Ok i know i know, i must bore you all to death with these things, if infact anyone actually reads them, but even though i have blogged once i don't really feel like i have got everything down, what everything is i don't really know but you know sometime when you feel like there is more to say.
So as nothing is springing to mind i thought i'd add a pretty picture of out RPATZ mmmmmmmmmmm quite sad at 28 years old to be in lust with a fictional charcture but walt disney now has a competitor for messing with young (yes i'm still tarring myself with that particular brush) womens idea of Mr Right / Prince Charming / The ONE / Him who shall be named! Ms Stephenie Meyers!!! if anyone doesn't know who she is you should be ashamed !!! She is the author of the Twilight series. (Twilight?! never heard of it, Please use your favourite search engine and have a look!)
I've got a 121 tomorrow to discuss career options i think i'm gonna say when i group up i wanna be a vampire! wonder how well that will go down!
If i was a vampire i would be come instantly stunning have men falling at me feet. but i don't think i'd be happy. i mean i'm not all that happy as a human so i doubt imortallity would help that fact. i know i go on a lot about being unhappy but its true i am and i'm not sure what i can do to alter that state. i don't wanna go down the route of seeing a doctor as the ones at my health cetre are hopeless and they'd dismiss me like they did with my PCOS!!! (come back once you are married and have been trying for a baby for 12 months and we'll give you IVF) see anyone who's been reading this will know i seem to quote this a lot, how dare they assume i want a baby i don't i really do not like children (i don't mean to offend people, my opinion i don't want a kid) what i did want was help with my increasinly moodly unhappy self, my horrnedous periods (sorry any men) and my lack of self confidence, i was told losing weight would help, no shit sherlock, go one give us a clue, maybe ask if i wanna see a dietition or maybe a perscription to a slimming club, NOOOOOOOOOOOO just why are u crtying when you get married and can't have kids come back. oh fuck u mr doctor man!!!
please excuse my french i think i may be hormonal but as i have been on for the last 6 weeks on and off i'm not actually sure where the hell i am up 2!!!!
I'm officially starting to look forward to Egypt, its not somewhere i've ever been before and i'm not sure what to expect but loads of people from work go and all love it. i think it'll be a bit differnt as we're not going in an all inclusive hotel, i've never know anyone go to Egypt and not stay in one so we shall see, and we've found a bar that sells pork chops Heaven!!!! No 100% sure if this picture is where i am going or if it is even in Egypt, but i'm using Scribefire to blog and it lets you upload pics from Flickr so you don't have to trawl all throught the t'interweb to find an image, so i just put in El Gouna and this is one of the pitures , it looks a bit like an artists impression to me what do you think.
I wonder how the happy couple are getting on on honeymoon up in the Orkney's? i need to ask her why they picked there, been thinking aboiut it but never got round to asking. been having a quick nosey about it and it looks so pretty i hope they have some nice weather and not these manky thunder storms we keep having!!!!!!!!
for a long time i had a cut out of a villa in Greece that i'd have like to have gone to on honeymoon but as they years progresses and the lack of boyfriends let alone marriage proposals continued it must have been binned. shame i'd like to know where abouts in greece it was, all i remeber where these amazinf villas and infinity pools that cost so much money it included your own bulter!!!!!
i've always had expensive tastes!!! :)
Just noticed on the Map of the Oarkney's Auskerry a small Island all by its self to the right hand side (i know they are all little islands!) its the table name i was on at the wedding and it looks kinda how i feel. Alone, but surrounded by many. on the edge of the group never in the centre nor would i want to be the centre! Just always that little bit to far on the periffery
Gosh its strange how you get talking about one things and other feelings poor out, i'm not saying i feel much better but its good to talk and BT have been telling us for years!!!!
So as nothing is springing to mind i thought i'd add a pretty picture of out RPATZ mmmmmmmmmmm quite sad at 28 years old to be in lust with a fictional charcture but walt disney now has a competitor for messing with young (yes i'm still tarring myself with that particular brush) womens idea of Mr Right / Prince Charming / The ONE / Him who shall be named! Ms Stephenie Meyers!!! if anyone doesn't know who she is you should be ashamed !!! She is the author of the Twilight series. (Twilight?! never heard of it, Please use your favourite search engine and have a look!) I've got a 121 tomorrow to discuss career options i think i'm gonna say when i group up i wanna be a vampire! wonder how well that will go down!
If i was a vampire i would be come instantly stunning have men falling at me feet. but i don't think i'd be happy. i mean i'm not all that happy as a human so i doubt imortallity would help that fact. i know i go on a lot about being unhappy but its true i am and i'm not sure what i can do to alter that state. i don't wanna go down the route of seeing a doctor as the ones at my health cetre are hopeless and they'd dismiss me like they did with my PCOS!!! (come back once you are married and have been trying for a baby for 12 months and we'll give you IVF) see anyone who's been reading this will know i seem to quote this a lot, how dare they assume i want a baby i don't i really do not like children (i don't mean to offend people, my opinion i don't want a kid) what i did want was help with my increasinly moodly unhappy self, my horrnedous periods (sorry any men) and my lack of self confidence, i was told losing weight would help, no shit sherlock, go one give us a clue, maybe ask if i wanna see a dietition or maybe a perscription to a slimming club, NOOOOOOOOOOOO just why are u crtying when you get married and can't have kids come back. oh fuck u mr doctor man!!!
please excuse my french i think i may be hormonal but as i have been on for the last 6 weeks on and off i'm not actually sure where the hell i am up 2!!!!
I'm officially starting to look forward to Egypt, its not somewhere i've ever been before and i'm not sure what to expect but loads of people from work go and all love it. i think it'll be a bit differnt as we're not going in an all inclusive hotel, i've never know anyone go to Egypt and not stay in one so we shall see, and we've found a bar that sells pork chops Heaven!!!! No 100% sure if this picture is where i am going or if it is even in Egypt, but i'm using Scribefire to blog and it lets you upload pics from Flickr so you don't have to trawl all throught the t'interweb to find an image, so i just put in El Gouna and this is one of the pitures , it looks a bit like an artists impression to me what do you think.
I wonder how the happy couple are getting on on honeymoon up in the Orkney's? i need to ask her why they picked there, been thinking aboiut it but never got round to asking. been having a quick nosey about it and it looks so pretty i hope they have some nice weather and not these manky thunder storms we keep having!!!!!!!!
for a long time i had a cut out of a villa in Greece that i'd have like to have gone to on honeymoon but as they years progresses and the lack of boyfriends let alone marriage proposals continued it must have been binned. shame i'd like to know where abouts in greece it was, all i remeber where these amazinf villas and infinity pools that cost so much money it included your own bulter!!!!!
i've always had expensive tastes!!! :)
Just noticed on the Map of the Oarkney's Auskerry a small Island all by its self to the right hand side (i know they are all little islands!) its the table name i was on at the wedding and it looks kinda how i feel. Alone, but surrounded by many. on the edge of the group never in the centre nor would i want to be the centre! Just always that little bit to far on the periffery
Gosh its strange how you get talking about one things and other feelings poor out, i'm not saying i feel much better but its good to talk and BT have been telling us for years!!!!
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Hi Stephanie, is there anywhere else you can go than your health centre to see someone? It sounds like it could really help you just to have someone to talk to about all the stuff you're feeling... maybe there's a therapist near where you live? I hope you find the help you're looking for, I know how much easier it is when you have someone to share your feelings with!
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