pics of me in my cossie but they are far too traumatic to be posted on line at the moment plus you can see my knickers shining through from the back... not a good look!!!

1st mini goal decided

Photo Taken on: 20/12/07 Works Xmas Do Reebok Stadium.
Start Weight: 19st 7.5lbs
Measurements:
Height 5'6" (i know this won't change - but loads of people don't include it and i think its important so you can check proportions!!!)
Neck: 17.5"
Bicep: 15"
Chest: 43"
Waist: 46.5"
Hips: 51"
Thigh: 28"
Calf: 19"

I have to succeed i can not stay like this for much longer!!!

Ok .. I now have the motivation i need to set myself my 1st challenge

01/04/08 I'm off to Krakow in Poland for 5 nights with 5 of my friends.

Challenge 1 to lose 10% = 27lbs by 31/03/08.

it's been a good week so far!!!

Pic: Benalmedena Beach June 2007 (just something pretty to look at!!!)


I'd like to say this has got to be the best 1st week of WW that i have ever done!!!!! i know its only friday and i still have Saturday and Sunday to go but, i haven't felt overly hungry, i have managed to curb the urge to snack!!!

i did give in once but i didn't go over board!!! i went to the Cinema with a couple of my friends to see Enchanted.... and i got a small bag of salted popcorn (3 Points) and i had a few Minsterels ( points) i was well within my daily limit but still never mind!!!

i have been doing the kick start but wasn't sure how many points to have so its varied from 13-24 daily... i know the 13 is way way way too low but i just couldn't anymore than i already had!!!!

its funny because sometime i struggle soooooo much to stick within my points limit and other times i really struggle to eat them all!!!

In The Beginning!!!

This is a really awful pic of me taken on the big wheel in Manchester on 22/09/07

the beginning began quite a while ago when i re-joined the Weight Watchers 25/09/06 weighing in at a very heavy 20st !!! :'( i could have died.

on the 05/03/07 i got down to my lowest weight for a very long time!!! 18st 2lbs!!! but from there things went wrong... it is all my fault but for the next few weeks i went up and down in weight and never managed to get below that weight!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

during this weight loss period i went to Weight Watchers Classes and had the most amazing Leader Bernie ( that was my 3rd time being a memeber!!!) she was always there for us and we could text and call her and she would always have kind works of motivation !!!!


Then i have to change my hours at work and couldn't get to meetings, i had to go working away from home ( staying in very posh hotels .... they had no idea what low fat means!!!) and it has almost all piled back on!!!! Grrrrrrrr again!!!


so on Sunday 6th January 2008 i decided that i know Weight Watchers works so I've dug out all my books and decided to go it alone!!! (well myself and my mum and doing it together!!!

Monday 7th January 2008 I stepped back on the scales and OMG!!!! 19st 7.5lbs!!! how on earth did that happen!!!!!

So when i got home from work that night instead of reaching for the comfort food i re-registered on the WW forum... NCU and 5stone + boards for some inspiration and help!!!

last time i was a member i used the boards and they helped me so much... i also made really good friends with someone on the boards who went to my WW class!!! so WW not only helps us to lose weight it makes us great friends!!!!

i will admit the last time i stopped doing WW i gave up on the boards because i couldn't cope with the success i was reading and i don' think that made me a good person... don't get me wrong i still congratulated people and stuff but while i sat there and ate a packet or 10 of crisps!!!!

so new start new user name and lots of motivation!!!!