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i've been negleting you my pretty!!!

been up and down like a yoyo since i was last back on track, have nonly got myself to blame.

am trying really haerd to do this but if truth be told i've been feeling sorry for myself

it seems like the whole world is happy, in love getting married and having babies, or on the flip side splitting up feeling low and now i'm on the low again!

going on holiday on friday so that should cheer me up. i want to rry and maintain on this hol but gain no more that 4lbs max!

then its a bit of a mad timme when i get back as i have 2 friends b'day one i prob won't be doing anything for as its the day after i get home from hold, then hels new moon birthday. even though we have cineworld passes she's bought us tickets so we avoid disappointment as i reck it'll either be mega packed or dead! hope its mega packed so i can justify paying for the ticket!!!!!

then i have works xmas do, and then 3 wseeks later another xmas do then 2 weeks later itys xmas!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhh!!!

still fat and alone! hahah

clocks go back today as well so u'd think i'd be alseep making the most of my extra hour yet i'm sat here typing.

been off sick all this week felty appalling, feel like i'm on the mend now, but in 40 mins that could all change as has been the way this week, on antibiotics but need to go abck to work next week have been sooooooooooo bored!

i've also got a new camera. i've broke yet anpther one, i bl;ame the fact i have to take loads of picks every day and got a bit lazxy putting the camera away. so i have to look atfter this one as its a p[osh one!!! the new samsung one with dual screen!!!! yipeeeeeeeeeee

got a list of HSMSHS catch ups to take, was meaning to do some today buit forgot my list and camera!!!! haha i'm a muppett xxxx

on top of the world

hi

i'm chuffed to buttons this week. i lost and i lost good!!!!!

3lbs!!!!

i'm shocked as because i thought i'd be missing class do to having to work away i have eaten and eaten and eaten!!!! even when i found out my work thing was canclled i kept on eating!!!

but i can not rest on my laurells!!!

on saturday night i made a giant pan of chicken soup and lived off that all weekend (not in a bad way i had other stuff as well but it was my midnight snack as well as lunch!)

then on monday well monday was a right off really as i didn't get the lift to work due to a death in the family of the woman who was giving me a lift, long story but it resulted in 2 hours journy to work and 2 hour jorney back, a cookie covered in choc and a a tesco southern fried chicken wrap and some prawn cocktail crisps!!! and more besides!!!

tried to be good today but i fear i have wobbled tonight

breakfast

2 slices of WM Bread
2 quorn sausages
fuller for longer yogurt
home made free quiche and SW chips n cheese
toast with cottage cheese
cheesey sw chips and bread for tea!!!
2 frozen muller lights

its the bread... it always is!!!! had planned on pork chop but becasue i didn't have my lunch til 3pm wasn't hungry so just cooked the chips i'd cut up but needed yes needed something with it!!! that was cheese n bread!!!

oh well fresh start!

but if its a green day can have 2 x cheese as hxa 2 bread hxb syn cheese and syn bread = 12 syns maybe a couple more for good meaure!!!

hmmm we shall see what happens on monday!!!

to thine own self be true

something that i need to be!

in need to stop cheating myself saying it won't hurt!

today i hadn't taken any dinner so i bought a sandwich from Tescos a light choices one and one with only 4.5 WW points, but i'm not doing WW am i! no silly me its 14 SYNs! WTF i do undertsand why it was so high but my god it was totally not worth it!


been an odd day food wise not ate much but it soon adds up.

not decided what kinda day it was have posted the food on minimins (a fab forum i discovered earlier in the year that i stopped using don't know why)

i have eaten

a hifi bar
special k minis
fresh fruit salad
tesco butty
fuller for longer yogurt
grapes
clementine
sw chips
2 slices of the proper bread

so really not a great deal really!

but potentially 25 syns!

This is my fave thread on minimins at the mo some of the pictures are amazing (food pictures mmmm)

These are pics of food i've eaten this week

Brunch - Quorn Sausages, mushrooms and eggs

Chickpea lemon cake - recipe found on that food link i've posted

Stickle brick quorn bol home made by me pasta boiled by papa


WW baked ham and egg and some toast

SW Chip butties!

eeeeeee by gum!!!!!!! whata shocker!!!!

I was voted WOMAN OF THE YEAR 2009!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

How did that happen? had a couple of shitty weeks, been totally off plan but yet i got voted woman of the year.

i also got some really lovely comment said about me, which may surprise some of you who have been reading this lately.

i was said that i am always cheerful and happy, always possitive and give good encouragement and comiserations at the scales as i weigh people! It was also said no matter how badly i've done i always stay always have positive things to say and encourage the class!!! haha from reading this blog you never would have believed that that discription and the writer of this blog is the same person.

This is me with the other 3 finalists, My Mum, Cath and Alicia.


SO in a bid to keep up with my slimming world class persona i here by declare myself cheered!!!


This is me and my SW Consultant Helen, She truely is a lovely person and so surportive!!!!!





I can not control what other people do or say or act, i can only control myself (even if after 5 black sambucas i find it very difficult!)

we had to take in Photos and an Item of clothing, i took in the balck and silver dress i wore to the xmas do at the willows last year. I tried it on last nigth and it was miles too big, i was too embarassed to show the full thing to the group but one day i wil!! The photos i took in where the picture of me wearing sarahs purple dress that she wanted me to wear to Nats Gaz's 30th (that thank god i didn't wear) and the picture Liam took of me at Sarahs wedding! i was struggling to see a difference in myself untill i compared the two pictures, and last night i was strugling to decide what big item of clothing to take as too be honest i'm still wearing everything. the only other thing i could think of was those big slouchy jeans from asda but they have always been big even when i was bigger so i decided on my xmas dress!!

to think last night i was on the verge of texting helen saying i wanted to with draw, This has give me a much needed confidence boost!!!

so not only did i get a sash and a certificate i got an award (sticker to you and me) and what i like to call my blankerty blank cheque book and pen which is actually a paperweight witha pen built in!!!!

And i managed to lose weight this week as well, i lost the 2lbs i gained last week, i wanna lose 1.5lb this week to get me back to my club 10. and next week is also my 10th weeks since i got club 10!!! i'm still over that weight but not bothered about missing out on my free week as i have bought a count down and to be honest the messing i have been doing recently i don't deserve it!!!!


its 75 days til t'gypt!!! wooo hooo would idealy like to lose another stone by then or at least be in the low 17s!!!! (or high 16s if possible!)

eeeeeee by gum!!!!!!! whata shocker!!!!

I was voted WOMAN OF THE YEAR 2009!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

How did that happen? had a couple of shitty weeks, been totally off plan but yet i got voted woman of the year.

i also got some really lovely comment said about me, which may surprise some of you who have been reading this lately.

i was said that i am always cheerful and happy, always possitive and give good encouragement and comiserations at the scales as i weigh people! It was also said no matter how badly i've done i always stay always have positive things to say and encourage the class!!! haha from reading this blog you never would have believed that that discription and the writer of this blog is the same person.

This is me with the other 3 finalists, My Mum, Cath and Alicia.


SO in a bid to keep up with my slimming world class persona i here by declare myself cheered!!!


This is me and my SW Consultant Helen, She truely is a lovely person and so surportive!!!!!





I can not control what other people do or say or act, i can only control myself (even if after 5 black sambucas i find it very difficult!)

we had to take in Photos and an Item of clothing, i took in the balck and silver dress i wore to the xmas do at the willows last year. I tried it on last nigth and it was miles too big, i was too embarassed to show the full thing to the group but one day i wil!! The photos i took in where the picture of me wearing sarahs purple dress that she wanted me to wear to Nats Gaz's 30th (that thank god i didn't wear) and the picture Liam took of me at Sarahs wedding! i was struggling to see a difference in myself untill i compared the two pictures, and last night i was strugling to decide what big item of clothing to take as too be honest i'm still wearing everything. the only other thing i could think of was those big slouchy jeans from asda but they have always been big even when i was bigger so i decided on my xmas dress!!

to think last night i was on the verge of texting helen saying i wanted to with draw, This has give me a much needed confidence boost!!!

so not only did i get a sash and a certificate i got an award (sticker to you and me) and what i like to call my blankerty blank cheque book and pen which is actually a paperweight witha  pen built in!!!!

And i managed to lose weight this week as well, i lost the 2lbs i gained last week, i wanna lose 1.5lb this week to get me back to my club 10. and next week is also my 10th weeks since i got club 10!!! i'm still over that weight but not bothered about missing out on my free week as i have bought a count down and to be honest the messing i have been doing recently i don't deserve it!!!!


its 75 days til t'gypt!!! wooo hooo would idealy like to lose another stone by then or at least be in the low 17s!!!! (or high 16s if possible!)

Hitched or Ditchd plus a nearly organic cabbage!!!!!

Hola

OMG how drunk was i last night have no recolection of posting that last entry!!! the title was in reference to that black eyed peas song no idea what its called but has the word mozzletov in it!!! oh well apologies!!!

why did the club stay open it 4am? why did i think it was a good idea to drink my own body weight in black sambuca!!!! evil vile stuff!!!

i'm just watched hitched or ditched on reality tv, oh dear god they will make anything into tv these days. but it has been quite pretty and what a fab day to get tonnes of fab stuff!!! :)
oh dear i've just been really stressed watching the decision!!! Haha it ot flash ups at the end like the do with films based on real life events !!!!


Our nearly organic cabbage is another story, my papa has been having a bit of a goodelife moment has has grown some behind our new garage! well what woppers they are, last night he told me the nearly organic cabbage that he had harvested was outside ready for tonights tea. i queried nearly  organic and its really just home grown!!! but it tasted bloody good even raw, i'm thining coleslaw and it was good microwaved as well!!!


But sadly i don't think my nearly organic cabbage will have rescued my diet for the week, been a pig again, every time i think i'm gonna be able to have a good week something goes wrong!


Why is everything wedding wedding wedding at the moment?! 4 weddings, hitched or ditched i'm cntemplating what happens in vegas if i don't watch that i've got on the big day where the friends and family payfor and organise the wedding in a week!!! hmmm brave people

Vegas still seems more and more appealing!!! no relatives no friends to cop off with each other no major stress

all i need now is the OH to get married to!!!

010809 the date and what i thought was 3 peoples meter readings today

its  been a long long day!!! worked 8am -6pm they kept saying we could come off but keep an eye every time i started on my own work my phone was in red!!! i tried my best for leads i missed a few and a couple wern't appropriate, i had a one to one yesterday and its such hard work with my TM every time we have a meeting i end up in tears mainly cos we have meetings when i am ill and she thinks i am always ill, but yesterday i had tooth ache and ear ache (both of which i still have!!!) i just feel very frustrated at the moment and after our last meeting where she has told me i am not allowed to get frusteated well thats getting me down i know no other way to channel how i'm feeling other than crying / screaming the only other realistic option is bottleing thing up which is what i am doing and then it poors out in tears, i meantioned that i am not going to get involved in this CHC activity decorating the team as no one is interested so i volunteered so we didn't look miserable, we got a shit theme so i picked us a knew one after asking the team no-one seemed very bothered so i sorted stuff out then they all said oh we should have been the oblivion can you just do this can you just do that. i decided we'd be a candy floss stall so i got pics of stuff bought real sweets and glue and cut and made giant lollys i stuck some stuff to the window literally plonked it there and the one person who keeps moaning and staying she's not interested decided they'd be better lower on the window i wasn't offenced i just said well move them i've got to do some work but she didn't move them then wheni came back in after my day off she's moved them. one of the teams up stairs is a burger van and they have candy floss and sweets as well as chips n burgers and it looks god but mailnly cos the whole team has got involved one peropsn on my team was telling me how good it looked insinuating my decorating looks shit, i just said i give up i'm not doing any more. i've told my tm i'm not participating and i know you can't motivate and make people join in 247 but i feel like i am the only one doing stuff then i get critised for it i can't win and she basically told me to get over myself but ok part of it might be me being a bit para but i am sick of the negitivity

i had to say what areas i want to develop in so i put i might wanna do reporting but not sure so my tm said she wants to know for defo, i kinda do but i don't want the responsibility i've got all the process maps to do so i've said its somthing that i'd like to do in teh future.

sorry i'm sure that was all boring for anyone reading but u know when you have to get stuff off your chest!!
On
to mor intersting things, my Papa bought wii sport Island and OMG it is
so much fun, we played as a family last night and even though i didn't
feel well i still played a bit and i've not laughed so much in ages
then tonight after work i played for an hour or 2 on it just me as no
one else would play.

there is alsorts of gaes and it really pust what the wii is all about into proactice and it came iwth the new wii attachmentr to make the wii remote more sensitive not sure how much difference this makes but i'll  give it a go with out the attachment tomorrow.

games include Wake board - like water skiking on a board, basket ball, frisbee, cycling, sword play, golf, table tennis (i <3 this) and more i'm suree oh bowling 10 pin and 100 pin bowling (i love this as well!!)

its daft i have been feeling so ill and miserable and i still do a bit but after playing and laughing at myself i feel a hell of a lot better. what i don't think has help i have been self sabotaging and eating shit , telling myself its ok cos all i want to lost is ½lb but i'll be bloody lucky if i only gain 2lbs this week, althought i have done a bit more exercise it is in no way anything to write home about.

so all i can do is be good tomorrow and monday and hope fir the best!!!
The motion plus thats whats its called!!!! i had taken some pics of my Mii in action yes and i am that sad but sadly i can' get them to load so i have stolen these images from somehere i found on google!!!
well as i can't get these pics to behave how i want and i have seen 2 films tonight that are not what i wanted to watch i think i am gonna go and try and sleep!"!!


TTFN xxxx

2 blogs one day what is the world coming to?

Ok i know i know, i must bore you all to death with these things, if infact anyone actually reads them,  but even though i have blogged once i don't really feel like i have got everything down, what everything is i don't really know but you know sometime when you feel like there is more to say.

So as nothing is springing to mind i thought i'd add a pretty picture of out RPATZ mmmmmmmmmmm quite sad at 28 years old to be in lust with a fictional charcture but walt disney now has a competitor for messing with young (yes i'm still tarring myself with that particular brush) womens idea of Mr Right / Prince Charming / The ONE / Him who shall be named!  Ms Stephenie Meyers!!! if anyone doesn't know who she is you should be ashamed !!! She is the author of the Twilight series. (Twilight?! never heard of it, Please use your favourite search engine and have a look!)

I've got a 121 tomorrow to discuss career options i think i'm gonna say when i group up i wanna be a vampire! wonder how well that will go down!

If i was a vampire i would be come instantly stunning have men falling at me feet. but i don't think i'd be happy. i mean i'm not all that happy as a human so i doubt imortallity would help that fact. i know i go on a lot about being unhappy but its true i am and i'm not sure what i can do to alter that state. i don't wanna go down the route of seeing a doctor as the ones at my health cetre are hopeless and they'd dismiss me like they did with my PCOS!!! (come back once you are married and have been trying for a baby for 12 months and we'll give you IVF) see anyone who's been reading this will know i seem to quote this a lot, how dare they assume i want a baby i don't i really do not like children (i don't mean to offend people, my opinion i don't want a kid) what i did want was help with my increasinly moodly unhappy self, my horrnedous periods (sorry any men) and my lack of self confidence, i was told losing weight would help, no shit sherlock, go one give us a clue, maybe ask if i wanna see a dietition or maybe a perscription to a slimming club, NOOOOOOOOOOOO just why are u crtying when you get married and can't have kids come back. oh fuck u mr doctor man!!!

please excuse my french i think i may be hormonal but as i have been on for the last 6 weeks on and off i'm not actually sure where the hell i am up 2!!!!

I'm officially starting to look forward to Egypt, its not somewhere i've ever been before and i'm not sure what to expect but loads of people from work go and all love it. i think it'll be a bit differnt as we're not going in an all inclusive hotel, i've never know anyone go to Egypt and not stay in one so we shall see, and we've found a bar that sells pork chops Heaven!!!! No 100% sure if this picture is where i am going or if it is even in Egypt, but i'm using Scribefire to blog and it lets you upload pics from Flickr so you don't have to trawl all throught the t'interweb to find an image, so i just put in El Gouna and this is one of the pitures , it looks a bit like an artists impression to me what do you think.



I wonder how the happy couple are getting on on honeymoon up in the Orkney's? i need to ask her why they picked there, been thinking aboiut it but never got round to asking. been having a quick nosey about it and it looks so pretty i hope they have some nice weather and not these manky thunder storms we keep having!!!!!!!!

for a long time i had a cut out of a villa in Greece that i'd have like to have gone to on honeymoon but as they years progresses and the lack of boyfriends let alone marriage proposals continued it must have been binned. shame i'd like to know where abouts in greece it was, all i remeber where these amazinf villas and infinity pools that cost so much money it included your own bulter!!!!!

i've always had expensive tastes!!! :)

Just noticed on the Map of the Oarkney's Auskerry a small Island all by its self to the right hand side (i know they are all little islands!) its the table name i was on at the wedding and it looks kinda how i feel. Alone, but surrounded by many. on the edge of the group never in the centre nor would i want to be the centre! Just always that little bit to far on the periffery

Gosh its strange how you get talking about one things and other feelings poor out, i'm not saying i feel much better but its good to talk and BT have been telling us for years!!!!

Back at Club 10

And here i want to stay.





i got my letter about club 10, i got my club 10 cert about 5 weeks ago and since then i gain ad have just got back to it.





not having a good food week so far with the dentist on tuesday and cookies and twister lollies yesterday and my re-discovered love for milk roll!!! all i want to lose is ½lb this week making me 17 13½but ut wil be in thye 17s, its all psycological i tell you.

i've taken some new 3 sided pictures as not done it for months and i re-meausred but have not chnaged inch wise since i last measured in May! odd but true but then again i haven't really lost all that much weight since May. (about half a stone) but i do feel very bloated and cos i don't feel well, on monday i tried some pants on for work and i got in them but couldn't find a top i liked i put them on on wed and couldn't get them fastened thats how quick the bloat has set in! jeans that have been big on me for weeks have been on with the belt undone today!!!! hope its just cos i'm not feeling well!!!!

roll on 6pm saturday, i'm in work 8 -6 and don't wanna play. i don't mind my job but i feel so hopeless when on the call centre!!!

A Design for Life....

..... i seem to start with... a lot these days not quite sure what it says about me as a person?

Today was a delightful trip to the dentist to re-open my root canal and have a poke about inside! NICE!

have felt lousy alday since, don't know why i am so scared of the dentist, i was shaking and panaking. the actual treatment wasn't as bad as i was expecting its just the lingering pain, all the gum around the tooth is sore and i have tooth ache in all my bottom teath on that side? (its a top front tooth i've had the work on!)
Diet wise it should be good as i canne chew, i have had some soup, i need to check it out syn wise as it was an ASDA normal fresh leak and potatoe soup and it was only 40Kals per 100Grms but it had double cream in it so not sure how that works?! err well it was 15½syns for the whole tub thanks god i shared it! and i decided to be a cheapo and bought smart price chicken roll and its ½syn a slice on original / EE and i've had about 5 slices and i can pretty much inhale it! i'll go back to the wafter thin stuff!!!!

i also seem to be developing swine flu symptoms at a cracking pace, pretty much working my way through the alphabet of symptoms

A
C
D
F
H
P
N

I'll let you put a name to the letters!

i really hope i haven't got it as from the people i know who have it / had it its horrible. i've had cronic stomach pains since saturday and just wanna cry all the time.

The wedding on friday was amazing she looked stunning. its not the kinda dress i would have gone for nor expected her to go for but she did look lovely with the veil on and all the lads dressed up.

If i ever get married i'd like a dress a bit like the ones below. stupid to even think about such things i know!

Guess we can't help what we think about!!!

Oh good news i actually lost 1lb this week , no idea how, so i'm back down to 18stone!!!! i should be happy but guess i'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself again.

But there are now only 13 wi's til T'gypt so i have to get my bum in gear. ideally i'd like to have lost another 2 stone but lets be realistic, i am going for 1stone. 1lbs per week. i can do this.

And next week i will be in the 17s!!! for god sake if i'm not there will be tears!!!!

Morning has Broken.... here comes the bride.....

Well today is the day, the wedding is in 4 and a hald hours!!! i need to get a jimmy wriggle on, i've had my shower and need to dry my hair, although i'm going to the hair dressers for a blow wave i've had to wash it again, i dyed it last night and left the conditioner in intennding to have a shower and wash it out later, only the later ended up being this morning!!! ops 

i'll get some picturs up later i just hope this weather improves soon. it'd be such a shame for bad weather plus i really don't wanna have to take a coat with or a brolly with me.

right i'd best go n do something useful xxx

What do Tigers Dream of

'Stu's Song' The Hangover performed by Ed Helms

one of my facebook friends has this song as her status and i love it. got to be one of the best bits fo the film, and i liked this film so much i've seen it twice.and stay for the end credits!!!

been feeling really blue today. i think its just with the wedding tomorrow, all my girl friends bar one will be there alone so its not like i'll be the odd one out but i justr feel like i'm a grown up and i'm still missing my adult rating, wheres my other half, its almost like i'm not complete, yes i know i am buying into 101 cliches and if i knew where walt disneys crogenically frozen body was i'd defrost him and shoot him for warping my sence of self!

every where i've turned today has been wedding wedding wedding!!! tv 4 weddings , tv runaway bride, looking for a dress i've bought and when i type debenhams into my search bar the 1st thing it found was weddings at debenhams.

yes it is wedding season and when i get married (if ) i get married i want to get married in june, anyone tell me why and i'll give u 10 points!

but i'm sick of being constantly tired and sad and i need to paint on my happy face tell my friend how beautiful she looks and what a wonderful day it is. even if i am screaming to get out, what i'm afraid of is that i'll be that mad woman in the toliet at the wedding thats crying and ranting... you know there always is one!!!!

well i'd best try n get some sleep need a shower and stuff then  off to the hairdressers for 11am!!!

night flokes x

Scribefire

oooo just been told about a new mozzilla add-on scribefire so you can blog from the tool bar a bit like twitterfox but for blogger.

so far so good but have only written a line and an a half! and its seems easy enough to add pictures and stuff



 and you can add pictures direct from flickr.

i think i'm ready for this wedding tomorrow but i'm feeling nervous, god help me if it was my own wedding (haha like it ever would be!)

the more i think about it the less likely i think it is that i would ever get married, don't get me wrong its not that i don't not want to get married but i think no one would ever want to marry me even after i lose weight.

BUT and that is  a very big but if i ever did get married i think it would be Vegas, with a few very close friends, not tell anyone what was going on, but organise a party for something else.

get married in vegas have a fab honeymoon there.

then when you get home invite everyone to a party somewhere, the just before me and hubby arrive get the place to have a fake fire alarm so everyone has to go outside  as we turn up in wedding clothes / wedding car, while the people from the place quickly change the tables and put up wedding decorations!!!

cunning as a fox!!! but i can't do this now cos i've told you lot.

i think that should cut out a lot of stress. but then again who knows!!!

but no point thinking about it,

right i'd best go need to have my hair coloured then at haor dressers tomorrow morining to have my hair washed and dryed properly!!!

xxxx

Tammiflu to the rescue......

What does Tammiflu do? i've heard that its the medicine to help get better when having swine flu, i've heard it should be taken before developing as its a vacine so you don't get it, i've heard that it actually does nothing (i smell placeabo)

someone at work phone in today to say he has swine flu, but he thought he'd already had it (a visit to scotland when it 1st broke out) he has the lowest immune system of anyone i know and gets everything going but then again the symptoms = a lot of other problems.

i've got a sore throat and earache and itchy eyes i think its hay fever but people laugh cos its wet and miserable but the pollen count near work doesn't seem to have dropped!


i have to stay well til friday at least, the wedding i've been going on about for 12 months + is finally here.
i'm no where near as light as i wanted to be but i am at my equal lightest to when i did WW.

i will; be wearing a size 20 dress. was aiming for an 18s but no point being squeezed into something too small!!!

feel a bit disapointed inmy self that i am not at my club 10 but only have myself to blame, i want to be as good as i can all week so i can enjoy the wedding without worrying, as my mum pointed out its only 1 day!!!
This is me in the dress in debenhams changing rooms not a brill shot so i hope it looks much nicer on the day!and i still hate that frill!!!

i've booked into have my eyebrows done on thursday and booked a blow wave as the hair dresser calls it, i quite fancy an updo but i think my hair down will be more flattering, i've also asked if they will attach my fastenater, its just on a sildy comb and whenever i do it i transpost my now self back to 1987.

On The Road Again...

Well Tuesday - today (Friday) i have been very virtuous and not slipped up Yet!!! Now saying that i have agreed to go to a charity do tomorrow night, but i doun't think i'll drink and a video day a mates (yes i know it'll really be a DVD Day) and that usually involves crap, but i have to get into the mind set that Slimming World is a way of life not a diet i can go out i can go to friends house i just can't over indulge to often.

i really want to shift 3.5lbs this week but i won't be upset if i don't just a loss will do.

but 3.5lbs would take me into teh 17's!!! only just but still there.

i've bought another dress for the wedding, its the 1st one i looked at in Debenhams many moons ago, in fact it about 2 years ago that they got this syle in and back then i struggled to get the 22's zipped up. But on Thursday i took a size 20's in to try on and it fitted!!!! so i got it. now i still think its a bit frumpy but its not as low cut as the purple fru fru number from tesco and its also just that little bit longer. And lucky i bought neutral shoes and handbag, so at least now i have the choice of both on the day, and the blue dress is the colour i was after all along

Its the frill down the front i'm not keen on. It seems to be very flattering. well we shall see, this time next week i'll be at the reception, i do hope the weather is better than today has been.

It'd be such a shame to have rain on a July Wedding day. But isn't rain on a wedding day good luck, or is it bad luck ??? must google .... over all concensous is good luck, hindu saying / proverb says a wet knot is harder to untie and makes for a lasting marriage and rain a sign of properity and fertility.

As i said before good food week, i've not really had any proper bread, had a corner of a peice of Nibble last night quite subconciously i was making my mums lunch and the coner fell off and i'd swallowed it before i realised what i was doing. I've also had some of those Pagen Krisp rolls, not bad really 2 Syns each or 3 as a HXb choice.

I'd also like to know who decided you could have 6 laughing cow ELF cheese triangles, try as i might i can stomach no more than 3 at anyone time!!! and 2 is a bit of a struggle as well!!!

I've also got back on board with HSMSHS i'd forgotten how much fun it is. there are pics on my other blog and on facebook

I've also updated my Journal - i'm gonna try and create a thing so you can see mulitpul pages at once as there are quite a lot of pages filled in now.

I do it to record little acchivement and sucess stories that i have found interesting and i also have pages for my SW sticker awards and stuff.

It might seem a bit rubbishy to other people but i love geting awards for my half stones so i thought i'd do my book, i also record my 1lb losses by differnt means, you'll see if i ever get these pics sorted ....

1: Cover

2: The dress i wanted for the wedding from Coast

3: My Fatest Ever Picture :(

4: 1st Maxi Goal (what i decided to call my biggy goals, but i had mini ones inbetween them) ~1st stone

5: 1st 4 SW awards. Lots more to come!!!

1: Slimmer of the Week

2: 2nd Maxi Goal ~2 stone

3: Club 10

4: Body Magic ~ i have Bronze and Silver so far!!! :)

5: Maxi Goal 3: ~ 3 Stone yet to be started... but hopefully i can get started this week!!!

This is just a snap shot really there are loads of other pages but there are mainly sucess stores and graphs and other ways of showing differnt parts of my weight loss xxxx

You can do it when you put your back into it

Hiya

Long time no blog.

well i guess in truth i've been feeling sorry for myself, nowt new there i hear you all cry!!!! well pooh to you. No i know its true and i have to get over myself.

i gained 3lbs the week i came back from Poland, lost 1lb last week then gained it back this week. i said i didn't know why but as my mother gently reminded me of a few non essential items i'd had to eat and drink then later on i remembered a few more i should actually be greatful it was only 1lb this week!!!!


BUT i am back on the plan, i've decided to have a week without bread and 2 days down zero bread consumed. food diary filled in, no exercise done thats my only weak point so far but like i said today is only day 2 of my week.

I went to see my sisters keeper last week with my friend helen, it was very good i cried almost all the way through, before it came on we put the tissues in the drinks holder between us and i was reaching for one within the 1st 15/20 mins!!!!
at the time of watching i really enjoyed it, but i hadn't read the book, which i bought the day after watching and oh my god the book is 100 times better, it explains things so much better, had a tottaly differnt ending and made me cry 100 times more!!!!


read and wacth but treat them as 2 differnt things or book lovers will get angry (its a bit like PS I Love you chnages -angry! but still very watchable and the casting was good i thought!)

Oldham Council are cutting jobs left right and centre yet it still has cash for oldham in Bloom. go figure!!!

but it looks very pretty, this is the disply they've put on top of the clock thing that has neverr worked!!!

And finally a picture of me!!!! this is from my friends hen do last saturday. it the wedding next friday. i'm not too sure about my choice of dress asni think its a bit low!!! but well i've left it a bit late to get anything else and i like the rest of the dress. if you scroll down there is a pic of me in the dress some where in here!!!!

right i'm off got cool runnings on!!! Sanka Ya Dead!!! :)

****I DID IT!!!****

OMG what a weigh in!!!!! I'd not had a bad week but i wouldn't say that i'd been particullally good!!!!


BUT saying that i didn't feel scared to get on the scales, i stood on and it was wobbling between 17.13 -18.5. well last week i was 18.4.5 so it was touch and go, then it started to settle down 18.0.5 and finally just as it beeped 18 dead!!!! ARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!! Wooooooooo!!!!


i said to helen you know what that means and she said yes but she clearly didn't!!! haha it means i'm now not only at my lightest for a hell of a long time (so long i couldn't give you a date!) (the lightest in past few years is 18st 2lbs) it means i've finally reached god knows how many mini goals!


one to be 18.2

two to hit 18st

which in turn leads to three and 4

3: 2 stone lost


4: 10%

Woooop!!!!!
and in addition my 4.5lb loss made me Slimming of the Week..... i feel that that should have a jingle attached to it!!!!


It was quite funny really cos i weigh everyone, do certificates, work out slimming of the week i hated to say it was me but at the same time why should i be exculded cos i do the weighing!!!!


i got a bumber bag of goodies!!!!

tines of beans, peas, sardines, mug shots, alpen bars, fruit amongst some of the things


Then to top it all we won one of the raffle prizes!!!! hehehe

came away with another hula hoop, leg weights and a badmington set!!!!


Here's a copy of my latest graph from SW website!!! as you can see the green line shows my Club 10 wooop!!!! (sorry still giddy!)

the line at the bottom is what SW call PAT (personal attainment target) my real one is about 11stone but as its along way off i'm just doing things in small steps

My 1st goal was 28lbs!!! my next one is the next 26lbs.
26lbs might seem like an odd amount to lose why not go for another 2stone as its only 2lbs off, well its psycological more than anything. as you have less weight to lose it gets harder so small steps.


also doing it this way i've evened up my 6 mini targets all because of my fear of the number 13!!!!


ok so bear with me and i'll explian myself!!!


my max BMI weight is 11stone 1lb. well thats only 1lb off 11stone right and only 2lbs away from the 10stones.

with me so far, well if i weigh 10st 13lbs it has a 13 in it so rather than going for that i'd rather aim for another 1lb!!! so my real Pat is 10st 12lbs!!!

But again that is on the far horizon and while i don't doubt SW will help me lose more weight its so far off not even binoculars will help

so goal one was 28lbs!!!

goal 2 is 26lbs

goal 3is 23lbs (these are guesses i've left the proper thing i worked out at work)

goal 4 is 21lbs

goal 5is 18lbs

goal 6 is 12lbs


So for now i've done goal one and i know its a bot geeky but i feel really proud of myself and below is an image of what 2stone could look like!!!!

Meow!!!!!!

Roll on the next 26lbs!!!!!

i've also set myself a target date that is the monday before i go to egypt at the end of october!!!!

this should be realistic with a 1.5lb Weight loss per week.


what do you think that that is realistic enough or should i allow a bit longer?

Hulled the Hoop

A couple of weeks ago i won a hula hoop and its been sat in the SW bag at the side of the sofa ever since. with the plan to palm it off on a neighbours kid, but today as it was sunny i thought i's open it and put it together (each of the colours is a different part that slots together.) i was quite worried with it being a kiddie one it wouldn't fit round me but it did with a small bit of room to spare.

So i am filling in my F.I.T logg with hula hooping for one of todays activities!!!! and i have a photo to prove it!


The count down to the wedding is now in single week figures just under 6 weeks to go.

I have been looking at dresses for weeks and have even bought a lovely one from ASDA but took it back as i couldn't fit into it.

i've had it into my head for ever that i want a blue dress, that bright blue thats very in now, but i've wanted it for over 12 months but it looks like almost every other female wedding guest is also going to be in the same colour, so once again stephanie won't be getting what she wants.

i have seen a lovely dress in debenhams but its black and i really do not feel black is an appropritate colour for a wedding unless its a black and white themed wedding or a goth wedding. that just my own personal oppinion and i'm sure many people will disagree with me.

Anywho the hunt continues.
I got this dress today from Tescos of all places!!! and i really do like it and i doubt anyone else will be wearing Florance and Fred!!!
i feel quite torn really as a lot of other people are spending big sums on dresses, but not being stingy i really don't see the point in spending £70+ on a dress i will only wear once (hopefully) as it will be too big for me soon!!!

i put on my pledge card that i want to wear a size 18s dress to the weddig but i tried on a size 18s in debenhams today and i looked like a bag of rusty spanners. i am now accepting i do not give a rats bum cheek what size the dress is as long as i look OK in it not even bothered about half decent any more i officially give up!! NOT on tge diet that is.

my new mini goal for the wedding which i'll update on my card is to be in the 17s by the wedding even if its 17.13½!!!!! 5lbs to go!!! 4wi's a holiday to poland and another Hen do!!!! hmmmmm

watch this space


anyway comments about the dress would be much appriciated, contructive critasism welcome no abuse please xxxx

Tracker

Krakow Here we come again

i week today and i'll be off to Krakow again. i just hope its as good this time round. 4

last time i went with 5 mates this time i'm with my mum.

sounds daft that even thought i'm gonna be doing the same trips i'm really excited about it. i'm sure i've said all this before but i am sooooooo excited

we're gonna get out money changed tomorrow and i've got clothes chucked into my case just need to do the basics and charge my camera


i checked us in online tonight so all we have to do is got straight to security!!! wooo


The diet has been going better. still not 100% back on track but am following SW principals again!!!! on Wednesday i didn't stop eating all day, i had something on the hour every hour til about 3pm!!! but it was all free food so allowed

next week wanna have more GREEN days. then when we're in Poland it'll be all read.


even after the beer walk i managed to lose ½lb, i just hope its not all caught up with me this week.

i've only got 3.5lbs to get my 10% if i don't blow it at weekend this is potentially in reach. i set a mini goal of 1lb and i'll be gutted if i don't get that!

i re-measure myself yesterday and i haven't lost anymore inches still 42-44.5-49!!! boooo

My dad bought the Wii Active last week and i've tried the 30day programme done it 3x so far but missed the last 2 days!! ops not a great start but its really hard work but not too hard if you know what i mean. defo worth a try. i want the wii walky pedometer thing but its very expensive at the mo, will wait and see if it comes down in price.


well big bro is back and i can say although i watched the opening show and i wached the 1st eviction and tonights eviction i really don't know whats going on with it. but i love stuff like little brother and big mouth just got it on. i will prob get into it once a few more go

i will say i'm glad that one went she was so irritating!!! when she said she wasn't bothered if she was up n if she stayed she'd know the public lover her!!! moron!!! (BTW thats my word of the week!!!)

Whit Friday 2009

well its Whit Friday again!!! can you beleive it cos i really can't. I went down to meet some friends at the Band Contest. What a wet and miserable night, i nearly didn't bother but as they'd waited for me thought i should, got soaked and froze on my way down and we didn't stay long. i met them in the cafe didn't have anything (i had had my tea!) the we went to a pub for a wee, and didn't buy a drink. but we did call in the Choc Box for some sweets for tomorrow and i got some peanut butter M&Ms!!!!

This shop is fab like an old fashioned sweetshop on one side, then has "penny sweets" (from 5p up!) then hand made truffles, imported america candy and some other lovely bits. if only i wasn't on a diet i'd be in more often!!!

I still can't get over losing weight last week, have a feeling it'll all fall apart tomorrow with the Beer walk, and the weather forecast is appalling. not sure what coat i've got to wear, i can't really get away with one but at the same time will really need one. gonna take a brolly.


i had planned to wear my pumps tomorrow but they will be hopeless in the rain. was gonna wear my roxy boots but now i've dug them out i've realised they are suede! other options are my white sketchers and some old green trainers but they will all get ruined plus i think there will be lots of ankle shots due to the shakles and ball and chain i'll be wearing!!!! thinking old green trainers and hope that the mud isn't too deep!!!!


Oh in case you are wondering what we are doing tomorrow. it the Saddleworth Beer walk

Click here for link


1. Boarshurst Band Club

2. The King William IV

3. The Waggon

4. The Navigation

5. Dobcross Bowling Club

6. The Bell Inn

7. The White Lion

8. The Hanging Gate

9. The Church Inn

10. Uppermill Sports Club

I really need a hair cut. i don't really wanna lose much length but it needs a good trim. i should book in somewhere but cos i want it long am reluctant to have it cut, but you know when it just kinda goes and you have to have it cut there and then. i might try and book in for the 18th June which is just before i go away if not then before sarahs wedding, but i'm thinking before polando!!!

still in love

I am in love totally and uttally besotted with the twilight saga, only 6 months till new moon comes out!!!! i love this fan made poster and here is the new moon trailer!!!! yipeeee!!!!



My Holiday was fab, had a really amazing time, no real night life to speak of and i didn't feel like i was on a hen do even sat there in a veil!!! yes we all had veils and no i have no idea why!!!


And it was a really good holiday as lost 2lbs!!!! not sure how, did make better choices than i would have usually could / would have normally done.


Monday
*cheese, chicken and potato bake (admitidly not healthy but bloody good!)
*2 beers
*Feta Salad
*Pork Burger with Mash and Beetroot salad
*fanta
*cider
*water

Tuesday
*2 danish pastrys (ops)
*Chicken salad
*diet coke
*cider
*toffee ice cream
*cider
*oven chips
*1 slice of pizza
*2 small slices of white bread
*cider
*cheese crisps
*water

Wednesday
*Taziki (sp)
*Butterfish with orange and chili sauce with french fries
*Apple juice
*cheese crisps
*feta salad
*3 beers
*2 cocktails
* flaming sambuca
* 1 beef and 1 pork kebab with boiled rice
*1 small cake (mingging)
*water

Thursday
*water
*chicken ceaser wrap on the plance
*sprite

(no idea what else when i got home but i think it might have been some toblorone!)

then i haven't stopped until monday really but had a dental trauma (got reccusing absesses on anti biotics )
:'(

and he needs to re-open my root canal filling once i've had my antibiotics!!!! oh no and i'm just coming off sick review as well!!!!!


At SW class this week for every 1lb people lost they had to write there full names on the back of a strawberry. then put it in the strawberry tin!!! confused?! i was especially when i took over wi and had to get people to do it but didn't have a clue why!!! But helen (the consultant) explained that for the whole of june we're gonna do this then the last monday we're gonna have a kind of award / lucky dip night with wimbeldom / strawberries and chamagn related prize or something along those lines.

i love my SW class 99% of the people are fab, there a couple of ones i can't get my head round but i think thats cos they don't stay. and i don't see the point of paying £4.50 per week just getting weighed (gaining usually) and going, they are the ones who need the most support,

I also love helen cos she is a normal human bean! she realises everyone has lives, she's realsistic and helpful and not snotty oh look at me i've lost 300million lbs in 2 seconds and i'm a twig (thinking the ww woman at bolton quakers church mibobby from when i was at uni) (14 points was all she was allowed as she was soooooooooooooooooo slim! anyone told her the minimum ww points is 16! doh brain- well that was my reation on meeting her harsh but first impresseions count!)

we also have some fantastic member losses people who have almost always lost withonly minimum gains, since jan and others who joined within the last 2 months that have lost the same as me in total, but instead of being jealous i feel really proud of them, i kn
ow i've been dicking about with it and i love there commitment and can see a real change in them, they really do inspire me.

i also love weighing people, still not good at dealing with the gains or the upset i've only lost 1lb brigade but that will come and i love seeing the losses and how people have changed i also really like the compliments i've got only had a couple on weight loss but a couple of people have said they like me weighing them and my little pep talks when they think they should have done better and i point out how well they've done, just need to listen to my own advice

ok peeps thanks for reading and good night xxxx

***sneeky Peek***

we all know they are a never a good idea but i think you'll forgive me this one!!!




This is the Tshirt i will be wearing tomorrow well from 2am this morning!!!!!! its actually a lot better thank i expected!!!! was worried it'd be too short but its actually a bit big yipppeeeee (don't get too excited its a 22's!)


please excuse the 1st photo i've not had a shower yet but had to try it on!!!!

we do have other accessories but i'll leave them as a surpisre not gonna be able to WI this week which i'm quite upset about, well upset the wrong word but i love my SW class its a really nice group and i love seeing everyone, so i will miss that and worried about the damage i'll do in Lith but well its arrive i will try and control it as much as i can.

right i'd best go and pack then have a shower n off to a friends, then out for tea, then have to stay awake till the minibus picks us up at 2ish!!!! :D xxxx