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Till the day my friend gets married or as i like to call it the End.

i need to get over myself and be positve but u know when sometimes all u can think is negative thoughts

tonight i decided to google some love quotes as she loves quotes and i thought i could pop one inside her wedding card, i'm a planner what can i say

the 1st page i found was all cinical and depressing

like the end of life is marriage thats not a direct quote but u get the drift

found some lovely ones, but got me thinking i've never heard her say she loves him, and to be honest the engagement came as a shock don't know how to act around them, mnakes me feel pissed off that i don't know how to act around a girl i've been friends with since Imps, Elves and pixie days (aka brownies) really close mates since we were abotu 13 and why am i not normal, why do i not have a fella, why oh why oh why


OMG i'm a self pitying cow can someone please shut me up

i have decidede to give the wendie plan ago,, i've not pointed for months and the rate i'm going i will be in size 22 wedding wear and i wanna be in a 16s 18s at a push

i have also canx my gym membership.its a waste of money and it was going up by a whole £1.95 oer month scandalous!!!

need to dig out the wii fit and play on that!!

Sunday Night

evening campers what another lovely sunday evening ti is, please excuse ym spelling as i am using a new wireless key board and am sat on the floor near the poc as my mama is on my lap top and i can't fdind a chair to use with the pc, Oh hang on i'll go n get the ikea stool.

My dad has bought a new desk for the CP to go on and it is huge i mean huge it makes the welsh dresser look tiny. will put pics up tomorrow or later, anyway it is a lovely desk but cos he's had to decorate before the desk could be put up the dining room is in more disaray than ususal!!! all 6 of the dinig chairs have stuff piled up on them, so i was stilling on the floor but couldn't see the screen, but i'm happily installed on my £4 ikea stool that we use for hair dying!!!


my weight loss was 0.5lbs this week, which i am most please about, i have still been messing about n not pointing and cosd i had such a messy weekend i wouldn't have been supprised if i'd gained!!!

we have booked a holiday to murcia for a week, just me mum n dad going, i know i am a bit old to still go away with my mum n dad but with the lasck of a partner or mates to go with this year i thought why not!!!

we are going to a lovely looking apartment booked through owners direct and the chap who owns it seems nice and efficient he rang us as soon as we sent the email enquiry and emailed the detailsa s promised!!!

i'm looking forward to it. will need to be effecient with my packing as we only have carry on bags!!! but i'm sure if i'm sensible (and dress like heidi on the day of trasvelling!!) i can get away with waht i need to take. the aprtment has a washer n dryer so i can take 2 of everything and keep washing it!!!

the place looks really nice and there are mud baths so am defo wanting to go there and shove my fractured paw in the mud, western doctords still haven't fixed it so what half can a bit of good old fashined mud do?!?!?!?!?!

The curous incident of the kitty in the night time

This i am afriad is a cut n paste jobbie from my other blog, but is quite funny so here it is again!!!

Recently we had a brand new leather suite and new cushions, my mum said she won't get one till the cat had passed into the other world but at only 10 yrs ols (how we have not broke her is a mirical!) she is showing no signs of popping her furry clogs, so Mama mia decided to get one anyway (a new suite that is incase u are lost!) and decided that cat would not be allowed into the front room unsupervised!!! Haha any cat owners will know there is no way u can tell a cat what to do!!!

it started off so well cat was shut in kitchen and dining room (with cat flap access) when we where out and at night, but dear old kitty anne has started sleeping behind the sofa and not budging at bed time so u have no choice but to leave her un-supervised unless u famcy a mad half hour of chasing her round!!!

well anyway i ramble as i am drunk

i got home tonight at 1am, been to a pub with my mates (thats a story for another time!) when i opened the door to the front room i could sense something was differnt, when i looked the cat was lied on top of a new cushion on the new sofa!!! haha OMG i have found her in a similar postion before, i didn't dare mover her as i thought cat clawes new leather suite could be a bad / dangerous combination!!! so i wipped out the camer and took a few snaps!!!

i have also changed the desk top pic on my mums area of the computer incase i forget about the curoius incident of the naughty kitty in the night time. !!!!

Look how smug she looks!!!








A Bit about my journey

my weight loss at times is a bit of a non -runner, but i really need to get back on board the wagon sarahs wedding is 11 months away n at the rate i'm going will be still in a size 22. even if i have to wear a size 18 to the wedding it will be so much better than where i am now, saying that i have just eaten a chicken kebab n a portion of cheesy chips!!! ops

toot toot is that the wagon rolling past without me again!!!!


5 of us went to the local pub n i had 4 pints of becks Vier ( No idea on points) was my 2 mates n their fella and i always feel down n depressed as the only single one, and its not like they are lovely dovey n all over each other but i get this lump in my throat n feel miserable. it was quite a nice night really, we laughed chatted got food, but i felt like the spare, the token singleton n it makes me miserable, tomorrow my friend asked if me n the other girl wanted to go out for lunch n now its me my mates their fellas n my mates kid, so i still won't be able to talk to them how i feel when we go out, part of me want to stay home but why should i miss seeing my mates cos i'm single n they don't go out without there OHs!?!!?!?!?!?!!?

the drunken one is now signing off

adios!!!

Pertition

What should i wear tonight?

Purple Dress

Or Flowery Dress????

if it's the flowery dress i'll prob wear jeans under it, was randomly getting changed in my lounge!!!

The decision has been made and i am alldressd in Purple!!!!

New Photo's

Well seen as i am back on track thought i'd take some new photos!!!

i need to do my measurements but am a bit scared at the mo!!!

please excuse the state of my hait today i'm going to wash it later as i'm off out, but really can't be bothered will take some more pics once i'm all dressed up

i'm off out on my 1st night out since 14th June!!!

sad that i know the date but only because it was the day before i did race for life.

i have had girlie nights in n stuff but going out out, feels really strange, i can't remeber what to do!!!!!!

I Baked!!!

And Burnt them!!!!! they wern't cooking then i gave them an extra min and this is the result!!!!!


Oh and lost 2lbs this morning!!!!!!!!!!!

Fresh start

count down

• 258lbs 103lbs to go
• 261lbs 106lbs to go
• 262lbs 107lbs to go!
• 266lbs 111lbs to go
• 268lbs 113lbs to go
• 270 lbs 115 lbs to go
• 273.5lbs 118.5lbs to go

Weight

• Wk 25 - 30/06/2008 18 st 11.5lbs (+5.5lbs - Tot -10lbs) BMI 42.5
• WK 10-24- ARRRRRGGGGGG
• WK9- 09/03/08 - 18st 6lbs (-3lbs - Tot -15.5lbs) BMI - 41.64
• WK8- 02/03/08 - 18st 9lbs (-0lbs - Tot -12.5lbs) BMI - 42.13
• WK7- 24/02/08 - 18st 9lbs (-0lbs - Tot -12.5lbs) BMI - 42.13
• WK6- 17/02/08 - 18st 9lbs (-1lbs - Tot -12.5lbs) BMI - 42.13
• WK5- 10/02/08 - 18st 10lbs (-4lbs - Tot -11.5lbs) BMI - 42.29
• WK4 - 03/02/08 - 19st 0lbs (-2lbs - Tot -7.5lbs) BMI - 42.93
• WK3 - 28/01/08 - 19st 2lbs (-0lbs - Tot -5.5lbs) BMI - 43.26
• WK2 - 21/01/08 - 19st 2lbs (-2.5lbs - Tot -5.5lbs) BMI - 43.26
• WK1 - 14/01/08 - 19st 4lbs (-3.5lbs) BMI 43.58
• Wk0 - 07/01/08 - 19st 7.5lbs BMI - 44.14

This is all the info from the last fresh start i had

but after long thoughts and no action i need to start again!!!


oh no i hear u cry she's starting yet again!!! well it has to be done!!!

so start weight week 0 is 19st. 25th july 2008

wk1 18st 11.5lbs 020808 - 2.5lbs
wk2 18st 12.5lbw 0908080 +1lb :(
wk3 ........

Holy Sheeeeet!!!

Only 19 weeks of this year left!!!! OMG!!!

where has the time gone. it doesn't seem like 2 mins since it was Jan and i was making vows to stay on track, be good, lose weight, get healthy.

what happened. Life i guess, but this is my life and i need to get control back

SP and DK are getting married in under a year now, look at the count down timer and i know this is selfish and their wedding is totally not about me but i can't help being a selfish mooo and thinking OMG what state will i look like at their wedding, will people be nice to me, will i have a date for the wedding by then, will i be the only sad singleton!!!!

it makes me want to cry

where as i should be really happy for them (i am happy that they are doing what they want to do) i need to get over myself.


diet is down the shitter pardon my expression

these blooming wisdom teeth have been a nightmare, makes me not want to eat, but then all of a sudden i have to eat, and when i say eat i mean everything insight!!!!!


Tomorrow marks the 2nd of my friday wi's last week i had a 1lb gain, this is the 1st time i have admitted that. i need to get back on track.

i have seen a fab dress that would look great for the wedding of the year ----> and i love it. its £99 in the Littlewoods catologue.

it does go up to a soze 20's, but i do want to be thinner than that for the wedding, but at the same time don't wanna be too optomistic about what i can achive and its a lot for a dress i will only wear once!!!!

may have to have a look again closer to the wedding!!!

i defo won't be buying till june next year at the earliest but i'm keep my eye out for bargins!!! and this isn't a bargin but it is lovely!!!


see look i've made it all about me!!!!

and speaking of me here is a pic of me taken earlier tonight!!!

This pic really shows up my swollen face cos of my teething issue!!!!

i can't beleive how long my hair is getting, i needs cutting but want to leave it as long as i can, as the top layer is still way to short and you know what hairdresser can be like with those thinning scissors!!!!

God knows what i'm looking at in this pic cos i was taking the pic of myself!!! haha geek !!!!!

was wi only yesterday?

gosh it seems like a life time since i last posted but it was only yesterday, well technically the day before!!!

Last night (friday) was so much fun SP had an Hawaiian themed sleep over, bright coloured clothes, punch, buffett pizza (not hawaiian!) and good friends and gossip and general chat and laughter and other such merriment!!!

today saturday we went to the peels for lunch then me and tan went to bolton with "mum" so she could do payroll for her shop and we went and shopped in NL!!! got a skirt and a dress, the skirt is a bit to big so may take back tomorrow not tried the dress on yet!

i have burned today, although its been nice i didn't think it was that nice!!!

Got That Friday Feeling

Fresh start at 19st eeeekkkk

but i think wi on a friday will be good. i feel quite positive so fasr.

my main problems with food are once i'm at home

last night while i was waititng for my t to cook i had 3 slices of bread that was more points that my tea, that was lovely tesco healty living singapour noodles mmmmm 5.5 points then i had 3 fondent fancies !!!

Cunning Plan!!!

Friday is the new Monday!!!!!

MySpace Layouts

MySpace Layouts
MySpace Codes
MySpace Backgrounds

its almost a year till the wedding and i can not go on like this i know i keep going on and on, well now its time to put words into action!!!

i've always done wi on a sunday or a monday

but why? this is a hang over from going to classes, surely it makes more sense to have WI on my day off and its the end of the week so any weekend damage can be re-couped during the week!!!

so the decision has been made friday is a new fresh start!!!!

i need to do it same mini goals apply, not time scales for the time being but aim to have continual losses rather than gains!!!!1

exterminate exterminate

i wish i was a darlek, inside my metal suit, my fat could expand and it'd all be contained, if we were all darleks no-one would judge one an other as we'd all be the same on the outside.

i need desparatly to pull my finger out and get back on track, i'm thinking of re-joining a class but i'd have to be the one on friday mornings at the edgerton rooms and its on a bit early!!! 10am!!!

i have got 368 days till SP get married and i will have to see all the people from school at DK will have invited.

how much weight can i lose in that time?

realistically it can be 52lbs. 1lb a week

19st 3lbs (with me jeans on this am!!) so thats 269lbs -52lbs =217 (or 15.7stone) that could work



This is me now!!!!

ok action plan!! (how many of these have a done!)
Tomorrow WI 1st thing.

1st MG to get to 18st 6lbs (lowest weight last time - March time)
2nd MG to get to 18st 2lbs (lowest weight for a long time!)
3rd MG to get to 17st 13.5lbs!
4th MG 10% - to have lost 27lbs.

i'm still going from my last orignial start weigh from when this blog started as i have decided my fall off the wagin was a blip and this is a re-start not a brand new experience!!!

Inspiration

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5c22JCnMiq4

The House at Rivington Pike

as i keep wanting to call the book that i am reading.

i strated it this time last year, then gave up, which isn't normally like that but saying that its taken me almost 9 months to finish the last Kathy Riches book, its taken that long the day i finished it it came out in paperback!!!!

The re-start to my diet has done disaterously!!!! and now the scales have vanished, so i couldn't WI again!!! i forgot last week as i was so used to not W'ing In that i forgot!!! doh

but this weekend the old people where paying us a visit to see the new suite so it was en-masse tidy up and the scales where in the kitchen and now they have vanished!

i need to get back on track!

Topic : Some People

I posted this topic on 5+ board before

Just got the below message from someone on free dating.com!!!

best of it is he has no profile pic!!!


"No Offence Darling.

But you should go away and lose weight and then come back.

You look ruff! at least 40 looking.

Spend a little more time excersing and a little less time on your fat ar$e surfing the net and youll be fine."

i've reported it, but the cheeky sod!!! a message came up if other people report him he will be suspended!!! grrr

i'm not upset but angry, how dare he and with no profile pic i sent back a message but i'm regretting it now

i sent "Have you ever heard the saying

"if you can't say anything nice then don't say anything at all!"

i think you should take that into consideration before you send anyone else an offensive message, and you can talk not even putting a pic up!

GROW UP! "


I feel like shit!!! how dare people how dare he photoless london clubber!!!

but the messages of love and support i got of the 5+ers was amazing. you guys are fab!!!!

i need to move on from this but i keep thinking about it!!!

maybe the truth hurt maybe he's right but in the words of peter kay max and paddy styleeee "HOW DARE YOU!"

Don't Cry for me Argentina

It's evita day!!!and i can't wait!!!! i need to get some food as all i've had to eat today is some fruit salad sweets at granny wannys!!!

haha i knew those fruit salads would come back to haunt me!!! before i could get granny wanny out the house she was looking for some toffee's. not the ones she'd given to me and my mum the day before that we dumpt on the kitchen table!!! but some nice ones fruity ones!!! i had to confess that me and La Mama had demolished them this morning while we sent her to change into the dress we'd got her from debemhammy!!! its a pale background with teal, blue navy and beige spots in a random pattern, was a bargin £20 reduced from £40 then 20% off at the till.
it looks fab on her perfect for my "cousins" wedding ("cousin = my mums cousins daughter!) The Dress is like the one above just differnt colour and pattern!

Evita Evita Evita!!!! OMG this was fantastic!!! totally differnt from what i imagined, not like the film at all, but why would it be and how could it be!!! i got tingles in the opening scenes!!!
the Guy that played Che was Amazing, wasn't sure what to expect because i love Antonio as Che but Seamus Cullen was fab!!!! The Girl that played Eva was great as well, her singing was a bit piercing at times but its a big role and she did it proud!!!! :)
We had a bit of time to Kill before the Show started but not enough to go shopping se we had a wander up to albert sqaure, saw a statue of Abraham Lincoln, looking C'ést magnifique and in front of it is a garden memorial to Princess Diana. Such a shame, all the needed to do was scatter a pack of seeds, not even have bedding out plants, but no its a jumble of weeds and fag dimps!!! oh there is one solitary half dead pansy, come one Manchester council either do stuff properly or not at all!!!


so on we treck up and round towards peter street and we come across a kiddies play area and the panel below was so pretty i had to take a pic!!!



Oh Did i mention i got new glasses 2 pairs for dum dum dum £20!!! haha cheap skate i know!!! well they we're two pairs for £75 but cos i need them for the PC work contributed £55!!! so after a long battle with Spec savers to get a refund cos i PIF'd then work gave me the voucher i am the happy owner of 2 new pairs of glasses i'll put another pic of the other ones up another time!!!

OMG no more Doctor who till Xmas my husband is taking a well erned break, but i will miss him so!!! I had guessed / been told a few bits of what happend tonight, but it was fantastic and he is so beautiful, i won't talk much just in case anyone visits who's not seen it yet!!! if not why not, get on BBC Iplayer now, that is an ORDER!!!!

80 fat sausages sizzling in a pan

Well better in a pan than sitting on my bottom!!!!

Look how many of them there are!!!!!



so the Weight Loss Journey (WLJ) starts again.... yet again!!! OMG i need to do this, i need to lose weight. i'm not bothered about being skinny or thin.... all i want is to fit into nice clothes not be scared i won't fit on seats and to get a chap. Oh and to learn to like myself!!!!!

so even though the WLJ starts again i'm gonna use my original weight. i think i've said this before reason i'm doing this is because when i started my journy the last time i weighed 19st 7.5lbs!!! and the time beofore that iwas dead on 20st!!! eeeeekkkk thats scary to write down!!!A Very recent pic 10 points if you can guess what i was doing? Take 15/06/08 i'm 4082

in some ways i think about keeping my total from that 20st but its such a scary figure for me!!! i don't think i ever looked 20stone, but what does it look like!!!?? 2240suasages!!! eh is that right????
i digress... so WLJ take (errr 7?) is beginning again from 19st 7.5lbs so that means as of Monday morning i have lost 10lbs!!!! = 80 sauasages!!!!! is this right can someone confirm this for me????

New mini goals:

1: to get back to the lowest weight of my last WLJ = 18 st 6lbs
2: to get to the lowest weight i can ever remeber being for a long time!!!! = 18st 2lbs!!!
3: to get under 18 stone = 17st 13.5lbs
4: to get to my 10% = 17st 8.5lbs (need to double check this)

ASA reply!

I got a reply after my complaint about the pink patch! they are already investigating and will let me know!!!


got belly ache today surly can't be TOTM already? was last on when i had my week off work, that was only last week or the week before!!!

going working up with ACCU for a couple of days next week, looking forward to it, it'll be good to build bridges and put names to faces !!!!

plus its two night in a hotel

OMG - do people really beleive this

just been on facebook and there was an ad on the side for the pink patch bosting lose 2st in 20 days and a pic there is no way 2 stone loss caused the change in his person if inface it is the same person
This sort of advertising makes me so mad!!! no wonder woman feel pressued to try quick fixes!!!

there is no way in a million years wold i ever try this product and i would encourage anyone thinking about it to stop and try your local slimming club!!!

TARDIS has landed 06/02/08

well thats where my weigh gain has taken me back to and i need to come back with avengence!!!!

Reasons to lose weight!!!

to re-gain control
to feel better
to have enegy
to complete next years race for life in under an hour!!!
to meet a man (sad but true!)
This man will do!!! haha

i've decided i'm not starting again from my current weight but gonna still do my weight loss from my original re-start weigh which i think was 19st 7lbs may be 7.5lbs will need to double check

this may be a cheet but i wanna keep my 10% the same!!! haha

Oh BTW i did my race for life on 15th june my friends just mailed me some picks from it here's one!!!!

i'm back!!!

well it's been awhile and i'm back.

been re-visiting the 5+ board and think i've found my mojo again. i've just made my lunch for tomorrow... ham salad!!! we have no bread so i might try and just have the salad


we've also got strawberries and low fat yougurt!!!


me at uni - i'm the one in the paler top!