ip dip ur not it

no idea about the title i couldn't think of anything else to put!!!!

So with the start of all my diets and belive me there have been measurements taken last month 08/01/2009 i measured:

chest = 43.5, waist 48 and hips 53

This month 03/02/2009:

Chest =43.5, waist 46 and hips 51

In the past i have measured loads of differnt points on my body but this time i'm really not sure i can be bothered!!!!! in my SW book they only as for these 3 so for now thats all i'll measure hopefully on a monthly basis.

Snow Day

we didn't go to work today cos of the snow, but i did have a wander to the co-op to locate some bread and i took my camera with me mainly cos it was only half 10 amd i was already bored outta my brain.

i've loaded a full album on facenbook if anyone is interested not all that thrilling as mainly snow snow and more snow

But i wanted to share a couple of pictures

1stly the one above, talk about Lazy if not down right dangerous!!!! how hard would it have been for this guy to knock a bit more snow off the windscreen. plus i thought it was illeagal to have ur number plate covered up!!!! shame no cops about.

oh actually thinking about that there was a cop car at the end of the road this guy is heading to as i was walking up!!! i bet he didn't get stopped!!!

2ndly

A picture of me!!!!i've tried and tried to turn it round but every time i upload it it reverts back to the original position!!!!! maybe in some strange way it'll turn itself round

wanted to share it cos i can see a small change in my face, it looks less fat!!!!
ok my coat is cunnigly hiding my double chin but to say i took it myself i'm quite impressed with it. am loving my funky hat (not!!!)

Crash Bang Wallop

well it was snowing today incase anyone had missed that, quite hard near home but as we got closer to work it was a light dusting, but to be on the safe side we booked 2.5hours holiday.

On the motor way home the closer we got to home the more blizzard like it became, my street was nightmare fully snow covered looked like the gritter hasn't been passed and as my mum turned to park only going at a couple of miles an hour we hit black ice skidded hit the raised curb bounced a bit and carried on!!! right up to next doors wall and thank god they had a wall or we would have ;anded in the middle of next door but ones sitting room!!!! as we hit the wall it shock a bit but we stopped but for a min i really thought we were going to carry on!!! you can tell we were only going slowly as the airbags didn't deploy but was well scary how we missed next door cars is a miricle as you can see from the pictures there was no way i could have got out of my passenger door so i clambered over.



We missed a lamp post and a telegraph post


look how close we were to Next Doors car!

My mum went to see if the man next door but one was it to try and do something and him and his mate came out he tried to get it back on the road but it couldn't get over the raised curb even with all three of us pushing it!!

Did someone skid????


he mangaged to move it back so people could still use th footpath and my dads put down a load of grit and managed to get it back on the road.

The car will defo need at least 2 new tires and cos its some snazy dazzy car the tires at £200 each and thats the cheapest price like COSTCO price, but at least we are not badly hurt. the car will need to see a car doc to make sure nothing else is wrong with it fingers crossed


not sure why i'm blogging this in my WL blog but need to put it somewhere!!!!!!!

ScanBran could be the future

At last weeks SW class the leader was talking to us about Scan Bran, she was saying she'd never used it herself but after going to a leaders meeting they had all been talking about it, now the cynic in me thinks it may be a marketing ploy, but who am i to argue with the power of marketting!!!!

We didn't buy any from class but after looking at recipes on it thanks to the power of google, we decided to make to Scan Bran choc cake. now i really didn't think it would be nice but anything that is only 6 syns + 1 HxB is worth a shot in my book. (thats for the whole cake!!!!)

Low syn chocolate cake
Syns for the whole cake : 9 yummy syns OR 6 1/2 + 1 healthy extra B choice.

• 5 Scan bran
• 3 beaten eggs
• 1 level tablespoon golden syrup
• 1oz cocoa powder
• 1/2 mug sweetener

1.Soak the scan bran in hot boiling water until softened, drain and mash.

2.Mix all the ingredients together and pour into a microwavable bowl.

3. Microwave on high for 7 minutes, when cooked the cake will be springy to the touch and will have pulled away from the side.

the recipe i used is from I Village but the power of google has millions of variations.

Here's a picture of the one i made!!!!! it'd be really nice with some LF ice cream or a vanilla Muller Light, sadly we had neither in, but my mum had her peice with frozen summer berrys and she said was lovely!!!

Me and my mum went over to see my gran this evening, nothing unusual or exciting about that but wanted to share a picture of the flowers her cousin bought her, not sure what kind they are but they are very pretty!!!

And finally does anyone think Kitty~Anne is feeling a little bit grumpy today?

Or could it be she's on a come down?!?!?!

My mama bought her a cat toy that can be filled with Catnip and its a mouse with leapod print faux fur. and it looks very much like her and although she's been trying to be a notchalant about not liking it she <3's>

ok i'll stop boring you all now xxxx

In all My anger and annoyance about the Jess Simpson comments i forgot

To say that i lost 4.5lbs this week (ok so its over 2weeks) which means i'm still on target for 2lbs a week loss.

It also takes me to a total loss of 8lbs in 3 weeks!!!!! i'm well chuffed. i really didn't think SW would work for be but it has so far so good!!!

which mean i've got my 1st Award. and not only did i get a certificate from class and a sticker cos i track my progress on SW website i got an E-sticker!!!

I know it may seem sad but the stickers and reward certificate really do help me.

As does the Weight loss graph on the SW website.
The purple line is my PAT - Personal Acheivement Target.

With SW you set your own a bit like WW but from what i have been told it doesn't have to be within the BMI window, but i'm a long way off BMI healthy so i'll find out nearer the time.

For now its set at my 10% which is 28lbs. under the purple line there is green one to show this!!!


on the Graph the red line is what i have lost sofar and the blue one gives a predicted target date to my PAT.

According to the prediction i should hit 18st on 23rd March which is roughly when i wanted it to be!!!!


I've decided to measure and take pictures once a month and when i get to mini goal.

There is still a long way to go but at least by doing this i can track my progress!!!! not decided if i will just use these as the Feb phones as it is only 2 days a way or take some more next weekend. and i will measure myself tomorrow or once i've found a tape measure :)


On a differnt note

what i'd say to anyone is find what works for you, don't be afraid of trying new diets as long as they are sensible and not quick fixes. Weight loss should not be about starving yourself or going hungry. if WW or SW isn't working acept it move on and have a go at something else. one of the women at work does Rosemary connerly and she likes that but i'm no good at calourie counting or what ever it is they do there.

for me WW and SW work. and i'm doing SW cos there are no WW classes near me.


And Finally

i'd just like to say thank you if you have read my whining and drivel!!!!


i started this to keep myself motivated but when i had it private i hid away and cheated myself thinking if no one was reading why do i need to post, but i've come to realise by thinking people may be reading it i should post just in case so that why its not always the most interesting but i'm trying and i vow to always post a picture with most posts as i know myself if i start looking at a blog i'll read a couple of posts but i need a perty picture (or not so pretty in the one of my Belly and Bum) to keep me reading!!!!

and if u have read leave a comment even it it just says hi, then i know someone has read it and i can come and check out ur blog , you can also follow this blog on the side bar thingy


lots of love xxxx

If She's Fat then what the HELL Am I?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Who you ask!!! well i wasn't gonna tell you but as i am putting a picture of her up i may as well tell you!!!

Jessica Simpson ~ Thats who

There was an article in the sun or the mirror or maybe both yesterday about how fat she's got at some chilli eating contest in Florida. Now i didn't see the article cos some lad binned it but i'm not that bothered but i over heard the lads talking about it saying how hot she used to be in Dukes of Hazzards. Then one of the said what did u think of her in the paper and one lad who i thought was a cool guy, i didn't think he was like this said "she's a beast"

A f'in beast!!! looking at the picture yes she has put on weight, but she is by no stretch of the imagination a beast!!!

i sat at my desk luckily by this time my bank of desks was empty bar me and a tear came to my eye, then i felt angry, at this point i still hadn't seen a pic, so i texted my friend for her to find the pic to see just how fat JS is!!!

i don't know if i felt better or worse when i found out she's not actually fat!!!! I mean i don't expect anyone of the lads to look at me and go wow but for them to look at her and go beast what the hell are they thinking when they look at me!!!!!!!!!!!

Getting back on the Wagon!!!

Yeah!!! i think i may have finally jumped aboard!!!!

Although i didn't make it to the Wi on Monday due to the snow! i've had a reletivly good week!

i've restarted my journal, using my old WW one as its a nice book and got tonnes of pages left in it. only got about6 pages in it so far, and those pages arn't all that excititng but i've included them so you can see what i'm doing.



"Cover Pag" just because i'm using the Old WW book, so it show a nice clean break.



A Dress i've seen that i like for Sarahs Wedding in July, the biggest size it comes in is an 18 but i'm a long way off but, i've decided on the back of each page i'm gonna stick in inspirations so this is my 1st one!!!

Its from Coast and cost £125 so i have to make sure it really will fit before i spend that amount of cash for 1 wear!!!




1st Page proper, a list of goals. every 7lbs is a target. then i read an article somewhere about even losing 5% will help then the differences at 7% and the 10% is the Biggie!!!




even though every 7lbs is a target, because i lost 3.5lbs in the 1st week and didn't make it to the 2nd weigh in i thought the 1st count down will be to 5%. which is 14lbs. i got a craft magazine ages ago, not sure why cos i don't scrap book in the traditional way just in this book and don't make cards etc but i came with shed loads of flowery stickers pretty papers etc so normally i like to keep thing that might come in useful but last night i thought sod it i'm gonna use em!!!



Although i'd done a page with what the targets will be i thought i'd do a page showing the target dates. I've decided that i will be happy with any loss. But realistically 2lbs a week should be achivable. so 7lbs every 8 weeks gives me a margin of 1lb


and finally the obligatory photo!!!

Shitty day

my god i've been hunrgy all day and sadly i've given in to it.

not as bad as i could have been.

got up really late then we went pretty much straight to ALDI, the we got dropped off in Oldham, i had a shapper sandwich wirth shaper chilli bites but can't find the in the syns guide will have to look online.

lean pork chop. tonnes of roasted veg but did have sweet potato as well which have sins

then i had 2 bags of shapers mini breaks and an alpen bar where i know i should have had fruit

then later on i had some ham on a white seeded roll!!!!


i'm still starving but i've come up to bed to stop the picking!!!

Samba

well almost another week done on slimming world and i'm still feeling good, slightly relaxing on how strict i've been being on myself, and i know its a bit early into the programme to become balsé and say i know what i'm doing, because it know thats where i always go wrong, but looking what i have been eating and what i'm eating now, i have to lose weight.

i've almost completly cut out bread. well no thats a lie, but i've gone mainly to small size wholemeal. white bread at weekends then WW white toasty.

Loving Quorn as well at the mo. its defo helping me on Slimming world.

we've decided to be more adventuous and although its very wrong we have been lying to my Papa and feeding him quorn and bless him, i don't know if he knows and is playing along or he genuinly hasn't noticed but the Quorn Moussaka was better the day after as all the "meat" juices had run out into everything else!!! and the Quorn Chassure went down a treat as well!!!

This week will be Quorn Cannelloni and all free on Green Days!!! wooo

i want to start being more active. i really want to start walking, something i reallt don't do unless its around the shops.

My excuse is the time i get home from work and the weather. but i'm gonna go for a walk round Dovestones at some point, the flat way is about 3miles and thats how far race for life is so i know i can do it!!!! once the weather improves!!!

one thing i have been doing this weekend is the Wii, i'm sure loads of you have these and know how much fun they are, but ours has been out of action for way too long!!! just laziness.

not sure if i said on this blog or my HSMSHS one what games i've been playing.

A while ago my mum saw Samba De Amigo game advertised. but it was about £37 ouch. i saw it in Tesco for £19 but when we went to the Till it was full price. but the other week in Sainsburys it was on offer at £9.99!!!! wooooooooooooooooooo!!!! i tried it the other day but couldn't get it to callabrate for me.but mama fixed it tonight. i was holding the wiimote wrong!!! doh!!! Well OMG how much fun is this game!!! i said Wii Family Ski was good, but wow this was fab. mama and i was playing on bits of games from 9.30pm -11 ish then we we're going to bed. When i mentioed i couldn't get the game to work for me. well we weree playing it till1.10am!!! haha bits of training then single player games. mini games. Boy does it make you work!!! defo gonna play this for the next few weeks!!!!

Week 1. 1000000

Week 1 a rip roaring sucess i lost 3½ lbs!!! wow!!! i'm so glad it was a loss!!!!

i've set this weeks Target at 2lbs but really i'd like it to be more!!!

BUT

a loss is a loss and as long as it's in the right direction i'll be pleased.

Slimming world seems to be easier than i remeber!!!!


i still love ww and if i could easily get to a class i would go back, but for now i'll try to SW.

i've dug the wii back out, did skiing last night, and some figure skating amongst other things tonight!!!

and i'm getting back on track with my HSMSHS Blog as well. i love HSMSHS. makes me use my camera much more, i'm sure my friends will say thats a bad thing but i love it!!! hehe

2009 ~ Slimming World another fresh Start!!!

And it all begins again!!!

its been said before but my god i need to do something!!!!

i joined a brand new Slimming World class on Monday!!! the leader seems really nice and i've managed to stick to it easily for 3 days!!!

SPs hen do is now booked, can't divulge the info incase she find this blog, prob won't as not told my close mates about it!!!! but u never know!!!

took my measurements they are scary
SW only ask for chest = 43.5, waist 48 and hips 53 ekkkkkkkkkkkk


i'm saying eeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk a lot lately

not sure how i got like this its scarily easy!!!

Xmas 2008

Happy Xmas one and all!!!!!

As another year draws to a close i have been looking back and yet again i have been unsucessful with weight loss

this year has been particulary depressing and miseraqble for me, i can't give reasons why, nithing inparticular has happended more a sucession of little things that have made me miserable


i'm hoping to have aun filled 2009, got a few things to look forward to but if anyone wants to buy me a gift a holiday for the last week of march / 1st week of april would go down a treat!!! :)


Had my 1st ever blogg xmas pressie Paul aka Fatfornow an Adam Ant CD.

do i tell him now or later that i hate Adam Ant???!?!?!?!

lol he got me the CD of ref to my last pics where i am drunkenly posing to stand and deliver!!!! in my defence i was at an 80s night and S&D was number one the day i was born!!!!
BUT i am very greatful for the gift i love pressies!!!!!

Now if the Holiday gift is a bit over budget i will settle for lost in austen on DVD!!!!!!


Ok OK!!! it is a time for presents!!!!!!!!


Fatfornow- A sugar babe ~ depending on how naughty or nice he is determines which one he gets!

MadKat - A Kitten Proof Tree Gaurd and a big box of choccies!!!


SpyFox - The little book of 50+ ways to wear your wonderbra!

Hoopylass A big fluffy hot waterbottle and some fluffy cosy slippers!!!

BryerHill - the gift of a point free xmas!!! and a fluffy dressing gown

I don't skinny dip.........I CHUNKY DUNK! - some fluffy dice

Ellie - pole cleaner!!!!



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Merry xmas to all who visit and without wanting to tempt fate 2009 will be my year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As another week begins i've still not been good!!!

Well another week done and been trying to stay (ahem get on) track but not managed it very well!!!!


had my works Xmas do last night at The Willows in Salford. It was a really really good night!!!

Here is a picture of me and my 1st Tequila of the night!! i almost choked on it!!! but they got easier as the night went on!!!!!! The do was £35 which i though was quite dear, but it was worth it110%. we had a 3 course meal.

I had Prawn Platter
Roast Turkey (which i couldn't manage all of it!!! cam with 3 massive roast spuds, loads of turkey, stuffing, a cocktail sausage and we had veg to share!!) i at one and a bit spuds and about 2/3rds of the turkey!
then profita Rolls!! cam with 4 but managed 2 then mushed the other 2 up so they looked eaten!!!!


This is a picture taken of me at the start of the evening!!!

i'm with 2 of the girls from work who are very thin and pretty so cropped myself out of the picture!!!

the full pic is on my facebook page if you wanna see it!!

i hate my hair was gonna have it curly even bought heated rollers but it didn't turn out well so had a mad dash with the GHDs
This Picture is me doing Stand and Deliver by Adam and the Ants. which was number one on the day i was born quite apt really!!!


thanks for visiting!!! xxx

New Begginings ~ AGAIN!!

right once again i know i've saod this a million times but gonna get my butt in gear

made a start as of yesterday, hence the new pics

god i look miserable and truth be told it does reflect my mood!!!

also i haven't slopped i'd just spilt a drink down me didn't notice till after put pic on PC and couldn't be ared to re-take ot!!!!

week didn't get off to a great start

off sick on monday with the tooth the tooth from hell and the eye and the hand!!!!

2 hours at walk in centre

nice tuna salad lunch nice low point roast tea then much on bread bread bread

today was good at work then papa bear had made (bought) ribs!! to scared to point did quick guestimate and 10 points per half pack, not too bad then realised two packs in box as 2 flavours

13 points ish?!?!?! the potato wedges home made so only 2 points

actuallt not too bad a day well except the ham butty when i made tomorrows lunch!!!

Breakfast ~ Banana ~ 1Point
Snack ~ 4 tiny satsumas ~0.5 points
Lunch ~Ham and Tuna (not together Buttys) 9.5 points
Snakc ~ Opal Fruits ~ 4points (ops almost forgot them!!!)
Tea~ Ribs 15 points
Snack ~ Ham Butty 4 points!!!!!!!!!!!

Such a promising start!!! 34 / 29 points 5 over.

its so easily done and not needed. i didn't need to eat my lunch beofre dinner time n buy a butty albeit a low fat one!!!

i didn't need to eat so many toffees

i didn't need that butty while i made tomorrows butties
i need to re-educate the way i eat!!!!!!
Must try harder tomorrow

12 points that i didn't need!!!!

grrrrrrrr at myself!!!!!

taking ham ciabata (sp) salad

gonna take fruit, breakfast bar n give my mum the dinner so i can't be tempted!!!!


Decided as i can't trust the V expensive WW Bathroom scales , they have a mind of their own.

i'm gonna bite the bullet and WI at Boots each friday as at the mo its my day off.

i WI there on monday mainly cos i was bored waiting for my perscription to be dispenced

and i was 19,5lbs was quite a shock in a good way as thought i'd be more (and i was fully clotheed with shoes as u would expect with being in boots!!)

it alsi said i'm only 5' 4.9"!!!! eeek i'm 5'6" i always was

is being fat making me shorter???????????? gonna stand taller on friday and pray i wasn't stood straight enough!!!!

because is i am only 5'5 i'm gonna claim that 0.1 " then my BMI is 45!!!!! 45. 123Kgs!!! and my ww target weight would ve 10st 10lbs!!! lol n i thought 11st 1lb was un-achiveable!!!! maybe if i lose enough weight i will really be 6'4"!!!!!!!

i am defo short for my weight and literally now!!!!

if u visit please leave a comment even if it only says hi, would like to know whi stops by!!!!

thanks for reading!!!!

Dentist

Finally had my root canal filling done today!!! oh was a odd sensation!!!!!!!

My dentist was running late so another dentist did my injection. she was really nice, gave me some numbing gel before she injected me. had about 6-8 injections in my gun n roof of mouth ouchy!!!

the pain went straight to my sore eye. which has now gone worse!!

when i got in the dentish chair, he stretched this odd purple plastic sheet over my mouth to isolate the tooth was such an odd sensation, while he was sorting it out it was over mu nose and i was having odd almost hallusinations!!! but only for a couple of mins!!!

The actual treatment althiugh quite scary was no where near as bad as i expected, but after i was all weak n shaky!!!

My mum had wanted to go in Bolton but i was really bad so we came straight home, at home i felt a bit better had some food cos i was starving but don't think it was a good idea as caused more pain than i was in. am doped up on pain killers but not sure they are a good idea on limited food as i now have a dodgy belly!!!!!

am meant to be in work tomorrow, L sent me a message saying she'd go mad if i phoned in sick tomorrow, but i really can not face 10 hours with this pain!!!!

Happy Smiley People Holding Hands

Even though work is pretty crummy at the mo i've had a really good day. Had a little chat with the Boss J S-M and we're having a three hour meeting on Monday to discuss my workload. Pretty sure i'll be put on an Action Plan. its not a good thing, but i need him to understand that i am not supergirl, and i do not know half the things he thinks i do!!! Had quite a productive day really. Even if it didn't finish the Elexon Spready. i managed to find time (took 3 hours n J S-M doesn't realise this!!!) to sort out my Master Spready. but now instead of 15 tabs i have 2!!!
sad talking about work on my blog, but who else can i talk to about it!!!!

Anyway WW Wise i really like this cartoon <- pass me the Gun!!!!! Food today: B- 1 slice of cheese toast, 2 slices of normal toast S - Cereal Bar D - Cornbeef butty, Grapes S - grapes n a fruit box T - Chicken, oven chips, coleslaw n gravy (mas combo i know and papa's idea!!) S - Toast!!! Discovered Sainsburys BGTY cereal bars 1 point!!!!! Tesco Finest brown bread really chunky slices and 1.5 points each!! we've bought sainsburys own baked bread today and its nice but has no NVs!!!
Another Great cartoon from Kathy Thorn - >

Another thing i want to blog is about me and my head.

and what a mixed up head i have.

Why am i such a moron?!

when someone like me (like that) and i like them a bit but not much, i let them get on my nerves and i'm not mean to them but i have no time or patience for them!

but when there is someone i like (like that) and he is a mate and there could possibily be something there one day (a big maybe!?!?!) i find my self all giddy n girlie, why can not i like someone who likes me for me and not hanker after someone who is potentially out of my reach (and league).

is it so wrong to want to be wanted by someone i want?

i've been thinking of that allday and couldn't think how to word it and it just popped out!!! its quite a carrie bradshaw question. but its the truth!!

what is at the crux of my problem is my insecurites, my inability to trust a man, i think that any man (on a night out) is talking to me for a joke, pull the fat/ugly bird contest and i put up this brick wall, that is iron clad with a top coat of titanuim. even the sharoest of cupids arrow will not penitrate its hardened shell!!!!

i think when i've lost weight it'll be differnt, but i'm not so sure it will be.

i am a fook up

after having a really good day!!! i fooked up.

menu

Breakfast: Cereal Bar

Snack: 2 baby apples

Lunch: Ham Buttys n Leek n Chicken Soup, WW bar

Tea: Roast pork, chips n carrots and a yorkshire pudding sugar free jelly

supper: Toast

extra piggy: full terries chocolate orange!!!!! (why oh why did i have this) i was very full n cos it was there and i ate it all, inhaled it is a more acurate discribtion and now i feel really sick and i feel like i have really let myself down!!!!

Manchester

I love Manchester City Centre so much!!! I hate the crowds but it is such a pretty place.

No may people may not agree when you look at the purpose built arndale, but if you stop n look at the buildings like Primark, Debenhams, the triangle and the catherdal they are beautiful.

i even like Urbis n city 1.

i went on the big wheel again today and although i am scared of heights the view is amazing!!!

not great photos but i love taking photos n seeing photos on blogs so here are the ones i look today.


Today wasn't a fab day diet wise and i'm scared to look on Noreens site to see if Hard Rock Café points are listed.

oh i might have to no i can't .... i just did n its not listed Phewwwwwwwww i had a look at frankie n bennys and a bacon cheese burger was 18points . but we also shared Natchos, i'm guessing another 8 for them!!!!

Yikes good job i haven't had anything else to eat today!!!

The we went to the Cinema to see Max Payne, it was ok. No Quite good really. Mark Whallberg was very hot!!!! mmmmmmmmmmm tres delish!!!! Haha

got my friends b'day present a Mr Scruff CD, but she may have it so am gonna send her the recipt as well n i got some mr scruff Tea Bags!!!

gonna give L~V the forest fruits ones n i'm keeping the mint n chilli ones

have tried and b nice but not as spicy as i expected

God Bless Selfridges!!!.

i also saw that Block of Vensuualean choc that willie n his wonky choc factory on tv made.

i'm a dairyt milk girl at heart but it smelt so good!!!!

WTF

well as already stated i have well n truely fell off the wagin decided to meaqsure tonight and compaired to last time i measured in feb!!!! its appalint

	11.02.08	22.11.08
Neck	17.5	17.5
Bicep	15	15.5
Chest	42	43.5
Waist	45.5	46.5
Hips	50.5	53.5
Thigh	27	29
Calf	18	?

Xmas

Jingle bell jingle bell jingle bell rock

well its that time again ladies n gents and i need a party frock!!!

I really like this one from Wallis but it only goes up to a size 20s n not sure if that will fit, on the website they only have up to a 16s in stock and in the one in town only got an 18s!!! and gutted cos its only £35 with 20% off so not bad for a posh frock!!!!

went to have a look in Evans after one of the ladies on 5+ works in one and said they have a lot of fashionable stuff in, well think they skippped my one!!! its all crimaline and polyester tat!!! £70 for a dress thats just to frilly n flowncy. i did see a couple of pretty dresses but my boobs are too small n my belly to big!!!! acres of fabric spare in the old boob area but need extra round the middle!!!! found an ok top but its elasticated round the bottom not a good look on me!!!!

Wisdom is knowing what to do next; virtue is doing it. ~David Star Jordan, The Philosophy of Despair

A new beginning again tomorrow
had a WI this AM and i am back at 19 6!!! EEEEKKK how can i let myself get like this?!!!!!

well thought i'd best take some pics nit sure what went wrong with the side veiw but i was too disgusted with myself to re-take it!!!!

Why do my boobs looks square??? i not sure but i've even got a plain bra on so its not even werid n waky shapes poking through!!!!

I wasted time, and now doth time waste me William Shakespeare

well the re-start hasn't gone quite to plan!!!

will power is what i need anyone know where i can get some

i have a mini action plan!!!

its 27 weeks till the friday before Sarahs Hen do week, which means dressing up as a bloody cheer leader or gangster girl.

i really can't see me ever looking like either of these pictures!!!!!!
steps to take

walk up the stairs of the Annex 2x a day.
5 portions of fruit n veg
8 cups of water a day
boob job!!! (lol kidding!!)
1 x can of pop a day at the most
no trips to the vending machine
stop buying dinners from work they mainly taste vile n just bloat me

Food is an important part of a balanced diet.

Food is an important part of a balanced diet.
Fran Lebowitz (1950 - )

i was looking for work life balance quotes but found this one instead!!!!

Once again i fell off the Wagin with a rather loud thud leaving an enormous dent in the tarmac beneath me!!!!!

it's my works Xmas do in 2 weeks on Friday and i am the biggest one going, the 2 other girls around my age who are going are both slim pretty and men like them (they also have BFs) but they are planning this pamper day not that i wanna join in but getting spray tans so their slinky dresses look even better than they would do now!!!! (i spy green eyed monster!!!)

i'm off to the Army Navy stores for a Tent to wear!!! i normally don't get hung up about what i look like, i am so used to being the fat friend i even don't mind showing the tops of my arms but thus xmas i feel differnt.

looking on the boards at people who started their diets in Jan when i originally re-started for the millionth time i see how far they have come and that green eyed monster rears its little head again!!!!

i am my own worst enemy and that is such an over used phrase but it sums it up perfectly!!!!!

last weekend i went out n saw Scott from 5ive at my local club, he was fab!!!!

i was sticking to points really well yesterday till i got home from work when the pig inside me came out!!! and i've done the same tonight after my tea i had 4 points left so had a nutrigrain soft oat cookie which i think is 2points

THEN i had a blackcurrent danish pasrty !!! ops must be at least 100 points!!!!!!