I don't know

i thin k i may be in for another TOTM as i feel grotty and angry and irritable, i thought it was just tireness from working all day yesterday but i can't shake the feeling today.


i need to organise something for my b'day but i feel so not arsed about it, my b'day is always a let down, not had a good birthday for years. my birthday is too close to the bank holiday in may, and there are loads of peoples b'days around the same time.

i've said i want to go for a meal and have a night out but would prefer them to be on 2 seperate nights. one of my friends has suggested panama-hatties in manchester i've emailed my friends but not had a reply from any of them yet. so we will see. but i am loathed to organise something but cause people always cancel on me, i don't know if its just cos its me but every year we see to do more and more elaberate thibgs for peoples b'day then my b'day comes round and nada last year we went for a curry!!!! whit woo!!!

so we will see.


i went to see dancing on ice last thursday just trying to upload the pics to facebook!!!

it was really good but my mum had a bad reactionj to the smoke machines they use and had forgotten her inhalor we had to leave just as the 2nd half started so we didn't get to see the full show whihc i think we were all gutted about but the main thing is that she's feeling better.

it has really shaken me up. i phoned my dad in the interval to ask him to bring her an inhalor when he picked us up then when we came out i asked a |MEN yellow coat if they had any medics as she really frightened me. and i couldn't get hold of my dad he's not put the phone down so i kept getting voice mail and his mobbie was switched off, in the end i phoned my friends house who lives on my street and asked her dad to go to my house to get my dad to phone me, he must have thought i was a loon but i was so panicked i didn't know what else to do!!!

i keep having nightmares since!!! we're going to see we will rock u in may and i'm scared that the same thing might happen! we are planning to stay over i hope its just what the medic at the MEN said about the smoke over the ice causes a chemical reaction that can really affect some people!!!!

diet wise its been a good week, todays been the only bad day and its not really a bad bad day!!!

i really wan tto have lost 2.5lbs this week to get my 21lbs lost and a new charm for my bracelet. i bought it today. i know its a bit premature but i thought if i do get it i'll have to waitit til at least thursday to buy one!!! and true to my geeky nature i bought one called Twilight!!!!!! but it is lovely Black glass with white piping, i'll post a pic once i can officially add it to my bracelt my mums looking after it at the moment!!!! :D