Day 8 ~ Snow Day

Boy what a day!!

snow snow go away and please never come back!!!

we didn't go to work today and to be honest i doubt we would have made it there and then back again. They also closed our office today but for some reason i've not had a text luckily we didn't go in and been chatting to people from work and now a girl of my team is forwarding any BCP (Business Contingency Plans) messages over to me.

i wouldn't mind but we have only recently update the BCP and i gave my new mobile number!!!!

thank god for great colleagues!!!

so far we've got approx 2 ft of snow, near work its about 6-8 inches. there have been pics of snow ploughs up and around Horwich but we've seen no gritters let alone snow ploughs!!!

i've been out up my steps to take a couple of pics but was only out 5 mins as so cold and in places the snow was deeper than my wellies!!!!

the pictures don't really do it justice, i've felt sick to my stomach allday that we were gonna be made to go into work.

tomorrow we are gonna see what its like and then ring the handy free phone number to see if work is open.

today we have been watching what traffic has been down my road and seen as my street is just off a main road and a bus route and connets one half of myside of oldham to the other, there has been very little traffic only really 4x4's and they have been down the centre of the road and they were slipping about, i think there must be black ice under the snow on there as it started snowing hard about 7ish lasy night and was freeezing over night. my mums just opened the front door to check the snow at the front and has let in a
 whooooosh of icy cold air!!! brrrrrrrrr


And now about 4 hours after i wrote this i'm back got distracted by the Red Dahlia, i'm loving it, i'm 90% sure i've read the book but i have read one recently with the same charactures.

My mum makes me laugh as we have a Red Dahlia in a varse next to the TV and when it went off she went oh and nudged her head towards the TV, bless her!!! hahah

Now for some pictures of the snow:

The Birdfeeder (aka Marge), the front garden, the Hanging basket

The Foot path outside my house, the road around the corner,and some pretty plants xxx


Ok this is a WL blog so here goes yay a relatively good day to say i have been stuck at home because and because we have food at home, lovely food and apart from some bread rolls with Tea i stuck to an EE day but to say i could have had so much more!!!!!

For the last few days i've been playing on the wii fit plus and i love it, i'm aching, but its a good achy and i burned about 300 cals today.


Feel like i can stay on track this time.

well i'd best get some sleep need to be up at 6am to call the BCP line at work so far it says all sites are open tomorrow but depending on the over night conditions they will update at 6am ISH!!!

xxxSJxxx

Day 7 ~Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

I did it!!! i lost 1.5lbs!!!! i'm back to 18stones!!! now i know this is still an horrendously large weight  but its 2 stone lighter than this time last year and i know it sounds daft but because its a nice round figure and if i lose even half a pound next week i'll be in the next stone down!!!

Including today its 6 weeks til valentines day so between now and then i'd like to lose 7lbs! the wi before valentines is on 8/2.

then its 7 weeks til easter
i'd like to lost another 7lbs by then

then its 5 weeks to my birthday and i'd like to lose another 7lbs by then.

this would take  me to 21lbs by then,

but this is what i'd like i am realistic enought to be happy with 1lb per week so 18lbs lost for 2010 by the wi on 03/05/10.

my next 10% target is 25lbs and i'd like do do this by july.

i'm not looking any further ahead than this.

i'm still confused as how to best record this years wl. i wanna do a combination of this year as a single entity but still include last years results .

On the side bar i've done it like this

04/01/10 Week 1 ~ 18st 0lbs, -1 ½lbs this week = 1.½lbs 2010 = 28lbs total lost

i might change this, i might drop the weight as i didn't have this on last years.

sorry i'm baballing.

I also got a new new members pack tonight which i think helps with the new beggining, i've not read it yet but looks much better than the one i have as it included the EE plan and has a column for ee syns as well as the Green and Original days because it know they say always take the lowest syn value but IMO its not always right and you can see this from looking at the Syns pages in the magazine some items can be 10 syns  Green 15 syns Orginal and 2 Syns EE. because it has both red and green foods in it and they cancel each other out if that makes sense!!!

so good luck to everyone who weighs in this week and this will be our year!!!!

xxsjxx

Day 6~ 1 day til wi!

i'm feeling nervous and excited for my 1st wi of the new year.

Tomorrow marks my 12 months anniversry of doing SW. and a giant step for me the longest time i've ever been a paying member of a slimming club. the most successful.

i really want to have lost 1.5lbs tomorrow but you know when you know you have been good but think you still might muck it up!!!

i've been trying to weigh up how i'm going to measure my weight losses this year weather to take this wi as week zero as it was last year (because you can't lose on your 1st week) but i've decided to take this week as week one take the loss and use this mondays weight to work out the next 10% i want to lose. (hope that makes sense)

i've also been weight up how long it is til certain events:

6 weeks til the day that shall only be called a hallmark day happens every feb makes single people sad

then about 6 weeks after that its easter

its roughly 18 weeks til my birthday.

well thats all i've really looked into yet but still that takes us to May. it'll soon come round!!!!

so like last year i am not going to beat myself up if i only have small losses!!! a loss is 1 million times better than a gain even if its only ½lb!!!!

i would ideally like to lost between 1-2lbs a week but i am not a saint i have a life to live so when things come up and i have a bad week, i am going to accept this and if i gain look at why if i can honestly say i have been good and gained i will be a lier!!!

Blimy another blog post!!!! Day 5

well another post, don't get used to this people, think its just cos i'm off work seem to find time to so this rather than other more useful things. like tidying and ironing!!!!

well its not been a bad day really slighty too much strudel for  my own good but everything else has been free or Hx.

had a green day today started the day with some grapes and an actvia fat free yogurt, some home made leek and potato soup, home made quron cottage pie, fruit salad , bread, cheese and some struddel!!!! went over my syns but only cos aldi make the most delish struddel and i couldn't resist seconds!!!!!!!!

so here are the 1st and last pictures taken of me in 2009. 10/01/09 and 31/12/09. I don't feel like i've changed that much but i guess even i have to admit the pictures tell a differnt tale

Days 3 and 4 ~ Happy New Year!!!!!

New Years eve was going so well diet wise until i decided to go out, and the plan was to go to Rachels then go home but we didn't we went to Milan then Legends and then to a party at Maireads cousins (luckily for me it was only round the corner from me!) god knows how much i drank, i remeber saying i was going and people trying to phone me a taxi but there was no point so jackie in her 4 inch heels tried to walk me home but i made her go back i remeber getting to the top of the road and then i woke up fully clothes in bed with my headset from work under my head my work handset under my back, my handbag and hat behind me couldn't find my coat but that was in a heap at the bottom of the bed! SO all in all it was a good NYE and after all my moaning and groaing about it.

I measured yesterday

41-44-48

so that is a loss of

2.5inches
4 inches
5 inches

so thats not too bad,

i'm not making any resolutions this year, i'm going to do this A to Z thing
and i'm going to use it to learn some new things, but i'll put that on the other blog x

Days one and two - back in the game

Day's one and two of my fresh fresh fresh start and its all good!!!

i'm feeling peckish but i'm not giving in!!!!

i'm trying not to kid myself and honestly write it all down!

i've printed off a food diary and then trated myself to a new pretty note book to keep a proper food diary and if i come up with any cunning secret tips / recipes etc will add them.

still no tape measure to be found but my mum think she's got one!

i'm also getting excited about reading peoples blogs and getting some ideas for food and i'm gonna drag the wii back out, we've got some many excercise games and i can't remeber the last time i got on the wii fit, i know its gonna shout at me!!!! and shout OUCH!!!! he's a cheeky wii!!!!

i've also signed upto A to Z your year, a letter per fortnight!!! i've started a new blog for this http://a-to-z-2010.blogspot.com/  looking at a;ll the posts on facebook i'm guessing i need to start saving my syns!!!

Food Diary Tuesday 29/12/09

Free Food 
Activa fat free yogurt
Raw carrots
Grapes
Beef Casserole
Ham

HX
a 28g Chees
a
b 2 x small brown bread
b Mash

Syns
Corn beef 2 (need to check this as it says 100g 2.5 syns but i only had one slice)
Bread 9 (ops)
Gravy 1


Wednesday 30/12/09
Free Food 
Activia fat free yogurt
Raw carrots
Ham
ELF Cottage cheese
frozen fruit salad
grapes
sainsbury's roast chicken RM + 1 HxB + 1 syn

HX
a
a
b 2 x small brown bread
b potatoes  (from RM)

Syns
Corn beef 2 (see above)
Ryvita Snack pack 6
Special K mini breaks 5
Gravy 1

there doesn't seem to be a lot of free free food but i did kind have a lot of carrots i cut loads up to snack on at work as i'm a grazer!

i'm not convinced about the corn beef being 2 syns need to weigh it next time we have some so might be less (wooo)

Will Power worked again and he was sat looking at me all day and i didn't cheat even though i really wanted some crisps , i knew i wasn't hungry but u know whe you just want something.

think if i have a problem day it'll be tomorrow am i in control to get through it?

i'm still not sure what i'm doing Jackie phoned me to invite me to go to Rachels for NYE. they don't know if they are staying in or going out. i'm not very tempted cos i'd kind prefer to spend it with sarah and Nat and jackie as i don't really know jackies friends other than a few drunken meetings in Tokes.

but i don't think they know what they are doing i should have asked jac's if she'd asked them.well i'm sure i'll find out tomorrow.


i hate NY, hate hate hate it. i've never had a good NYE so i guess i set meyself up to expect it to be awful and to be fair to it, it normally lives up to my imagined horror!!!

in someways i wanna go out as its kinda expected and i shouldn't be negative and its nice to bring the NY in with friends.

but in other ways i should stay home keep my misery to myself, in a way i feel like i'm damed if i do damed if i don't!!!

cos if i don't people think i'm being boring and keep nagging (ok so no one so far but there is time yet) and i  do i'm not happy so i feel like i'm letting people down my struggling to enjoy myself!

ah well watch this space!!!!

good luck for everyone getting back on the waggon!!!!

Year in review

All though it hasn't felt like it at times this has been my most successfull wl year to date.

Ok so my wl stalled in July and has yoyo'd ever since, i have not stopped going to class even though i know i haven't stuck to it!

the thing is i feel it works, i feel a hell of a lot better than i did this time last year!!!

so far this year i've lost 26.5lbs!!!! it was more granted but i've lost it and i know that after yesterdays wi i can get back on track, i feel no sense that i am going to blow it this week.

i resisted advent calendar chocolate, i avoided the left over roses and quality street and i avoided that one last ferror rocher!!!

At class on monday i gain (oh no not again!!!) but it was only half a pound and in my eyes thats not enough to get up set about for crying out loud it was christmas!!!! and belive me it derseved to be a lot more!!!

in class a couple of weeks ago Helen (my consultant) introduced a new member . \Will Power, you may laugh we all did!!! but |Debbie took him home and even though she had a big weekend she still either lost or maintained. i kinda wanted him over xmas but helen had him, so i have the pleasure of his company this week!!!!

She wants to set a bored up  to record his travels  i thought i would obigge and take some photos of him!!!!


1) he came to work with me and kept me on the straight and narrow


2) he looked through some recipe books and decided on some yummy sw friendly foods to cook ( i think he's a secret veggies as he likes all the veggie recipes best!!!)


3) he wants to be a russian doll in his next life, he has the right colouring and by this time next year he wants to fit inside the middle one!!!

4) my mother is trying to corrupt the bear she may only be 5lbs or so from target but she wants to get there before the bear does!!!!

there can't be many syns in those tiny tiny packets!!!!


I wanted to re-measure myself and take some last photos as my promise to take them once a month didn't last very long!!!!

i will do this my thursday. i'm also gonna pick up my sw scrap book!!!! start of the year fresh chapter!!!!

xxxsjxxx

Merry Christmas 2009

Well Christmas 2009 is almost over. and its been a nice day the only problem i've had is some bloody carry on film. i know xmas tv isn't brill but who ever gave Ivan the bloody tv remote needs shooting!!!!!

Presents well got more than expected as i had my camera back in October but my mum got me some unwrappables.

a Soap and Glory hat box full of goodies and they are lovely

Tights tightes and more tights!

a dress

2 lots of bracelets

bath stuff

make up

a ring

Pjs

a hot water bottle

and i'm sure there was more!!!!

we had to walk to mars cos the roads are still icy and snow on the pavements. it was hard work but the buffett was god.

and it wasn't overly un healthy really the only had stuff was filo prawns spring rolls and toads in holes! i only had 2 bits of bread and loads of salad and cooked meat!!! only had 2 alcholic drinks then struck to diet pop in them and that on its own.

i have had a couple of bad little cakes and three ferro rocher before breakfast and a 3rd of a gian tube of smarites ops.

BUT ITS CHristmas !!!!! This was my street yesterday!!!!!! its not changed much over night just a bit more dangerous as its turned to packed ICE!!!!!!

Roll on Monday when i can re-start my diet, i know i should be starting from now but, just going to go with the flow over the weekend!!!!

xxsjxx

long time no blog (yet again)

Merry Christmas Eve!!!

blimey the months have rolled round fast this year. I can not beleive it was October that i last posted!!!! 

well on holiday i gained 1lb!!!! not bad and since then i have lost a couple and gained a couple so i am still where i was when i came back from holiday. 

i've said i want to lose over christmas week but not sure if that is realistic so just gonna go with the flow. 

and next year is a fresh start. if i can lose another 27lbs next year (my loss to date!)i'll be happy. 

We've took about 300 SW leaflets to deliver on Boxing day to the neighbouring streets, easier said than done with all the snow and ice we've still got on the ground!!! 

i'll have to post pics later as i'm on pc and not the lap top. 


i've got 2 holidays booked for next year already so want to lose about a stone before i go on the 1st one. (19 wi's to go!)


feel more positive than i have before but i keep eating the wrong things. 


in the NY SW is changing its main plan to EE, which i've never fully got my head round so i think i'll buy they new new members pack so i can get the updated books and stuff. new year new start. 


on the positives for this year even though my wl has stalled i have never stopped going to class, i feel supported and i once again feel motivated.


SW is a good plan and i know if i follow it i can lose a good amount and keep it off.

my mum is 5lbs away from target and she has done so well, i hope in the next year i can get back on track. 


i still have a long way to go. 


i hope that over the next 2 wi's i'll get back to 2st lost (that was my 10%) and then i can aim for my next 10%. which will be 25lbs loss! 

Bad blogger

holla

i've been negleting you my pretty!!!

been up and down like a yoyo since i was last back on track, have nonly got myself to blame.

am trying really haerd to do this but if truth be told i've been feeling sorry for myself

it seems like the whole world is happy, in love getting married and having babies, or on the flip side splitting up feeling low and now i'm on the low again!

going on holiday on friday so that should cheer me up. i want to rry and maintain on this hol but gain no more that 4lbs max!

then its a bit of a mad timme when i get back as i have 2 friends b'day one i prob won't be doing anything for as its the day after i get home from hold, then hels new moon birthday. even though we have cineworld passes she's bought us tickets so we avoid disappointment as i reck it'll either be mega packed or dead! hope its mega packed so i can justify paying for the ticket!!!!!

then i have works xmas do, and then 3 wseeks later another xmas do then 2 weeks later itys xmas!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhh!!!

still fat and alone! hahah

clocks go back today as well so u'd think i'd be alseep making the most of my extra hour yet i'm sat here typing.

been off sick all this week felty appalling, feel like i'm on the mend now, but in 40 mins that could all change as has been the way this week, on antibiotics but need to go abck to work next week have been sooooooooooo bored!

i've also got a new camera. i've broke yet anpther one, i bl;ame the fact i have to take loads of picks every day and got a bit lazxy putting the camera away. so i have to look atfter this one as its a p[osh one!!! the new samsung one with dual screen!!!! yipeeeeeeeeeee

got a list of HSMSHS catch ups to take, was meaning to do some today buit forgot my list and camera!!!! haha i'm a muppett xxxx

on top of the world

hi

i'm chuffed to buttons this week. i lost and i lost good!!!!!

3lbs!!!!

i'm shocked as because i thought i'd be missing class do to having to work away i have eaten and eaten and eaten!!!! even when i found out my work thing was canclled i kept on eating!!!

but i can not rest on my laurells!!!

on saturday night i made a giant pan of chicken soup and lived off that all weekend (not in a bad way i had other stuff as well but it was my midnight snack as well as lunch!)

then on monday well monday was a right off really as i didn't get the lift to work due to a death in the family of the woman who was giving me a lift, long story but it resulted in 2 hours journy to work and 2 hour jorney back, a cookie covered in choc and a a tesco southern fried chicken wrap and some prawn cocktail crisps!!! and more besides!!!

tried to be good today but i fear i have wobbled tonight

breakfast

2 slices of WM Bread
2 quorn sausages
fuller for longer yogurt
home made free quiche and SW chips n cheese
toast with cottage cheese
cheesey sw chips and bread for tea!!!
2 frozen muller lights

its the bread... it always is!!!! had planned on pork chop but becasue i didn't have my lunch til 3pm wasn't hungry so just cooked the chips i'd cut up but needed yes needed something with it!!! that was cheese n bread!!!

oh well fresh start!

but if its a green day can have 2 x cheese as hxa 2 bread hxb syn cheese and syn bread = 12 syns maybe a couple more for good meaure!!!

hmmm we shall see what happens on monday!!!

to thine own self be true

something that i need to be!

in need to stop cheating myself saying it won't hurt!

today i hadn't taken any dinner so i bought a sandwich from Tescos a light choices one and one with only 4.5 WW points, but i'm not doing WW am i! no silly me its 14 SYNs! WTF i do undertsand why it was so high but my god it was totally not worth it!


been an odd day food wise not ate much but it soon adds up.

not decided what kinda day it was have posted the food on minimins (a fab forum i discovered earlier in the year that i stopped using don't know why)

i have eaten

a hifi bar
special k minis
fresh fruit salad
tesco butty
fuller for longer yogurt
grapes
clementine
sw chips
2 slices of the proper bread

so really not a great deal really!

but potentially 25 syns!

This is my fave thread on minimins at the mo some of the pictures are amazing (food pictures mmmm)

These are pics of food i've eaten this week

Brunch - Quorn Sausages, mushrooms and eggs

Chickpea lemon cake - recipe found on that food link i've posted

Stickle brick quorn bol home made by me pasta boiled by papa


WW baked ham and egg and some toast

SW Chip butties!

eeeeeee by gum!!!!!!! whata shocker!!!!

I was voted WOMAN OF THE YEAR 2009!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

How did that happen? had a couple of shitty weeks, been totally off plan but yet i got voted woman of the year.

i also got some really lovely comment said about me, which may surprise some of you who have been reading this lately.

i was said that i am always cheerful and happy, always possitive and give good encouragement and comiserations at the scales as i weigh people! It was also said no matter how badly i've done i always stay always have positive things to say and encourage the class!!! haha from reading this blog you never would have believed that that discription and the writer of this blog is the same person.

This is me with the other 3 finalists, My Mum, Cath and Alicia.


SO in a bid to keep up with my slimming world class persona i here by declare myself cheered!!!


This is me and my SW Consultant Helen, She truely is a lovely person and so surportive!!!!!





I can not control what other people do or say or act, i can only control myself (even if after 5 black sambucas i find it very difficult!)

we had to take in Photos and an Item of clothing, i took in the balck and silver dress i wore to the xmas do at the willows last year. I tried it on last nigth and it was miles too big, i was too embarassed to show the full thing to the group but one day i wil!! The photos i took in where the picture of me wearing sarahs purple dress that she wanted me to wear to Nats Gaz's 30th (that thank god i didn't wear) and the picture Liam took of me at Sarahs wedding! i was struggling to see a difference in myself untill i compared the two pictures, and last night i was strugling to decide what big item of clothing to take as too be honest i'm still wearing everything. the only other thing i could think of was those big slouchy jeans from asda but they have always been big even when i was bigger so i decided on my xmas dress!!

to think last night i was on the verge of texting helen saying i wanted to with draw, This has give me a much needed confidence boost!!!

so not only did i get a sash and a certificate i got an award (sticker to you and me) and what i like to call my blankerty blank cheque book and pen which is actually a paperweight witha pen built in!!!!

And i managed to lose weight this week as well, i lost the 2lbs i gained last week, i wanna lose 1.5lb this week to get me back to my club 10. and next week is also my 10th weeks since i got club 10!!! i'm still over that weight but not bothered about missing out on my free week as i have bought a count down and to be honest the messing i have been doing recently i don't deserve it!!!!


its 75 days til t'gypt!!! wooo hooo would idealy like to lose another stone by then or at least be in the low 17s!!!! (or high 16s if possible!)

eeeeeee by gum!!!!!!! whata shocker!!!!

I was voted WOMAN OF THE YEAR 2009!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

How did that happen? had a couple of shitty weeks, been totally off plan but yet i got voted woman of the year.

i also got some really lovely comment said about me, which may surprise some of you who have been reading this lately.

i was said that i am always cheerful and happy, always possitive and give good encouragement and comiserations at the scales as i weigh people! It was also said no matter how badly i've done i always stay always have positive things to say and encourage the class!!! haha from reading this blog you never would have believed that that discription and the writer of this blog is the same person.

This is me with the other 3 finalists, My Mum, Cath and Alicia.


SO in a bid to keep up with my slimming world class persona i here by declare myself cheered!!!


This is me and my SW Consultant Helen, She truely is a lovely person and so surportive!!!!!





I can not control what other people do or say or act, i can only control myself (even if after 5 black sambucas i find it very difficult!)

we had to take in Photos and an Item of clothing, i took in the balck and silver dress i wore to the xmas do at the willows last year. I tried it on last nigth and it was miles too big, i was too embarassed to show the full thing to the group but one day i wil!! The photos i took in where the picture of me wearing sarahs purple dress that she wanted me to wear to Nats Gaz's 30th (that thank god i didn't wear) and the picture Liam took of me at Sarahs wedding! i was struggling to see a difference in myself untill i compared the two pictures, and last night i was strugling to decide what big item of clothing to take as too be honest i'm still wearing everything. the only other thing i could think of was those big slouchy jeans from asda but they have always been big even when i was bigger so i decided on my xmas dress!!

to think last night i was on the verge of texting helen saying i wanted to with draw, This has give me a much needed confidence boost!!!

so not only did i get a sash and a certificate i got an award (sticker to you and me) and what i like to call my blankerty blank cheque book and pen which is actually a paperweight witha  pen built in!!!!

And i managed to lose weight this week as well, i lost the 2lbs i gained last week, i wanna lose 1.5lb this week to get me back to my club 10. and next week is also my 10th weeks since i got club 10!!! i'm still over that weight but not bothered about missing out on my free week as i have bought a count down and to be honest the messing i have been doing recently i don't deserve it!!!!


its 75 days til t'gypt!!! wooo hooo would idealy like to lose another stone by then or at least be in the low 17s!!!! (or high 16s if possible!)

Hitched or Ditchd plus a nearly organic cabbage!!!!!

Hola

OMG how drunk was i last night have no recolection of posting that last entry!!! the title was in reference to that black eyed peas song no idea what its called but has the word mozzletov in it!!! oh well apologies!!!

why did the club stay open it 4am? why did i think it was a good idea to drink my own body weight in black sambuca!!!! evil vile stuff!!!

i'm just watched hitched or ditched on reality tv, oh dear god they will make anything into tv these days. but it has been quite pretty and what a fab day to get tonnes of fab stuff!!! :)
oh dear i've just been really stressed watching the decision!!! Haha it ot flash ups at the end like the do with films based on real life events !!!!


Our nearly organic cabbage is another story, my papa has been having a bit of a goodelife moment has has grown some behind our new garage! well what woppers they are, last night he told me the nearly organic cabbage that he had harvested was outside ready for tonights tea. i queried nearly  organic and its really just home grown!!! but it tasted bloody good even raw, i'm thining coleslaw and it was good microwaved as well!!!


But sadly i don't think my nearly organic cabbage will have rescued my diet for the week, been a pig again, every time i think i'm gonna be able to have a good week something goes wrong!


Why is everything wedding wedding wedding at the moment?! 4 weddings, hitched or ditched i'm cntemplating what happens in vegas if i don't watch that i've got on the big day where the friends and family payfor and organise the wedding in a week!!! hmmm brave people

Vegas still seems more and more appealing!!! no relatives no friends to cop off with each other no major stress

all i need now is the OH to get married to!!!

010809 the date and what i thought was 3 peoples meter readings today

its  been a long long day!!! worked 8am -6pm they kept saying we could come off but keep an eye every time i started on my own work my phone was in red!!! i tried my best for leads i missed a few and a couple wern't appropriate, i had a one to one yesterday and its such hard work with my TM every time we have a meeting i end up in tears mainly cos we have meetings when i am ill and she thinks i am always ill, but yesterday i had tooth ache and ear ache (both of which i still have!!!) i just feel very frustrated at the moment and after our last meeting where she has told me i am not allowed to get frusteated well thats getting me down i know no other way to channel how i'm feeling other than crying / screaming the only other realistic option is bottleing thing up which is what i am doing and then it poors out in tears, i meantioned that i am not going to get involved in this CHC activity decorating the team as no one is interested so i volunteered so we didn't look miserable, we got a shit theme so i picked us a knew one after asking the team no-one seemed very bothered so i sorted stuff out then they all said oh we should have been the oblivion can you just do this can you just do that. i decided we'd be a candy floss stall so i got pics of stuff bought real sweets and glue and cut and made giant lollys i stuck some stuff to the window literally plonked it there and the one person who keeps moaning and staying she's not interested decided they'd be better lower on the window i wasn't offenced i just said well move them i've got to do some work but she didn't move them then wheni came back in after my day off she's moved them. one of the teams up stairs is a burger van and they have candy floss and sweets as well as chips n burgers and it looks god but mailnly cos the whole team has got involved one peropsn on my team was telling me how good it looked insinuating my decorating looks shit, i just said i give up i'm not doing any more. i've told my tm i'm not participating and i know you can't motivate and make people join in 247 but i feel like i am the only one doing stuff then i get critised for it i can't win and she basically told me to get over myself but ok part of it might be me being a bit para but i am sick of the negitivity

i had to say what areas i want to develop in so i put i might wanna do reporting but not sure so my tm said she wants to know for defo, i kinda do but i don't want the responsibility i've got all the process maps to do so i've said its somthing that i'd like to do in teh future.

sorry i'm sure that was all boring for anyone reading but u know when you have to get stuff off your chest!!
On
to mor intersting things, my Papa bought wii sport Island and OMG it is
so much fun, we played as a family last night and even though i didn't
feel well i still played a bit and i've not laughed so much in ages
then tonight after work i played for an hour or 2 on it just me as no
one else would play.

there is alsorts of gaes and it really pust what the wii is all about into proactice and it came iwth the new wii attachmentr to make the wii remote more sensitive not sure how much difference this makes but i'll  give it a go with out the attachment tomorrow.

games include Wake board - like water skiking on a board, basket ball, frisbee, cycling, sword play, golf, table tennis (i <3 this) and more i'm suree oh bowling 10 pin and 100 pin bowling (i love this as well!!)

its daft i have been feeling so ill and miserable and i still do a bit but after playing and laughing at myself i feel a hell of a lot better. what i don't think has help i have been self sabotaging and eating shit , telling myself its ok cos all i want to lost is ½lb but i'll be bloody lucky if i only gain 2lbs this week, althought i have done a bit more exercise it is in no way anything to write home about.

so all i can do is be good tomorrow and monday and hope fir the best!!!
The motion plus thats whats its called!!!! i had taken some pics of my Mii in action yes and i am that sad but sadly i can' get them to load so i have stolen these images from somehere i found on google!!!
well as i can't get these pics to behave how i want and i have seen 2 films tonight that are not what i wanted to watch i think i am gonna go and try and sleep!"!!


TTFN xxxx

2 blogs one day what is the world coming to?

Ok i know i know, i must bore you all to death with these things, if infact anyone actually reads them,  but even though i have blogged once i don't really feel like i have got everything down, what everything is i don't really know but you know sometime when you feel like there is more to say.

So as nothing is springing to mind i thought i'd add a pretty picture of out RPATZ mmmmmmmmmmm quite sad at 28 years old to be in lust with a fictional charcture but walt disney now has a competitor for messing with young (yes i'm still tarring myself with that particular brush) womens idea of Mr Right / Prince Charming / The ONE / Him who shall be named!  Ms Stephenie Meyers!!! if anyone doesn't know who she is you should be ashamed !!! She is the author of the Twilight series. (Twilight?! never heard of it, Please use your favourite search engine and have a look!)

I've got a 121 tomorrow to discuss career options i think i'm gonna say when i group up i wanna be a vampire! wonder how well that will go down!

If i was a vampire i would be come instantly stunning have men falling at me feet. but i don't think i'd be happy. i mean i'm not all that happy as a human so i doubt imortallity would help that fact. i know i go on a lot about being unhappy but its true i am and i'm not sure what i can do to alter that state. i don't wanna go down the route of seeing a doctor as the ones at my health cetre are hopeless and they'd dismiss me like they did with my PCOS!!! (come back once you are married and have been trying for a baby for 12 months and we'll give you IVF) see anyone who's been reading this will know i seem to quote this a lot, how dare they assume i want a baby i don't i really do not like children (i don't mean to offend people, my opinion i don't want a kid) what i did want was help with my increasinly moodly unhappy self, my horrnedous periods (sorry any men) and my lack of self confidence, i was told losing weight would help, no shit sherlock, go one give us a clue, maybe ask if i wanna see a dietition or maybe a perscription to a slimming club, NOOOOOOOOOOOO just why are u crtying when you get married and can't have kids come back. oh fuck u mr doctor man!!!

please excuse my french i think i may be hormonal but as i have been on for the last 6 weeks on and off i'm not actually sure where the hell i am up 2!!!!

I'm officially starting to look forward to Egypt, its not somewhere i've ever been before and i'm not sure what to expect but loads of people from work go and all love it. i think it'll be a bit differnt as we're not going in an all inclusive hotel, i've never know anyone go to Egypt and not stay in one so we shall see, and we've found a bar that sells pork chops Heaven!!!! No 100% sure if this picture is where i am going or if it is even in Egypt, but i'm using Scribefire to blog and it lets you upload pics from Flickr so you don't have to trawl all throught the t'interweb to find an image, so i just put in El Gouna and this is one of the pitures , it looks a bit like an artists impression to me what do you think.



I wonder how the happy couple are getting on on honeymoon up in the Orkney's? i need to ask her why they picked there, been thinking aboiut it but never got round to asking. been having a quick nosey about it and it looks so pretty i hope they have some nice weather and not these manky thunder storms we keep having!!!!!!!!

for a long time i had a cut out of a villa in Greece that i'd have like to have gone to on honeymoon but as they years progresses and the lack of boyfriends let alone marriage proposals continued it must have been binned. shame i'd like to know where abouts in greece it was, all i remeber where these amazinf villas and infinity pools that cost so much money it included your own bulter!!!!!

i've always had expensive tastes!!! :)

Just noticed on the Map of the Oarkney's Auskerry a small Island all by its self to the right hand side (i know they are all little islands!) its the table name i was on at the wedding and it looks kinda how i feel. Alone, but surrounded by many. on the edge of the group never in the centre nor would i want to be the centre! Just always that little bit to far on the periffery

Gosh its strange how you get talking about one things and other feelings poor out, i'm not saying i feel much better but its good to talk and BT have been telling us for years!!!!

Back at Club 10

And here i want to stay.





i got my letter about club 10, i got my club 10 cert about 5 weeks ago and since then i gain ad have just got back to it.





not having a good food week so far with the dentist on tuesday and cookies and twister lollies yesterday and my re-discovered love for milk roll!!! all i want to lose is ½lb this week making me 17 13½but ut wil be in thye 17s, its all psycological i tell you.

i've taken some new 3 sided pictures as not done it for months and i re-meausred but have not chnaged inch wise since i last measured in May! odd but true but then again i haven't really lost all that much weight since May. (about half a stone) but i do feel very bloated and cos i don't feel well, on monday i tried some pants on for work and i got in them but couldn't find a top i liked i put them on on wed and couldn't get them fastened thats how quick the bloat has set in! jeans that have been big on me for weeks have been on with the belt undone today!!!! hope its just cos i'm not feeling well!!!!

roll on 6pm saturday, i'm in work 8 -6 and don't wanna play. i don't mind my job but i feel so hopeless when on the call centre!!!

A Design for Life....

..... i seem to start with... a lot these days not quite sure what it says about me as a person?

Today was a delightful trip to the dentist to re-open my root canal and have a poke about inside! NICE!

have felt lousy alday since, don't know why i am so scared of the dentist, i was shaking and panaking. the actual treatment wasn't as bad as i was expecting its just the lingering pain, all the gum around the tooth is sore and i have tooth ache in all my bottom teath on that side? (its a top front tooth i've had the work on!)
Diet wise it should be good as i canne chew, i have had some soup, i need to check it out syn wise as it was an ASDA normal fresh leak and potatoe soup and it was only 40Kals per 100Grms but it had double cream in it so not sure how that works?! err well it was 15½syns for the whole tub thanks god i shared it! and i decided to be a cheapo and bought smart price chicken roll and its ½syn a slice on original / EE and i've had about 5 slices and i can pretty much inhale it! i'll go back to the wafter thin stuff!!!!

i also seem to be developing swine flu symptoms at a cracking pace, pretty much working my way through the alphabet of symptoms

A
C
D
F
H
P
N

I'll let you put a name to the letters!

i really hope i haven't got it as from the people i know who have it / had it its horrible. i've had cronic stomach pains since saturday and just wanna cry all the time.

The wedding on friday was amazing she looked stunning. its not the kinda dress i would have gone for nor expected her to go for but she did look lovely with the veil on and all the lads dressed up.

If i ever get married i'd like a dress a bit like the ones below. stupid to even think about such things i know!

Guess we can't help what we think about!!!

Oh good news i actually lost 1lb this week , no idea how, so i'm back down to 18stone!!!! i should be happy but guess i'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself again.

But there are now only 13 wi's til T'gypt so i have to get my bum in gear. ideally i'd like to have lost another 2 stone but lets be realistic, i am going for 1stone. 1lbs per week. i can do this.

And next week i will be in the 17s!!! for god sake if i'm not there will be tears!!!!

Morning has Broken.... here comes the bride.....

Well today is the day, the wedding is in 4 and a hald hours!!! i need to get a jimmy wriggle on, i've had my shower and need to dry my hair, although i'm going to the hair dressers for a blow wave i've had to wash it again, i dyed it last night and left the conditioner in intennding to have a shower and wash it out later, only the later ended up being this morning!!! ops 

i'll get some picturs up later i just hope this weather improves soon. it'd be such a shame for bad weather plus i really don't wanna have to take a coat with or a brolly with me.

right i'd best go n do something useful xxx

What do Tigers Dream of

'Stu's Song' The Hangover performed by Ed Helms

one of my facebook friends has this song as her status and i love it. got to be one of the best bits fo the film, and i liked this film so much i've seen it twice.and stay for the end credits!!!

been feeling really blue today. i think its just with the wedding tomorrow, all my girl friends bar one will be there alone so its not like i'll be the odd one out but i justr feel like i'm a grown up and i'm still missing my adult rating, wheres my other half, its almost like i'm not complete, yes i know i am buying into 101 cliches and if i knew where walt disneys crogenically frozen body was i'd defrost him and shoot him for warping my sence of self!

every where i've turned today has been wedding wedding wedding!!! tv 4 weddings , tv runaway bride, looking for a dress i've bought and when i type debenhams into my search bar the 1st thing it found was weddings at debenhams.

yes it is wedding season and when i get married (if ) i get married i want to get married in june, anyone tell me why and i'll give u 10 points!

but i'm sick of being constantly tired and sad and i need to paint on my happy face tell my friend how beautiful she looks and what a wonderful day it is. even if i am screaming to get out, what i'm afraid of is that i'll be that mad woman in the toliet at the wedding thats crying and ranting... you know there always is one!!!!

well i'd best try n get some sleep need a shower and stuff then  off to the hairdressers for 11am!!!

night flokes x

Scribefire

oooo just been told about a new mozzilla add-on scribefire so you can blog from the tool bar a bit like twitterfox but for blogger.

so far so good but have only written a line and an a half! and its seems easy enough to add pictures and stuff



 and you can add pictures direct from flickr.

i think i'm ready for this wedding tomorrow but i'm feeling nervous, god help me if it was my own wedding (haha like it ever would be!)

the more i think about it the less likely i think it is that i would ever get married, don't get me wrong its not that i don't not want to get married but i think no one would ever want to marry me even after i lose weight.

BUT and that is  a very big but if i ever did get married i think it would be Vegas, with a few very close friends, not tell anyone what was going on, but organise a party for something else.

get married in vegas have a fab honeymoon there.

then when you get home invite everyone to a party somewhere, the just before me and hubby arrive get the place to have a fake fire alarm so everyone has to go outside  as we turn up in wedding clothes / wedding car, while the people from the place quickly change the tables and put up wedding decorations!!!

cunning as a fox!!! but i can't do this now cos i've told you lot.

i think that should cut out a lot of stress. but then again who knows!!!

but no point thinking about it,

right i'd best go need to have my hair coloured then at haor dressers tomorrow morining to have my hair washed and dryed properly!!!

xxxx

Tammiflu to the rescue......

What does Tammiflu do? i've heard that its the medicine to help get better when having swine flu, i've heard it should be taken before developing as its a vacine so you don't get it, i've heard that it actually does nothing (i smell placeabo)

someone at work phone in today to say he has swine flu, but he thought he'd already had it (a visit to scotland when it 1st broke out) he has the lowest immune system of anyone i know and gets everything going but then again the symptoms = a lot of other problems.

i've got a sore throat and earache and itchy eyes i think its hay fever but people laugh cos its wet and miserable but the pollen count near work doesn't seem to have dropped!


i have to stay well til friday at least, the wedding i've been going on about for 12 months + is finally here.
i'm no where near as light as i wanted to be but i am at my equal lightest to when i did WW.

i will; be wearing a size 20 dress. was aiming for an 18s but no point being squeezed into something too small!!!

feel a bit disapointed inmy self that i am not at my club 10 but only have myself to blame, i want to be as good as i can all week so i can enjoy the wedding without worrying, as my mum pointed out its only 1 day!!!
This is me in the dress in debenhams changing rooms not a brill shot so i hope it looks much nicer on the day!and i still hate that frill!!!

i've booked into have my eyebrows done on thursday and booked a blow wave as the hair dresser calls it, i quite fancy an updo but i think my hair down will be more flattering, i've also asked if they will attach my fastenater, its just on a sildy comb and whenever i do it i transpost my now self back to 1987.

On The Road Again...

Well Tuesday - today (Friday) i have been very virtuous and not slipped up Yet!!! Now saying that i have agreed to go to a charity do tomorrow night, but i doun't think i'll drink and a video day a mates (yes i know it'll really be a DVD Day) and that usually involves crap, but i have to get into the mind set that Slimming World is a way of life not a diet i can go out i can go to friends house i just can't over indulge to often.

i really want to shift 3.5lbs this week but i won't be upset if i don't just a loss will do.

but 3.5lbs would take me into teh 17's!!! only just but still there.

i've bought another dress for the wedding, its the 1st one i looked at in Debenhams many moons ago, in fact it about 2 years ago that they got this syle in and back then i struggled to get the 22's zipped up. But on Thursday i took a size 20's in to try on and it fitted!!!! so i got it. now i still think its a bit frumpy but its not as low cut as the purple fru fru number from tesco and its also just that little bit longer. And lucky i bought neutral shoes and handbag, so at least now i have the choice of both on the day, and the blue dress is the colour i was after all along

Its the frill down the front i'm not keen on. It seems to be very flattering. well we shall see, this time next week i'll be at the reception, i do hope the weather is better than today has been.

It'd be such a shame to have rain on a July Wedding day. But isn't rain on a wedding day good luck, or is it bad luck ??? must google .... over all concensous is good luck, hindu saying / proverb says a wet knot is harder to untie and makes for a lasting marriage and rain a sign of properity and fertility.

As i said before good food week, i've not really had any proper bread, had a corner of a peice of Nibble last night quite subconciously i was making my mums lunch and the coner fell off and i'd swallowed it before i realised what i was doing. I've also had some of those Pagen Krisp rolls, not bad really 2 Syns each or 3 as a HXb choice.

I'd also like to know who decided you could have 6 laughing cow ELF cheese triangles, try as i might i can stomach no more than 3 at anyone time!!! and 2 is a bit of a struggle as well!!!

I've also got back on board with HSMSHS i'd forgotten how much fun it is. there are pics on my other blog and on facebook

I've also updated my Journal - i'm gonna try and create a thing so you can see mulitpul pages at once as there are quite a lot of pages filled in now.

I do it to record little acchivement and sucess stories that i have found interesting and i also have pages for my SW sticker awards and stuff.

It might seem a bit rubbishy to other people but i love geting awards for my half stones so i thought i'd do my book, i also record my 1lb losses by differnt means, you'll see if i ever get these pics sorted ....

1: Cover

2: The dress i wanted for the wedding from Coast

3: My Fatest Ever Picture :(

4: 1st Maxi Goal (what i decided to call my biggy goals, but i had mini ones inbetween them) ~1st stone

5: 1st 4 SW awards. Lots more to come!!!

1: Slimmer of the Week

2: 2nd Maxi Goal ~2 stone

3: Club 10

4: Body Magic ~ i have Bronze and Silver so far!!! :)

5: Maxi Goal 3: ~ 3 Stone yet to be started... but hopefully i can get started this week!!!

This is just a snap shot really there are loads of other pages but there are mainly sucess stores and graphs and other ways of showing differnt parts of my weight loss xxxx

You can do it when you put your back into it

Hiya

Long time no blog.

well i guess in truth i've been feeling sorry for myself, nowt new there i hear you all cry!!!! well pooh to you. No i know its true and i have to get over myself.

i gained 3lbs the week i came back from Poland, lost 1lb last week then gained it back this week. i said i didn't know why but as my mother gently reminded me of a few non essential items i'd had to eat and drink then later on i remembered a few more i should actually be greatful it was only 1lb this week!!!!


BUT i am back on the plan, i've decided to have a week without bread and 2 days down zero bread consumed. food diary filled in, no exercise done thats my only weak point so far but like i said today is only day 2 of my week.

I went to see my sisters keeper last week with my friend helen, it was very good i cried almost all the way through, before it came on we put the tissues in the drinks holder between us and i was reaching for one within the 1st 15/20 mins!!!!
at the time of watching i really enjoyed it, but i hadn't read the book, which i bought the day after watching and oh my god the book is 100 times better, it explains things so much better, had a tottaly differnt ending and made me cry 100 times more!!!!


read and wacth but treat them as 2 differnt things or book lovers will get angry (its a bit like PS I Love you chnages -angry! but still very watchable and the casting was good i thought!)

Oldham Council are cutting jobs left right and centre yet it still has cash for oldham in Bloom. go figure!!!

but it looks very pretty, this is the disply they've put on top of the clock thing that has neverr worked!!!

And finally a picture of me!!!! this is from my friends hen do last saturday. it the wedding next friday. i'm not too sure about my choice of dress asni think its a bit low!!! but well i've left it a bit late to get anything else and i like the rest of the dress. if you scroll down there is a pic of me in the dress some where in here!!!!

right i'm off got cool runnings on!!! Sanka Ya Dead!!! :)