Happy Smiley People Holding Hands

Even though work is pretty crummy at the mo i've had a really good day. Had a little chat with the Boss J S-M and we're having a three hour meeting on Monday to discuss my workload. Pretty sure i'll be put on an Action Plan. its not a good thing, but i need him to understand that i am not supergirl, and i do not know half the things he thinks i do!!! Had quite a productive day really. Even if it didn't finish the Elexon Spready. i managed to find time (took 3 hours n J S-M doesn't realise this!!!) to sort out my Master Spready. but now instead of 15 tabs i have 2!!!
sad talking about work on my blog, but who else can i talk to about it!!!!

Anyway WW Wise i really like this cartoon <- pass me the Gun!!!!! Food today: B- 1 slice of cheese toast, 2 slices of normal toast S - Cereal Bar D - Cornbeef butty, Grapes S - grapes n a fruit box T - Chicken, oven chips, coleslaw n gravy (mas combo i know and papa's idea!!) S - Toast!!! Discovered Sainsburys BGTY cereal bars 1 point!!!!! Tesco Finest brown bread really chunky slices and 1.5 points each!! we've bought sainsburys own baked bread today and its nice but has no NVs!!!
Another Great cartoon from Kathy Thorn - >

Another thing i want to blog is about me and my head.

and what a mixed up head i have.

Why am i such a moron?!

when someone like me (like that) and i like them a bit but not much, i let them get on my nerves and i'm not mean to them but i have no time or patience for them!

but when there is someone i like (like that) and he is a mate and there could possibily be something there one day (a big maybe!?!?!) i find my self all giddy n girlie, why can not i like someone who likes me for me and not hanker after someone who is potentially out of my reach (and league).

is it so wrong to want to be wanted by someone i want?

i've been thinking of that allday and couldn't think how to word it and it just popped out!!! its quite a carrie bradshaw question. but its the truth!!

what is at the crux of my problem is my insecurites, my inability to trust a man, i think that any man (on a night out) is talking to me for a joke, pull the fat/ugly bird contest and i put up this brick wall, that is iron clad with a top coat of titanuim. even the sharoest of cupids arrow will not penitrate its hardened shell!!!!

i think when i've lost weight it'll be differnt, but i'm not so sure it will be.